poor is not the good thing I wish one day i became good in life like finding a job also have money yes I know I failed my grade1

my dreams no drama ?? same time I asked myself why me and my family because life with jobless it's bad none take care of my family I wish I have the job so that I will take care of my mother ? my child life bad God bless me with good health ? me and my family please ? then is coming the no Job no nothing ? it's really painful ? because you can't do anything you can live the life you want to live ? my story it's painful because none at home getting the job it's to bad I have to date the old man so they help my family when I think about this I cry I cry why me God I know I didn't pass my grade12 but give me something so that I will help my family also my child but hey this love is bad sadness ?? just tired of dating the old man the bless why me God to be jobless is not good don't wish to be me just wish something good not this life I'm living because it's bad lifetime I just cry everyday Everytime when I'm thinking about this kind of life I'm living....same time I asked God why I can't find anything..... but same time i tell myself that one day I will be a better person I know it's won't end like this I know I'm going to find something good one day but why is watching me not helping me ? I also a good person ? too also I want to take care of my family to I want to be a good leader to my child I want to bring more happiness than sadness ? but it won't happened God bless me with Job so that I will stay away from being poor I also want to live a normal life not this one....you know the youth find a sugar daddy because of sadness being not finding a job how can you take a good care of your family without not having a job? it's what kind of life we living my mom always say I know my children one day something will come out just pray asked God for more blessings don't lose hope because you won't know when you going to be rich ? so at my aged I feel bad just I know my mom want us to be strong that why she is saying those word. every child want to be power full in life we all want it so one day is one day