I have no choice even death refuses to take me, is I'm this kind of bad person? Whatever! What just happened I don't want to think about it, now my life is connected with him. His way of loving is just different, he loves me, and I can say for sure, he might change himself after our marriage I try my best to change him, and I have to admit that I'm his everything is has been done between us now it's better to go with that person who takes my purity. I think without my virginity no one will going to except me, because now I'm used this feels not good if I give my virginity happily to him, so it's going to be the decent way, but he just take it by force, and I don't like it. Why women are so weak against men, why don't God give us the same power to fight, isn't it unfair? I have no right t
