“Just close your eyes and breathe," the nurse instructed me, “It's going to be okay." I knew she was wrong but I followed her orders anyway. Closing my eyes as the nurse examined me was horrifying. I just felt like a failure. I allowed myself to change, my sister to get kidnapped, and I've allowed myself to get taken advantage of at my party.
I didn't want to be here. I didn't want to accept the fact that this nurse here was examining everything making sure I wasn't hurt. However, little did the nurse know, I've been hurt for a long time now.
The exam went over three hours as she took samples, examined my body from head to toe, and throughout this entire exam, my eyes were closed and my mind was blank. I just wanted to be in utter silence; I wanted to dissociate myself out of this sit
