That Night

Chapter 5

"H-Hold me? Y-You want to hold me?" I stuttered in disbelief.

"I'll explain everything just please, I need you in my arms. I need to know that you're safe." He whispered while extending his arms out to me.

Something in my body wanted to yell at me for even considering it, but the larger portion wanted to feel his arms wrapped around my small frame. Somehow knowing that I would feel safe and warm. That I somehow belonged to him. That I somehow needed him. My heart rapidly pounded in my chest at the thought of being in his embrace.

I knew I was crazy. Is it normal for a rapist to have emotions for his victims? Does he do this to all the women he violates, or am I just a special case? Have I been the only one that has suffered by his actions or have there been more? I had so many questions. So many emotions. I couldn't believe him. He raped me!

I then decided to listen to my brain because let's face it, my hearts an i***t. I took a step back and I could practically see his heart break into a million pieces. I wrapped my arms around my waist and waited for him to speak. He sighed.

"Angel... I didn't have a choice."

That angered me. I could feel my blood boil under my skin. He must be out of his damn mind if he thinks I'll believe that.

"What the f**k do you mean you didn't have a choice! I DIDN'T HAVE A f*****g CHOICE, YOU RAPED ME! YOU TOOK MY VIRGINITY AND MY DIGNITY! YET YOU HAD NO f*****g CHOICE!! " I yelled as tears prickled my eyes.

Everyone at the park was looking at us and Ezekiel quickly pulled me to a side. He held onto my elbow gently as he led me behind a bush. I felt sparks at his touch and my arm heated up. I quickly pulled away and glared at him.

"Angel, let me explain!" He whispered in frustration.

I kept quiet signaling for him to go on, but one more lie out of his mouth and I was leaving. If he dared follow me he had another thing coming. I would call the cops in a heartbeat. His voice broke me from my thoughts.

"Let me start from the beginning" he whispered again.

I slowly nodded my head.

"Angel I went to school with you, since 4th grade in elementary. When I first laid eyes on you I knew you were the most beautiful girl in the world. I knew the name Angel fit you perfectly because let's face it. You are an angel sent down from heaven."

I softly blushed at his compliment and he chuckled.

"I didn't have the nerves to talk to you so I stayed in the shadows just admiring you in all your glory. I remember when we first started high school. A boy came up to you and knocked your books out of your hands. I remember like it was just yesterday. You started crying and ran into the bathroom."

I gasped as he explains a memory that happened the third day of my freshmen year. I did remember running into the girls' bathroom and crying my eyes out. I never did see that boy again. Some say he dropped out. Others said he knocked up a girl and had to quit school to start working to take care of his baby momma.

"I was so angry at him for making you cry. I wanted to waltz right into the girls' bathroom and hug you and whisper sweet things into your ear to comfort you, but I didn't. Instead, I walked right up to the guy and punched him I'm the face. I remember it perfectly because that was the first time I got into trouble. Turns out I hit him harder than I thought. I got suspended for three days for fighting in school. Angel those three days were the worse. I was constantly worried that that guy would harm you and I wasn't there to protect you." He whispered stepping closer to me

I quickly looked at him confused. Although his story is sweet I didn't understand.

"W-What does this have to do with you raping me?" I questioned in a whisper.

He sent me a soft smile and spoke once again.

"I'm getting there... Anyway, when I returned to school the boy had left. The principal told me that his mother requested a transfer out of the school. The reason that they didn't press charges on me was that I was a minor, but I still remember what the principal told me as I left her office. 'It's too bad you turned out just like your brother, a waste of time and space. Then again what do you expect coming from a broken home?"

I could see his eyes start to water. He held so much emotion in his words. His eyes showed untold pain and his face showed so much hurt. My heart clenched at the sight of Ezekiel. I wanted to wrap my arms around him and hug him until he was smiling again. Wait, what in the world am I thinking! He raped me!!

"You see Angel, my father was killed during the war. My mother fell into a state of depression where she would be drunk 24/7. My mother was an abusive drinker. After a few patron shots, she beat my brother and me into a state of unconsciousness. We were young when we lost our father. My brother was only 2 years older than me. At the time I was 6 and he was 8. After years of beatings, my brother was fed up. That's when the trouble started. He became abusive as well he started doing drugs and raping girls. He-"

"And you decided to join in on his fun huh?" I cut him off with a question.

"Angel no, it's not like that. Let me finish. You see when I found out he raped girls I immediately thought of you. I had to keep you safe. Every day after school I would walk behind you to make sure you arrived home safely, but one day my brother followed me without my knowing. When you arrived home and I headed out for mine he confronted me."

Ezekiel's voice became hard and his fist clenched. I could see him clench his jaw and his eyes spoke of an unforgiving rage that he held inside of him. I slightly winced at his expression. It slightly frightened me. I could almost see his eye turn a shade darker if that were possible.

"Anyway, when he confronted me he told me how he would love to use you. I got into an argument with him telling him to leave you alone. He told me that if I got in the way of him trying to concur you that he would kill you. At first, I didn't believe him but I knew he had killed before. I told him that I would do anything if he left you alone. I told him that I loved you. He laughed in my face and told me love was for the weak. That if I really did love you that I would rape you. If I didn't he would kill me and later he would kill you. I couldn't let him do that to you so I agreed."

I gasped and stepped back.

"How stupid do you think I am?! That all a load of crap! You're a rapist and now you're a liar!"

Tears welled up in my eyes as I spoke harshly to him.

"Angel, please! I'm telling you the truth! I can prove it if you don't believe me!"

"No! You're just full of crap. I bet you came back to see if I was still a good f**k. Well, n-"

I was cut off as his lips possessed mine. His lips were soft and gentle but at the same time rough an demanding. I melted into the kiss and I felt as my knees went numb under me. Ezekiel quickly wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me to his chest. My whole body leaned on him for support. My core burned with need as his lips were on mine. Before I knew it I was moving my lips against his. Our lips moved in sync and I could honestly say that was the best kiss I had ever had.

Then it hit me. I was kissing Ezekiel! I quickly pulled away and slapped him. Leaving him shocked. Tears started to form in my head. I had so many questions running through my head so many emotions I didn't know what to say.

"I-I should go," I whispered as I walked away.

"Angel wait!"

I turned and looked at him. He sighed and ran his finger through his hair.

"I-I'm sorry, I couldn't resist and well I understand, but please let me at least finish my story" he looked at me with a sad face.

"Goodbye Ezekiel" I whispered as I walked back to my kids.