phoenix

i wake up today at 7am like every other morning and to the song escape by Megan Nicole because that's what i wish i could do. escape. i do sometimes for a few days but i always end up back at this hell hole. i wish i could forever leave this place and find a home. maybe your wondering why i want to escape. well maybe because i have an abusive family and pack. the people who are supposed to love me. don't. i should also explain why they hate me simple.  I'm an omega the weakest of the weak. my family and pack are made up of alphas and betas. and not all alphas are alphas of a pack it just means they are the most dominant and strongest of wolves. but the strongest are alphas of packs sometimes born to alphas of the pack which means they take over the pack. some marry into the role of he leader of he pack. don't get me wrong its not always 2 alphas that are leaders. it can be an alpha and a beta. or even an alpha and omega. rare but still happens. why family and pack are just old fashioned and believe that omegas are useless and shouldn't even exist.. there you go and that's just half of it you'll find out more over time. i finally push myself up out of bed and make my way to the bathroom I look in the mirror while stretching. Looking at my own reflection gives me shivers. I hate how I look my dirty blond hair along with my mismatching eyes it's actually called heterochromia. I've got a green and a blue eye. I hate it it makes me look even worse and don't even get me started on the damn freckles. I hate myself and my looks. If only i was born an alpha maybe everything would be different then. I immediatly regret what I said when I hear a whimper. Noah- I'm sorry snow Snow- I know you are  I finish getting ready in the bathroom and then I head to my room to get changed. I toss on some clothes that I dig out of my closet. I slip on a baggy hoodie over my clothes. I make sure to grab my bag and my Iphone 4 yes I know well out of date but it's what happens when your family hates you and your pack hates you I also grab my earphones I can't survive without my music. I walk out the house making sure to take a piece of toast with me. The only time I actually get to eat is when No one is at home.  I place the earphones in my ear and play a song leaving it on shuffle as I start eating my toast. I carry on walking for another 45 minutes I'm already tired by the time I get to school I get there with 15 minutes to spare. I walk up the steps to the doors while people stare at me it's a normal occurance at this place. I walk in the doors ready to make my way to the toilets when I notice a fist flying towards my face. I try to move but I'm frozen in place about a seconds later the fist has already connected with my face you can hear the crunch my nose makes from a mile away. I get sent flying on the floor I almost hit my head off the tiled floors that wouldn't have been good. I look up to see who it is although I don't really need to look I can already tell who it is mainly because he's the only one who actually hits me. I look up and notice Blake looking down at me with a look that I can't read and his two friends Daniel and Sebastian stood behind him. To be honest those two aren't that bad they don't do much except watch and Blake well I'm just happy he doesn't know how I feel about him he'd probably be disgusted. Haha I could just imagine him throwing up and probably killing me if he found out.  All three of them walk of and leave me on the floor and others just walk by with a glance some don't even bother looking and some just stare. I wish they would stop. I stand up and basically run to the bathroom. I make my way into the end stall which is also the biggest. I sit on the floor with my knees up and my head in my knees while a few tears drop down my face. What a f*****g i***t how could I fall for him. Over 3 years and yet here I am still basically drooling over him even though he hates my guts. I carry on listening to some music until it's about 5 minutes to lesson.  I catch a glimpse of my nose and notice it a bit bent. I grab it and whimper I can tell what comes next is gonna hurt like a b***h. I cover my mouth as I snap my nose back to its normal state I scream into my hand causing it to become quite and muffled. I take out the foundation in my bag and apply it to my nose. I'm happy to have found one that matches me perfectly what I'm not happy about is that I know how to apply make up and i may be gay but that doesn't mean I like wearing makeup i wish I didn't need to learn. I finish of applying my make up and walk out the bathrooms. I make it to class with 2 minutes to spare. some people are already in class I make sure my normal seats empty and it is so I walk in the classroom and as I do they all look up and watch me walk to my seat. what is so interesting about me that they have to stare at me all the time I don't even want that attention.  the teacher walks into the classroom and makes a coughing noise to get everyone's attention they all go quite and look at the front. as the teacher is about to speak Blake walks into the classroom as he notices where the last seat is he's about to walk out when the teacher speaks "you planning on going somewhere Blake" "no sir" Blake replies as he walks back into the classroom and sits next to Noah. he pulls out his notebook and basically nods of during class he puts his head down on the table and sleeps during the whole lesson while I basically stare at him I get down some notes but not as much as I normally do or how much I wanted to do.  the whole class is leaving when the teacher decides to ask me and Blake to stay behind although Blake didn't hear nothing I'm to scared to even know what the teacher wants with us two maybe I should just try sneaking away. ye right he would just catch me later.  teacher "Noah you mind waking him up" Noah "sure. Blake the teacher wants us" I say with a shaky and scared voice I don't want know what he would do to me after I wake him up. I place my hand on his shoulder and shake it a bit asking him to wake up again this time a little louder and when I say little I mean little I'm still whispering. he starts to stir when I says his name and shake him one more time. he makes a groaning noise and sits up. he looks around the classroom until he notices me I immediately pull my hand back from him and blush.  I tell him that the teacher wanted us while stuttering and shaking. he just responds with a grunt and he gets up putting his stuff in his bag and so do I. he swings his bag over his shoulder almost hitting me while I place mine gently over my shoulder. I don't want to break mine its the only one I have got and I doubt that would please my parents if I did break it I wouldn't get another one anyway its already got little holes and tears in it when people ask why I have the same bag I have had for years I just say I really like it and I'm looking for another one like it. well I don't get that problem much because people don't speak to me I used to have friends when I was a child until they found out how weak I am and learnt how much my parents and brother hated me I guess they wanted to make a good example for the alpha and Luna which they did they beat me now along with everyone else.  I snap out of my thoughts when the teacher speaks up. teacher "well I'm gonna be honest Blake your failing everything and Noah you have the highest marks here. the other teachers and me have had a talk and we think you should tutor him with everything." Noah "I I don't" Blake "that aint teaching me nothing!" teacher "to be honest Blake you haven't got much of a say its either get tutored by Noah or you fail and cant carry on football with the grades you have now and Noah this will go on your record and your cv it'll help you get a job in the future" of course he doesn't want my help i'd probably be useless anyway he probably doesn't even want to go near me.  teacher "Noah. Noah!" shit i missed what he said. teacher "he agreed to let you tutor him" i immediately look up to Blake. he has a small smile on his face. obviously that isn't meant for me.  ok i answer back with a sigh. the teacher grins and says thank you and walks out the classroom. Blake turns to me and holds his phone out to me. i look up confused. he answers back saying number.  "what" Blake "i need your number so we can make times and places of when your gonna tutor me" Noah "fine" i take the phone out of his hands and i type my number in his phone. i don't bother typing my name into his phone. maybe he will forget who's the number belongs to and delete it. i hope so. he smiles at his phone. yet again probably not because of me who knows maybe it his friends and they're plotting to kill me so i don't have to tutor him. hmm maybe he is lets hope so he can take me out of this miserable world. Noah- ‘sorry you had to live inside such a pathetic human snow’ snow- ‘I'm happy here and your not pathetic i love you’ Noah- ‘love you to’ snow lets out a giggle he always does that when i say i love him. when I'm finished in my own thoughts i notice that Blakes already left. i finish all my lessons and luckily enough I've managed to escape him all day. i walk out of the main doors and into the car park. i accidentally look at Blake while he's getting into his car and he also notices me. i jump at least ten feet in the air and run out of the car park. i start my 45 minute walk home when i get a text  Blake- when should we have our first tutor session Noah- I've got work so ill sort stuff out there first then ill sort out all the stuff we will need and some questions what do you want to start with then. we can do it the day after tomorrow so how about this Friday coming up Blake- how about history I'm worse at that. i have football practice after school on friday so as long as you don't mind waiting round. Noah- ill wait. wait aren't you driving why are you texting get of your phone Blake- aww were you worried and I'm not driving I'm still sat in the car park i don't even bother texting him back. was i worried f**k yes my crush driving while texting and now i finally get to spend more time with him. you aint getting in no accident. Blakes pov "omg did you see that he actually seemed worried." Daniel "haha ye we seen it and he ignored you. you know how are you gonna act around him now that he's tutoring you" "i don't know. its getting harder lately it hurts to see him hurt. just let me figure it out" Sebastian "well whatever happens he aint gonna want to be our friends after all we have done to him" "what I've done to him. yous haven't done anything this is all my fault" Daniel "its ok lets just get home for now" i start the engine and start our drive home which will take an hour. Noah's pov I'm at home now. the house seems quite but you never know. i cautiously walk into the house getting ready for being jumped but i don't the house is empty so i decide to make a little food before they do get home. i just make some cheese on toast something that i can make and eat quickly so i can get some sleep before they get home and decide to wake me and give me another beating. after I've finished eating i make my way upstairs and try staying warm in many layers of clothing as i get under my thin small blanket which has holes in it. i make sure not to lay on any springs that are popping out in all directions. (to whoever reads this chapter tell me what you think and i hope you keep reading on the story gets more interesting as it goes on. well I hope its interesting anyway)