XII.
1595 Words
-Irene-
“So tell me what you’re going to tell me” Wendy opened up a conversation as we head to her car parked at the parking lot. We’ve come across the school lawn in front as we walked towards the parking lot, where we sat earlier during lunch time.
“Hey, want me to take you home?” I heard someone asking from a few distance that made me turn to him… oh gosh! I shouldn’t have turned my head to him… It’s Felix, he’s smiling asking me if he could take me home.
Just look at his fake smile, he looked so obvious… For sure he’s planning something, and of course I’m not an i***t to do what he’s planning duhh
“No, never mind. I have my ride home” I said as I walked passed by him, his car is park in the corner near the school lawn, it’s his spot, he doesn’t want anyone parking their car in there.
If they do, I don’t know what’ll happen, but I’m sure it’s something you wouldn’t like… duhh it’s Felix after all…
“Oh… I guess next time” he said in a disappointed tone, gosh! He’s so plastic! Two-faced! How can he do that? Acting all-so-kind in front of everybody…
“There’s no next time” I responded and continued walking towards Wendy’s car. I don’t know how he reacted after that, I didn’t care to look at him, and I don’t wanna look at him… at all “Gosh, so annoying…” I whispered hissing
After taking some few steps, we reached Wendy’s car and hopped in immediately. I took a seat in the front and Wendy on the driver’s seat, of course.
“What are you gonna tell me?” she asked again the same question she asked before… yea right, if it weren’t for that asshole who interrupted urgh! I remember him again… screw that Felix!
“Yea, about that…” I uttered and looked for words that I should use to say what happened. Chan’s words flashed into my mind again as I remembered what happened ‘I just wanna make sure your safe, you're like a sister to me’ and kept on repeating like an old malfunctioning juke box.
‘I just wanna make sure your safe, you're like a sister to me’ gosh, it hurts. I felt the same feeling that I felt before when I heard it right from Chan’s sweet lips. It feels so down, like I lost something that I know it won’t be coming back again.
It feels so dark that I can see nothing and all I can hear is words of rejection as the cold wind blew manifesting the words striking both my mind and my heart… it’s so painful to think…
“Are you alright?” she asked as she snapped her fingers in front of me waking me up from my deep thought “I know something not-so-wonderful happened, I know it’s made you upset… but come on, do you really have to space out before telling the whole story?” he asked sarcastically as she chuckled a bit trying to lighten up the mood “Drama queen” she added
“Shut up, you don’t know what I’m feeling ahahaha” I said between my laughter. Screw her, I was in my verge of tears! I was about to cry, you know that moment when you lean your head towards the car window, the cinematography is so dim, shadows of trees flashing in front of me, and tears slowly crawling down from my face having the sad thoughts I was having while Chan’s words voiced over as I had my moment…
If only there was a sad music… it could have been like that, if it weren’t for that stupid Wendy… wahahahahaha what am I thinking… anyway I love that scenes in romantic movies… I am a drama queen.
“Just tell me ok? I’m dying to know it… I kept on thinking what was it all about” she said excitedly without looking at me as she waited for me to speak
“It’s about Chan…” I initiated
“Yea, yea… you already told me” she said in a snappy tone as she rolled her eyes and shifted glances to me and back to the road
“Right… well, about him… a while ago…” I started narrating again as I paused to take a deep breath
“Can you just tell it to me? And stop telling it like you’re narrating a story in drama club, ok?” she interrupted impatiently without looking at me
“Ok, sorry ahahahaha” I apologized between my laughter and cleared my throat as I started another narration “So here’s what happened… Chan was on the same class with me… gosh I forgot what class that was… so yea, I was so angry because Felix was bothering me again, as usual… then I met Chan before entering my classroom, he asked me what happened to me, so I told him. Of course he was worried… and do you know he told me?” I retold and asked her
“Of course not, I wasn’t there” she snapped as she looked at me weirdly, I glared at her and gathered my strength as I took a deep breath to tell her
“He said that he wanted me safe, he doesn’t want something bad happens to me, because I’m like a sister to him” I said without looking at her
“Oh” she responded shortly as the car suddenly stopped, I heard car horn from behind
“What are you doing?” I said as she composed herself and started the engine immediately then continued driving “For real? He said that?” she asked again which I replied with a nod “That must hurt a lot, I get why you were so down”
“You bet I do” I said shortly “Next time don’t stop like that so sudden, you know that’s dangerous… I wonder how you got your license” I continued as I gave her sermon
“I’m sorry” she said and paused for a while as if thinking something “So what are you gonna do? Your crush just dumped you without even telling him how you feel… that sucks” she added
“I don’t know, I can’t even hate him or what, every time I see him even though I tell myself to stop liking him, my heart would just go… wooosh… I don’t know” I answered her telling her how I feel “Especially during art class, I stopped myself to think about him, but when my eyes sighted him, everything just went back… tell me what to do, Wendy” I continued as I turned to her from looking outside of the window
“Gosh, I don’t know… I haven’t been in that situation… ever, I can’t give you any advice” she told me as she continued driving as her eyes were fixed on the road but her face looked so worried and sad at the same time “That’s ok sis” she comforted me as she stretched her arm to caress my shoulder
“Yea, thanks” I said lowly as she got back her arm then I leaned to the car window again
“Maybe he just told you that you were like a sister to him because he doesn’t know how you feel about him… why don’t you tell him?” she suddenly spoke breaking the awkward silence that started to grow
“What do you mean?” I asked out of confusion as I turned my head facing her and raised my eyebrows
“You know, just telling him how you feel, psychology says if you tell your crush that you like him, there’s a possibility that he’ll like you too” she repeated herself and smiled at me sweetly
“Gosh, shut up. That’s not true ahahaha that doesn’t always happen” I snapped as I shook my head disagreeing with her and smirked
“In your case, that’s possible… look, you’ve been friends for a long time, you both have same interests, you two are suitable for each other… you’re likable… it’s possible that he’ll like you too, why don’t you give it a try” she explained herself and looked at me for a while and went back on wheels
“Ok, stop deluding me… even if it is, we may not know” I stated still disagreeing to her
“Come on, trust me… well look, if you tell him how you feel and he feels the same… great… but if he doesn’t…” she pulled over as we arrived in her house
“But if he doesn’t…?” I asked her before we went out of the car as my face fall in sadness and came to think of it
“But if he doesn’t… then it’s ok, at least you let your feelings out. It’d be easier for you to let go of it… trust me, when you grow up and finally found your true love, you’ll just laugh the hell out of it” she said as she opened the car and stepped outside
“You’re right, in all fairness, you just said something nice” I said as I stepped out of the car and stood up to face her and gave her a smile
“Yea right, I’m your friend, you can count on me in times like this…” she said sincerely as she walked towards me and gave me a hug
“Thanks” I said as she let go of me and looked at me in the eyes
“Are you gonna do it?” she asked without breaking her stare and smiled peacefully at me
“Do what?” I asked as I leaned back and my face shifted into confusion
“What I just said, telling him” she answered raising her right eyebrow and rolled her eyes “Gosh” she snapped
“Oh yea, I’ll try” I said and walked towards our house next to them
- Writer
