The First of Little Johnny-panni’s Last Thoughts
—6 December
the seed…
the germ…
the beginning…
look…
Look back!
To…when…how…
The darkness...
Who am I? Who am I trying to be? Who have I been?
What made me what I…
I hate it. I never hated it before. I can’t live it anymore.
Dear God! Must I…
Do I go into the storm? Lose myself in the storm?
In the darkness...
Darkness descending since…
Since…
What seed this darkness?