“I didn’t really think that through. Hmm.. How about I give you one of my shirts to sleep in for tonight and I will ask my cousin if she can lend you something until we can buy you new clothes.”
“What about my old clothes.”
“Well they are kind of stuck at a crime scene for now, but I promise to take you out, and I will pay for you to get a new wardrobe.”
I have never shopped for my own clothes by myself. Usually, I paid for them, but the fosters picked what I could wear. This is like the reverse to what I am used to. I need help.
“Could we ask your cousin to come along. I am not very good at picking out stuff since I never had to before. My fosters used to always choose what I could wear. I would be super lost unless you want to help.”
“Hmmm.. I could definitely imagine us both in a fitting room together.” He says, making me blush. I try to hide my cheeks with my hands.
“But my cousin is really into shopping, and I don’t see her turning down the offer.”
“Can we get that shirt now?” I am actually starting to feel tired.
“Sure let’s go to my room, and you can pick something out.”
I feel a bit hesitant about going into his room, but I feel like I can trust him.
“ It’s just right across the hall, right?”
“Yeah, it should only take a minute.” He takes a step out the door but then turns back around again.
“Unless you would like to stay the night in my room, that is?”
I am a little taken back by what he said. I can’t help the images of us being close together that run through my mind. I quickly start shaking my head no.
“I think I will be just fine over here.”
“Your loss.” He gives me a devilishly handsome smile before walking over to his door.
I know or at least think that was more of a joke than a serious offer, but sometimes he is hard to read. Also, I am not used to someone flirting with me, rather than just attacking me. Plus, he is probably no, definitely the hottest man I have ever set my eyes on. He is so tall and muscular that I feel so little next to him. His jaw line is well defined, and his bone structure couldn’t be more masculine. He definitely looks like a full-grown man now that I have allowed myself to really look. Now, the more I look, the more I wonder about his age. Either he got held back a few years, or he lied to get in. There could be an off chance that he was just blessed during puberty.
“Hello Gwen! Are you doing alright?”
I blink a few times before realizing I have been just standing there staring at him like some weirdo.
“Umm yeah, I was just wondering how old you are?” He looks somewhat amused at my question.
“How old do you think I am?”
“Well it’s hard to tell. You look like you are definitely over 18 but no older than 24. Yet you are still in school, so it would make it hard to believe you were any more than 19. Of course, now that I know you are a werewolf, you could be 103, and I wouldn’t be able to tell. Subsequently, I have no clue how old you are.”
“Sounds like you gave it some thought. “
“I guess I am just naturally curious. Normally, I would keep it to myself, but somehow, I can’t stop myself around you.”
“Glad you can at least trust me enough to speak your mind.”
“Trust me, that could backfire on you later.”
“ Considering the attitude you gave me moments before passing out in the forest, I believe you. I can handle it, though. I have taken my lumps over the years.”
“Over the years? So you are an old man!” His expression makes me want to smile and laugh, but I hold it together. I can’t help but to have trust in him, but I am still not ready to let my walls down.
“How about we get you that shirt, and we can talk about it after.”
“Fine with me.”
Once his door opens, his divine smell hits me. Walking in, I soak up the ambiance of the room. Everything is carved from wood, and it feels like I am out in nature. His window is open, and I can hear the sounds of crickets and frogs all the way up here in the quiet of the night. The room feels of a comfort I never felt before. His bed is so large that I bet 4 people could sleep on it. I can’t help but touch the mattress, and it is so incredible.
“You sure that you don’t stay in here tonight? I will give you half of the bed to yourself. That is if you can stop yourself from coming over to my side.”
“I don’t think so, old man. I wouldn’t want to hurt your back.”
“I’m not that old!” He snaps back.
I pretend to yawn to cover my smile.
“So how old are you then?” He walks into his closet and comes out with a few shirts.
“First pick one.”
Picking them up, I can see they are all large enough to hang down by my knees. I think I am going to go with the plain black one. Although I kind of wish I had the guts to ask him for the shirt he is wearing. I bet it smells the most like him.
“This one is fine. So how old are you?” I hold the shirt in my arms.
“31!” He just blurts out.
I am perplexed about how he could have gotten into my school. Sure, he looks a lot younger, but he is a massive man.
“How did you get into my school? Why did you want to in the first place?”
“Well the how is magic. I simply traded a witch with some ingredients for her to get me in there. The why has to do with a captivating brunette I saw at a hardware store one day. She smelled of the most delicious chocolate and mouth-watering strawberries. I never felt so enchanted in my life. The only problem is she didn’t give me the time of day. I walked into that store, and I couldn’t even get her to look up at me. It's not something that I am used to, honestly. From there, I developed a plan to try and at least talk to her. Well, things got weird from there, and now we are here.”
His story made my heart jump. He acts as if I am the most fascinating and beautiful woman out there. The most I am used to hearing is she is pretty, but she dresses like an old woman, or she is pretty, but she always looks mad. When he describes me, there is no but after the compliment. I wonder if this does mean we are mates. I remember my parents telling me about mates. They said we are fated by the moon goddess to be together. Like a soul split into two, when we find each other, we become whole again. About a year or so later, they explained to me that the moon goddess works in mysterious ways, and my mate was already picked out for me. I didn’t have to wait for my first shift for me to meet him. The thing is, I still don’t know who he was supposed to be. Could they have been wrong? Did they lie to me?
“Maybe you should go to bed. You seem really tired.”
“Yeah I just am a little confused, I guess. Do you have a box or something Goldie can sleep in?”
“Let me see if I have a shoe box in the closet.”
I sit down on the bed and wait for him. Oh, it is just as cozy as I imagined. I have to stop myself from laying back, or I won’t get up. This room is so unbelievable.
“Here I found a box and put a towel in it for her.” He hands me the box, and I touch the towel. It is so fluffy and soft to the touch.
“Are you sure you want to ruin such a nice towel?”
“It’s fine, that’s actually one of the old ones.”
Now I really can’t wait to take a shower.
“I don’t really know what to feed her.”
“She didn’t tell you?”
“No she didn’t, I guess I could ask. Wait, you were making a joke weren’t you?”
“ Nooo..” He says slyly.
“Look you might not believe me, but I will prove it one day. For now, I am going to bed.”
“She won’t need food. Phoenix live off of air. She can take care of herself, trust me. Let me walk you across the hall.”
“ I think I will be okay. It’s like 15 feet.”
“Yeah but no one knows you are here, and I want to be there just in case.” I open. Up the door and start to walk out.
“Hurry up then!” I walk across the hall and feel him behind me as I open my door. Walking in, I turn around to face him.
“Good night, Jayce.” I say, holding the door.
“Good night, Gwendolyn. If you feel lonely don’t be afraid to come visit me.” He says with some ego.
“I think I will manage.” I say, closing the door. I go to lock it, but there isn’t one. Well, there goes my sleep in that comfy bed.
I set the box down on the bed and put Goldie in it. She looks tuckered out herself.
“At least one of us should enjoy the bed tonight. “
I take the shirt into the bathroom and hang it on a hook. Thankfully, there are different shampoos and soaps, so I can really scrub myself. I don’t know what to do with dirty clothes, so I just toss them in the available hamper. I keep my bra and underwear out just in case I need them tomorrow. I know it’s gross to wear them twice, but it could be my only option tomorrow.
I take a speedy shower so I can just get to sleep. When I get out, I wrap myself up in towels. They are so soothing and smell so clean. After I am somewhat dry, I throw Jayce’s shirt on. I don’t bother putting on my bra or underwear because I don’t want to feel dirty anymore. At this point, I wish I would have tossed them into the trash.
I noticed there is a lock on the bathroom door, so I think I will just sleep in here tonight. The separate tub is a substantial size and should work as a bed. I grab all the pillows off of the bed and the thick duvet cover to make it cozy. Stepping back, I think I did a good job. It isn’t going to be as snug as the bed, but I think it will beat the closet I was sleeping in. I lock the door and turn off the light before getting in.
Oh, it does feel nice. Letting a breath out, I let myself drift to sleep.
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I am sitting in my old living room watching Beauty and the Beast, of course. I am at the part where the Beast is trying to win Bell over. That’s when I hear the voices of my parents and someone elses start to get loud.
“She’s just a child!”
I know they are talking about me now. It’s like every day they bring up my age anymore.
“The Alpha is coming now!”
“Run! Run! Run! Run!”
I get up and open the door to find myself outside in the forest. The sky was orange, and the animals are no where to be found. I hear screaming off in the distance.
“Mom!” I take off running towards her screams. Tears start to fall from my eyes as panic starts to set in.
“Mom where are you?” That’s when I heard my dad scream.
“Dad, Mom!” I start running through the trees trying to find them. I smell blood. It’s thick in the air, and the sky has turned red. I can hear someone behind me, and I know they aren’t friendly. I try to run faster, but I keep getting smaller as I go. Blood starts pouring from the sky, blocking my vision. Their steps get louder as they get closer. I feel hands grab my arms, and I try to fight back. While I’m kicking and screaming, I hear my name being called.
“Gwen wake up! It’s okay you’re safe.” I open my eyes, and Jayce is trying to shake me awake. I take in deep breaths and let them out. Everything is so disoriented that I can’t remember where I even am. I look around the room and begin to remember going to bed.
“It was just a nightmare.” I say to myself.
“You were screaming for your parents. I could hear you from my room.” Looking back at Jayce, it is almost like I forgot he was here and woke me up. I don’t know what to say. It’s like being here is flooding all of these memories back to me.
He starts to look around the tub at all of my blankets and pillows.
“Did you sleep in here?” Wiping the sweat off of my face, I try to get my composure back.
“There isn’t a lock on my door.” Was all I could muster up.
“No one will hurt you here, Gwen. I would literally kill them if they tried. You are safe here.” He puts his hands out, and I grab them. He pulls me out of the tub and right into his chest.
“I can’t just let my walls down, Jayce. It has taken a lot to survive up until now, and I can’t just stop.”
He brushes my hair off of my face, looking deep in thought. We are really close, and my hands are on his chest. I can feel his muscles through his shirt. They make me feel both turned on and powerless at the same time. He could have overpowered me at any point if he wanted to, yet he has only used a gentle hand towards me. I feel like I need to say something, or we will just stand like this for eternity.
“I want to go to school today.” I look into his eyes, letting myself get a little dizzy under his spell.
“Are you sure? You probably could just skip the last of the year if you wanted to.”
“I need something normal to keep me going.”
“Can I take you to breakfast first?”
“I have to wait until the bank opens to get money. I don’t have a bank card or anything.”
“No, as a date. I will pay. I will always pay for whatever you want.”
“I.. I um.” I have no excuse to say no for the first time. I want to say yes, but what if we aren’t mates after all. Just look at him, though. Those eyes! How can anyone say no to those eyes or those lips.
“I um.”
What were we talking about again?
He holds my chin gently with his massive hand, making me feel even more foggy.
“How about it, beauty?”
“Okay.” Okay? Yes, I do believe that’s a real word, right? He is lowering his head towards me, and I don’t know what to do. My heart is racing so fast.
Finally, his lips touch mine, sending tingles down my spine. It feels more intense than the last time. I pull him closer to me, feeling my n*****s get hard as they rub up against him. I never noticed how sensitive they can be. I wish there wasn’t clothes between us.
He lightly licks my lips, wanting to take the kiss further. I have never French kissed before, which probably goes without saying.
Slightly, I part my lips, allowing him access. Our tongues dance together effortlessly, and it’s boosting my confidence to lean more into it. I run my fingers through his hair, and he gives me a growl. It sounds so sexy and assertive.
SLAM
“Hello? Jayce, are you here?”
I pull away and cover my mouth. I can’t even believe what just happened. Or what was about to happen.
Jayce looks towards the door irritated.
“We will be out in a minute!” he yells at the woman who just walked in.
“ I will fix your bathroom door later, then put a lock on the bedroom door, okay?” Still feeling stunned, I simply shake my head up and down.
“Will you sleep in your bed if I do that?”
Dropping my hand from my mouth, I mutter out a yes.
“Good, now come meet my cousin Rio.”
Walking me into the bedroom, I spot Rio checking herself out in the mirror. I would too if I looked like her. She has long legs that go on and on. Her skin is completely flawless, and her long platinum blonde hair is so shiny. Her nails are long and painted meticulously. Looking down at mine makes me sick. I chewed most of them off, and some still have dirt under them.
I know I should probably be more self-conscious about the fact that I am only wearing a long shirt, but I have no problem showing my body. Not that I ever want to take nudes for money again. The way I see it is that every time I shift, I will always end up nude after, so why fight it. However, I bet she picked up on the smell of our hormones, and I’m not sure how I feel about that. It does feel somewhat awkward since I hardly know him and that she is his family.
Walking over, she puts her hand out for me to shake.
“Hello, I am Rio Jayce’s cousin.”
I shake her hand back.
“Hello I am…” Oh no! Do I say Olive or Gwen? I look at Jayce for help, but he looks like he is also waiting for an answer.
“Jeeze Jayce, what did you do, Fu** the poor girls' brains out?” She says more to him than me. My cheeks feel like they are on fire with embarrassment.
“OLIVE! My name is Olive!” Yikes, I ended up yelling that.
“Olive, Jayce tells me you are in need of some clothes.”
“Yes, I lost everything recently. I don’t want to be any trouble to you, though.”
Jayce puts his hands around my waist and pulls my back into his chest. It feels so right, like I was meant to be this close to him.
“I’m sure it wouldn’t be too much trouble to get the future Luna something nice to wear. Right Rio?”
Luna? That’s right, if we are mates and he is the Alpha, I would be his Luna. I almost forgot about Lunas because my old pack lost theirs before I was born. I guess I was just used to the idea of the Alpha running everything.
“OH MY GODDESSSSSSS!”
Instantly, I cover my ears trying to protect what hearing I have left after Rios screams.
She hugs me real tight, making it hard to breathe. I suck in the air the second she lets go of me.
“Jayce you didn’t tell me she was your mate. Why haven’t you marked her yet?”
“Marked me?” I put my hand over the spot between my shoulder and neck to protect it. My parents said that it would hurt greatly if they didn’t approve of it first. They said I could even die. They aren’t here anymore to let me know what to do.
“Are you okay?” Rio asks, looking worried.
“My parents aren’t here anymore. They can’t approve Jayce marking me so that it won’t hurt or kill me.”
“What?” They both say at the same time.
“They said that once they chose my mate, they would tell the moon goddess that they approve so I am not punished with pain or death. You know when they mark me.” Jayce spins me around carefully, so I am facing him.
“ I don’t know why your parents told you that, but it couldn’t be further than the truth. The moon goddess decides our mates purely by herself. When we mark each other, it is our decision to make, and it can be extremely pleasurable but never painful or dangerous.”
My parents made this mate thing so confusing. Why would they tell me if it wasn’t true. Were they afraid I would let the wrong person mark me? I feel like such a freak now. I just hope those two are right about this.
“So if we’re mates and mark each other, it won’t hurt?”
“Wait what does she mean IF you are mates?”