That night Erica was left alone in the room. She was now wearing her night suit as she sat on the bed all alone.
Thinking about her life choices, thinking about what she did wrong, what was her fault? Was it her fault that she desired to be loved?
The thoughts were eating her mind when the door opened with a bang and Neil walked in, clearly drunk.
Erica got up from her bed and looked at Neil, whose eyes were bloodshot and he looked miserable.
He took another step but fell to the floor.
"Neil!" Erica yelled and ran to him without any hesitation.
She grabbed him and wanted to help him get up, but he pushed her back and made her fall to the ground.
"Don't touch me, you filth," he said in his slurry voice.
Before he slowly stood up on his own, Erica wanted to help him, but he walked toward him, and with each step, he took towards her Erica stepped back till her back was against the wall.
Neil didn't stop and came near her very near, such that Erica could feel his breath on her face, the smell of alcohol invaded her nose making her frown and scared at the same time.
"Neil... you are drunk..." Erica said as she kept her hand on his shoulder and tried to make him move back but Neil grabbed her hands and pinned them against the wall.
Erica winced and her eyes widened. Her heart was beating faster and faster when Neil leaned in and kept his face on her neck.
He took a long breath and Erica closed her eyes as she turned her neck to the side, "I... love you..."
Erica's eyes widened and her heart came to her mouth as Neil said in his firm and seductive manly voice, "I want you... I desire you... I crave your body..." He said as he grabbed Erica's waists, his hand firmly squeezing her waist making her moan.
"You are so pretty," Neil said as he picked her up and throw her on the bed, and undressed. He threw his shirt on the ground and however, over Erica looking at her. With his dizzy and bloodshot eyes.
Erica gulped as she saw Neil's eyes, For Erica Neil's eyes were like an abyss, dark and deep. and yet intriguing.
Erica gulped as she felt Neil's body against her.
Neil's hand caressed her face before he leaned in, Erica felt on cloud nine after Neil came so close to her face that she closed her eyes and waited for what was to come.
She laid there silently, with her heart beating so fast that she might have a heart attack. Every nerve of her body felt tingles.
But when she felt a pair of soft lips against her own, she felt that a swarm of butterflies attacked her stomach. She felt bliss as she clutched the bedsheets below her as Neil kissed her with passion and aggressiveness. Erica enjoyed every part of it.
Neil then grabbed her hips. Erica let out a moan and fell out of breathing. She felt difficult to breathe, so she slightly pinched Neil's chest, who broke the kiss and attacked her neck.
Erica felt like she was in a dream, this was all her imagination. But whatever it was, it was beautiful, and she loved every second of it.
However, her beautiful dream shattered and her heart bled after she was stabbed by the next words that Neil said.
"I love you... I love you so much... Jenna."
Erica's eyes opened and tears filled her eyes. Suddenly she felt disgusted she felt repulsive when Neil touched her body.
Neil bit her neck and this time Erica did not feel the pleasure she felt hurt and disgust, so she grabbed Neil's shoulders and used all her power and pushed him to get him off her.
Neil fell on the bed and Erica took this chance and ran to the washroom and closed the door.
She stood under the shower, and cold water fell on her body. She wiped her body and used soap to get rid of the nasty feeling, to get rid of the memory of Neil's touch, all while crying and her eyes out.
She suddenly felt nausea as she went near the toilet and puked the contents of her stomach before crying hysterically and going back to the shower.
After rubbing her body for at least one hour under the cold running water, she wrapped the towel around herself and went to stand before the mirror.
She looked at herself; she looked that her eyes were red and her skin was pale, she looked pathetic and she hated herself.
She suddenly slapped herself, once and then twice, punishing herself for hoping, for expecting for getting distracted. Her main purpose was to fall out of Neil's love and not fall in love harder with him. So she slapped herself again and reminded herself not to get swayed the next time.
Neil can never love, and he will never love.
After reminding herself of her purpose she walked out of the washroom and looked at Neil who was lying on the bed passed out.
She went to him and took off his shoes and loosened his tie before covering him with the duvet and then walking to the sofa.
She laid down on the sofa and started at the ceiling thinking about today's events, and how will she do this for the other days.
How many times will her heart get hurt and how many times does she have to go through this excruciating pain?
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The next morning Erica came down and went to the kitchen to get herself something to eat.
She opened the fridge and looked around and the only edible thing that she found was some fruits, she took the grapes and ate them before she walked out of the kitchen only to come face to face with Neil's mother who was looking at her with a frown.
"What are you doing here?"
Erica hated these kinds of questions with a passion, it was clearly visible that she was eating but no, she had to ask, so Erica also replied, "I was just looking around."
"And stealing food?" Neil's mother spoke.
Erica looked at the small bowl of grapes that she was eating before she sighed. "I was hungry and so I thought that I should eat something."
Neil's mother did not like Erica talking back to her. She never really liked Erica, "What makes you think that you are allowed to roam here and there freely around the house? Who gave you the right huh?"
She asked and Erica sighed, "I am your son's wife."
Neil's mother felt rage, to think that Erica wanted to misuse her position as Neil's wife and show off. Neil's mother thought that Erica was some sort of gold digger who wanted to use Neil's money and power and behave arrogantly and such sorts of women should be bought under control.
So she walked ahead and slapped Erica's hand. The bowl of grapes fell from her hand, "Don't you dare to talk back to me again Erica! you are not Neil's wife you are just a replacement and nothing more.
You can never take Jenna's place, only she can be the daughter-in-law of this household while you are just temporary filth."
The servants saw this and the head servant, Elsa, also laughed at this.
Neil's mother was not done yet as she spoke, "Your value in this house is just like furniture, so stay quiet and stay at your place just like furniture."
She said and walked away, but before going she said, "clean this up."
Erica looked at her with shock and Neil's mother thought that Erica was defying her, so she said with a firmer voice and cold eyes, "Clean this!"
Erica gulped and clenched her fist. Not wanting to anger her further she bent down and picked up the bowl and the grapes.
Neil's mother then walked away with a triumph smirk.
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The next morning when Neil got up he felt a terrible headache.
He tried to remember last night's events but can't recall anything.
He saw painkillers and water on the bedside table. He sighed and took them before going to the washroom.
After he came out he saw Erica taking out her stuff from her suitcase before she stood up going towards the washroom to get changed she walked past him but Neil grabbed her hand preventing her to walk, Erica looked at him with her bored and poker pretending that she didn't care but Neil's hold on her reminded her of the last night
"What?" she asked in her bored voice.
But instead of replying, Neil grabbed her hair and pulled her in, she winced with pain and glared at him. "what are you doing?"
She asked and struggled against her hold, but Neil raised his hand and gently touched the hickey that he created in Erica's neck but did not remember.
"You are really disgusting!" he said and pushed her back, "you got married to me just yesterday and now you are cheating on me? I never thought that you could stand that low! Are you really that hungry for a man's touch? Or perhaps did the man pay you more than me?"
Every harsh word that Neil said stabbed her heart over and over. She felt resisted the urge to keep her hand on her chest to ease the pain before she glared at him, "So what! aren't you in love with Jenna? Despite being married? Why can't I then?"
Neil was so furious that he harshly grabbed her hand "I don't care who you sleep with or who you fall in love with but till you are part of this family refrain yourself because if my family's reputation suffers then I will make your life a living hell."
Erica yanked her hand, "Well, it already is after marrying you, you cannot make it worse."
Neil felt rage. He wanted to bend this woman, make her obey him, and respect him. Erica was the only woman who had defied him and always talked back to him. She was arrogant and overconfident, and even rude.
"Till you are in my house, you will respect me. You get that!"
"And if I don't then?" Erica spoke, "What will you do?" She provoked him and asked again, "What will you do huh? I want to know."
Neil grabbed her hand and pushed her against the wall. His face was very close to her's as he spoke, "Listen, Erica and listen good, don't even for a second think that I owe you anything, you get it? With a snap of my fingers, I will make your life a living hell. I will ruin your dreams and passion and everything dear to you. Don't provoke me.
Don't make me go that far. Trust me, you don't want to see that side of me."
Neil said in a husky voice that send shivers down Erica's spine and she gulped. Neil squeezed her hand tighter, making her wince in pain. "Do you understand?"
He asked, but Erica pressed her lips together and refused to reply. Neil moved forward and bought his mouth very near to Erica's neck where the last night's hickey rested. He opened his mouth and bit her.
His bite was aggressive and full of authority. The sole purpose was to declare territory, he bit her skin till the blood came out and Erica winced with the pain. She slapped Neil's shoulder, "Let go... let go!! Neil!!"
She yelled, and Neil finally moved back, but his hold was still on her hand. "Am I clear?" Erica glared at him.
"Look like I wasn't clear," he said and leaned in but this time Emry said, "Okay, Okay I get it to get off me now!"
She said, and Neil smirked before he finally let go of her, "Remember my words, and refrain from opening your legs in front of just anyone!"
She picked up her clothes and ran to the washroom.