How do I tell her that she's the only thing I hunger for and if I didn't get her, I might really die this time. ~ A. Gupta . COLE IF someone asked me what does heaven and hell wrapped up in one feels like, I’d say this was it. It was being in her bed, surrounded by her things and her presence, her scent and everything that she was but not being able to do anything about it. It has been a week since I got discharged from the hospital and to my surprise Alex dropped me off at Violet’s studio. And every day since then I had been living in a hell of her making and heaven because she was in it with me. Each day I was subjected to her smothering care and as if she wasn’t enough Mrs Carter dropped by unexpected and then decided to look after me herself. But I was quite happy that she did be