That Letter - A Cinderella Story

IX.

-Irene-

            It was History class but there was no sign of Felix at all. I made sure I looked at every corner of the classroom to see if he was there, but he’s not, and I love it. I was relieved.

            Even the empty seat beside me is… empty of course ahahahaha. So he’s not in my class for that period. Good grief, now I have at least one subject where he’s not in. I can have my peaceful study, gosh… 

            I’m walking towards my next class with Wendy. Unfortunately, Wendy has performing arts, while I have Visual arts, so we don’t go to same classes again. But that’s fine, it’s not that we don’t get to see each other anymore. It's just for another subject.

            “I wonder what subject Felix had” I uttered as we continued walking, our next classrooms are just next to each other anyway, and it's not that we'd be late

            “Why are you asking?” she asked me as she turned her head facing me with a confused and curious face

            “Nothing, you know, I was just glad that he’s not here, at least I have a subject that he’s not in it, right? So much for him bothering me” I said rolling my eyes and smiled at her playfully

           “Oh, good for you” she answered as she laughed scratching he cheek

            “Yea, like omg… he’s been around bugging me since first period, and guess what, if he’s not behind me, he’s beside me… what the heck” I said and laughed with her… “It’s just a relief, you know” I added

            “Right, at least there’s this one subject where you can calm yourself down… I hope he’s really not in that class and didn’t skip” she added 

            “Oh please don’t… I wish ahahaha” I said and we just continued walking

            Chan was not in our History class too, he left to go to his class after he brought me somewhere far from the cafeteria, I think it’s in the school’s lawn. There were people in there but we choose to sit in a bench, we don’t care about them anyway.

~Flashback~

“Let’s go” I literally gasped as Chan quickly grabbed my hand and stormed outside the cafeteria pulling me out of there, I saw Wendy stood up and ran following us. I also noticed Felix’s face turned furious at the same time shocked due to what happened… I don’t know what to react, I just followed where Chan is bringing me.

            “Hey, slow down, I can’t keep up” I screamed stopping Chan from walking too fast, my legs are hurting now

            “Yea me too” Wendy said gasping for her breath… I should be worried or whatever right now, but as I looked at her, to be honest, I almost burst out laughing ahahahaha the heck.

            She looked horrible gasping her breath, she seemed so tired as if she’s the one being dragged ahahahaha. Thank goodness I managed not to laugh out loud. Chan slowed down a bit but we still continued walking away.

            You know what? This situation could have been so romantic. Look at him, holding my hand, pulling me somewhere away from someone who wanted to hurt me. He’s like a hero from fairytales who’s saving his princess. Except Wendy’s in the scene hahahaha.

            I felt very happy just by seeing us in this situation but it hurts me a lot as his word keep on playing in my mind ‘I just wanna make sure your safe, you're like a sister to me’ hayyy a sister… 

            He opened the door and pulled me outside. The wind suddenly flashed into my face that made me feel so comfortable. I almost forgot why we ran out from the cafeteria, and why I wasn’t happy that Chan’s holding my hand. The wind just keeps on blowing in front of me until it faded away.

            We sat on a bench far from some students hanging around. The shade of the tree made it more comfortable to sit and relax ourselves after stressing out dealing with that Felix-guy. 

            Chan didn’t let go of my hand as we sat on the bench. Wendy chose on sit on the grass as she leaned her back on the tree. She looked so rested. I looked at his hand locked into mine. It made my heart burst in mixed emotions just by staring at it.

            For me, it was so special because the one holding my hand is my ultimate crush. But for him, it’s just an ordinary skin ship between friends… What can I do? I liked him very much, I can’t help it…

            “Are you ok?” he asked gently as his other hand caressed my head while looking right through my eyes. His chocolate brown eyes locked into mine. He’s part Asian giving him his Asian looks, and to tell you he is so cute.

             His soft features will draw your full attention into him and you’ll hardly break out from it. I think his Korean… His forehead is a bit short but not something noticeable. The shape of his forehead and his hairline is perfect, so he looks good with his pitch black hair up as well, especially his hairline… so breathtakingly perfect.

             His face is quite soft, as is the typical oriental face bone structure.  But his jawline looks good, the corner of his jawline ever so manly. When he raises his head, with his slender neck and adam’s apple, his s*x appeal is beyond overwhelming.

            “Y-yea, I’m fine… thanks for everything” I said and looked away

            “Good to know” I heard him said and chuckled lowly

            Suddenly, we heard a loud bang from the main door and people started gasping in shock and whispers indistinctively. I think it's someone bumped on the door, some bully or something.

            My mind was so busy thinking about Chan and was getting messed up by Felix so I didn’t care to turn my face towards that commotion. It doesn’t involve me after all.

            “What was that?” I asked Chan without looking at him as I felt him gazing towards that direction

            “Nothing, just a bunch of students playing around” he answered me, I just rested myself in that bench for a while 

            “Let’s go, class is about to start” he said and helped me to stand up… look at him, he’s so sweet… for a brother…

~End of Flashback~

“See you later ok?” Wendy greeted me goodbye as she entered classroom. I entered mine and took as sit somewhere empty, it’s in the middle. I looked everywhere to see if there’s Felix around.

Gosh! Why do I have to look for him every time I enter my next class? I’m not afraid of him… I just wanna make sure he’s not here, he’s a bothersome… Why would he be in visual arts anyway? He hated this, he won’t be here… like duhh, he doesn’t even care about arts, and he knew nothing about this…

            Gosh, I remember my reason why I’m here… my first choice was to be in performing arts with Wendy. But when I knew that Chan took this, I also did… omg what was I thinking?

            I was so into him, and my world revolved in his, that even my subjects were decided according to his… I’m so embarrassed right now…

            You know that feeling when you like someone so much and your decisions include him? Everything you do, you consider him? And then you’ll end up hurting because in the end he doesn’t care about you…

            He suddenly entered into the classroom.

            My lips suddenly smiled as I saw him walking inside the classroom. Chan is indeed so handsome. My heart pounded loudly just by looking at him. It really is true; the world slows down when you see your special someone. But you’re not even special to that someone.

           I just can’t help it; I like him so much. I think so much about him when he only thinks of me when he sees me. I imagine a lot about us when the reality is far from what I wanted to see.

            I just looked at him and waited for him to notice that I am in this class too.

            Instead of turning to me, he just greeted some of his friends and sat beside them… How sad… Just look at how I felt when he entered, what I see when my eyes lay on him, and what I think when he enters my mind, only to see that he didn’t even look at me… it hurts… yea, it does….

Let him be, I can’t change subjects anyway. I just have to study… with him… Gosh!!! What’s wrong with me, I’ve already been slapped by reality a million times. I’ve seen it right in front of me, but here I am, still wanting him… hayss like, what the heck…

Why does it have to be so difficult, I thought I’m smart, but why do I’m having hard time dealing with this.

That’s why I don’t do boyfriends in high school. Look, I’m just having a crush yet I’m hurting a lot, what more if I’m already in love…

“Hey Irene” my ear clapped as I heard his voice calling me, gosh! I’m such an idiot

            “Hey” I responded and smiled at him

“I didn’t know you’re here” he said… yea ‘cause you’re so busy, right?

            “I didn’t know you’re here either” I answered and laughed awkwardly

“Nice to see you here” he said and smiled at me too… yea right it’s always nice to see you…

“You too” I said, he stood up and took the chair next to me… look at him… How can I resist him? When he’s like that… Gosh! I’m trapped…