Rejected but still desired

The Kitchens: the central hub of gossip

Selena POV:

I had kitchen duty and tonight none of the other girls were going off at me and that only happened on rare occasions, one: there was a hot new male around or two: there was hot new juicy gossip. I made sure to strain my ears to listen to it all.

"Okay so, I was cleaning the stairs and I heard everything!" Exclaimed one of the girls excitedly, "Katie! Stop with the baiting and just tell us!" Squealed the other one, just as eager to know. I was busy scrubbing a pot but even my hands had slowed down to listen in better to what had happened that had created such a buzz. It was like in Cinderella when every girl was notified she had to fit into a shoe and who ever fit would be the new Queen or well, the prince's bride. "Okay, okay! So I was scrubbing the stairs, Isaac," whispers Katie as she looks around cautiously, "goes to Alpha Ethan's room and he is all like submissive and quiet," she says taking a big gulp of air and I presume she was also looking around for any superiors before continuing. "Yeah?" Asked the other girls in unison all wanting Katie to continue with her painfully interesting story, "Isaac was begging the young Alpha for help, for his silence to be exact," she paused again and I could feel myself also wanting to slam the pot I was still scrubbing and grab Katie and shake the damn gossip out of her. "So, then it comes out that the beta's little girl Alice is busy sleeping with Isaac and oh my goddess! They did it in Ethan's room." There's gasps from all and I nearly drop the pot. I slowly lower the pot back into the sink and now I'm just listening, everyone is shocked. "Poor Ethan!" Squealed one of the girls and the other hit her with a dish cloth, "don't even think about it Clary!" Said someone else, "what?" Asked Clary playfully, "he probably needs some deep support in these kind of times," I rolled my eyes at them, the gossip was over now it was back to fawning over him and his rank. I went back to scrubbing the pot more vigorously, not interested in anything they were saying. As I was rinsing the big pot, I hadn't noticed that the kitchen had fallen into an eerie silence. "Hi Selena," I felt his breath on the back of my neck, just as I heard his voice. I spun around on reflex and looked at him in shock, "what do you want!?" I snapped on impulse, there were a few gasps at my brashness but honestly, everyone knew what to expect from me. He took a step back, "could you please help me sort out some stuff in my room?" He asked politely and I was still pretty shaken by how close he seemed to get to me as of late, "I can't." I answered back, trying to hold back the shaking of my voice, "why not?" He asked and I could feel every pair of eyes on me in the kitchen, making me deeply uncomfortable. "I have to finish my chores." It was the lamest excuse ever but I had nothing else to give that seemed plausible. It was just my luck as usual that Ro walked in at that very moment. All the other girls immediately went back to work, "Selena!" She snapped at me and my eyes snapped to Ro and back to him, "if the Alpha asks you to do something then you do it! No questions asked!" She shouted, her voice echoing through the kitchen, "well, I can't just do everything he wants," I muttered. Ro growled at me and I looked down at my shoes immediately, why was I always so stupid with my smart ass mouth? "Go! Immediately to the Alpha's room and you stay there until whatever he needs done is done!" She snapped, some the girls were enjoying my humiliation, I suppressed the urge to roll my eyes at them. Instead, I nod and follow the Alpha. I was angry at him for this but more than anything I was angry at myself for risking my room. This was a good gig Selena! Just for once in your life submit a little so we can keep this kind of luxury for a bit! I hang my head low and I don't say anything. He scans his room door open and he holds it open for me to enter and I do begrudgingly. I needed to work for him but no where did it say that I had to talk to him. "Selena," he said my name in a weird way, there was a kind of familiarity to it but also a kind of sweetness, I had never heard anyone in my life say my name like that. I suppressed the urge to turn around and face him and instead crossed my arms and stared at the otherside of the room defiantly. "I'm sorry, I didn't know you would get in trouble and i didn't mean to get you in any." His words were sincere and I was sincerely speechless. Not once had any high ranking wolves, well make that any wolf for the matter, had ever apologized to me for anything. Not the bullying or the abuse. They had never once ever spoken to me with kindness or respect and here he was being nice to me. I turned around slowly and faced him, his beautiful face was unnerving me. For once, I didn't feel so sure of myself and it was scaring me. "It's okay, you shouldn't have to apologize. It's my job to serve you." I rambled my reply to him as his eyes continued to pierce through my soul. He shrugged and stepped past me to the bed and kicked of his shoes, "so what do you need help with?" I asked nervously as I shifted from one foot to the other, "could you lay next to me again?" He asked and I felt myself dumbfounded by him again. What in the world of flipped was going on?