The Luna Fighter

Chapter 22 my past

Carla’s P.O.V

  I sat there listening to Kidz and I was shocked that I was actually his second chance mate, I thought I was his first because he never told me any different. Even though Kidz had explained Brandon’s past, it still didn't excuse what he did or how he was treating me, I’m not Amy.

  “I don't think I can handle this. I’ll do the party and the four fights, but once they are done I’m going to have to do some serious thinking about staying. I will not stay in an abusive relationship. I know my worth and I won't stand for it, I know he bought me, but I will find a way to pay him back so I can have my freedom.” I said and Kidz tensed up beside me.

  “Carla, listen, everything will be okay. He will realise soon enough that he can't treat you the way he has been treating you. He knows he loves you, he just isn't in his right mind right now.” Kidz replied, but I shook my head.

  “And what if by the time he realises he has gone too far and I have left?” I asked and Kidz shrugged his shoulders, not knowing how to answer me.

  Brandon’s P.O.V

  I can't believe I just did that, I pushed her and punched the wall right by her head. I could have killed her and all she wanted to know was if I was hungry. She was only thinking about me and I snapped at her, I was violent towards her. What the hell was I thinking? I thought, sitting on my couch as I put my head in my hands.

  “YOU’RE A STUPID f**k, THATS WHAT YOU ARE!! I CAN’T BELIEVE THE MOON GODDESS PUT ME IN A HUMAN SO f*****g STUPID!! SHE IS YOUR SECOND CHANCE MATE AND YOU'RE GOING TO RUIN IT ALL BECAUSE SOME DUMBASS WOMAN!!! SHE'S GONE BRANDON AND SHE'S NOT COMING BACK!! SHE DIDN'T WANT YOU, SHE USED US, REMEMBER?!!!” Brooks shouted at me and I could feel how pissed off he was at what I had done.

  “I know you're right, but a part of me still hopes she will return, that she will realise what she did was wrong and she will come back, asking for our forgiveness.” I replied, sighing deeply. I could feel Brooks get both angry and sad at what I had just said, but I was just trying to be honest with him.  

  “Dude, she's not coming back and if she does then all she will do is use you until she finds her true mate, just like last time. Use your brain because if you don't start thinking you're going to lose her for good and the only person to blame will be yourself. She will not only leave you, but she will leave me as well.” Brooks said and ended the link between us. I knew he was right and what I had done to Carla was wrong, so I decided to get up and go find her. I had to apologise for what I had done to her. It seemed like I had a lot of anger inside me and I was taking it out on her. I stepped out of my office and sniffed the air, smelling her scent and followed it outside to the porch out back. I watched as Kidz got up and left for patrol shift and then saw that she was just sitting on the porch swing alone. She looked like she was deep in thought and I knew what she was thinking. I went outside and she looked up, but when she saw it was me she rolled her eyes and started to get up to leave.

  “Carla, please stay. Can we talk?” I asked, but she just glared at me. Okay, I guess I deserved that after what I did.

  “I don't think we have anything to talk about right now. What you did in your office was uncalled for.” Carla replied, making me feel even more guilty.

  “I know and I am very sorry, can I sit down? There's something I want to tell you about my past.” I said and she looked at me cautiously before nodding.

  “Yeah, sit down, I’ll listen.” Carla replied and I sat down next to her, thankful that she was giving me this chance.

  “Listen, before you I had another mate many years ago. I loved her and I thought she loved me. One year we invited a pack to our territory to see if any of them would find their mates and to sign a treaty, some did and some didn't, but once they left she started being weird. She would start arguments with me over the stupidest and smallest of things, she wouldn't speak to me for days and when she did it would only be snarky comments. She would go out into the woods for hours and only return to shower and sleep, so one night Kidz and I followed her. We found her and the Alpha of that same pack together, declaring their love for one another. I was heartbroken and angry, I shifted into my wolf and the Alpha shifted into his. We fought and in the end I killed him. I thought that if I eliminated him she would come back to me, but I was wrong. She didn’t and instead she tried to kill me, telling me that she never loved me and just used me. I was even more heartbroken after that and I wanted to kill her, but I didn't. I told her to leave the territory and if she ever came back I would kill her, but a part of me hoped that she would return to be my mate. I now know that it can never be because if she did return then she would just use me all over again.” I said, taking a deep breath. I had finally told Carla what had happened and I was glad that she just sat there and listened, if she had of interrupted me then I wouldn't have been able to continue, it's another reason that I didn't look at her the whole time I was talking, I didn't want to see how hurt she might be.