Bound To A Bully

"I don't need you to protect me. Your love and affection will be enough for me to survive and fight till my last breath." ~ Regan "My love for you is mercenary. Don't expect something that you will never get from me." ~ Lincoln . . . Regan Wells (Maria Turgenev) It started the day in senior high, a game of revenge that I was unaware of at that time. He starts the battle of the unknown me, a girl with a lost memory against him, a handsome bully with his demons. I thought he would forgive me for what I did to the only person who used to be everything to him. It wasn't intentional, and he knew it, yet he didn't miss a chance to hurt me where it hurt the most. He hated me and blamed me for everything that happened in his life. I knew that I was the only one to blame here. I believed it was all my fault. Then I left something that I wished I didn't have. How could I bear to see him with someone who wasn't me? I wasn't sure if I could survive alone, yet I made it for her. Just when I started to accept the reality that Lincoln would never come for me again, he appeared in my doorway in the lieutenant colonel's uniform with an arrest warrant against me! . . . Lincoln De Laurentiis The emotions and forceful resistance I had built around my heart before, now I see them breaking into several pieces. Everything I did was just for my sister. That's what I thought until it wasn't after that reality was drawn to my mind. But still, that hole in the heart one can't fix after losing the only family one ever had. I wanted to change it, to move on with my life, but I gave up after all my failed attempts. Those games I have played to push away people who cared for me now tire me shitless. I even felt awful about hurting that girl more when she was never at fault. I wasn't even in my right mind to see the effort she put into healing me until. . .it was too late. A night of passion was all it took for me to realize what I was about to lose by letting her go. But she left, disappeared like she never existed in my life. Her action turned me into something that no one had seen coming. Years later, I ran into her again, who destroyed me and saved me from becoming my worst enemy. What happened to my sister wasn't her fault, and I no longer want to punish us both for it. I am letting go of all those grudges. And I won't let anything stop me from getting what I want. Nothing can stop me now, and I vowed to make us lose control of ourselves again like the way we lost it last time.