LEIGH Ava and I hadn't communicated for a year because I was afraid there was no probability that she could realize what she truly meant to me. What she read in the book had guided her to what was false, that she behaved toward me so unfairly, which is entirely understandable, knowing I would have done the same if I found her writing about her past relationship in a journal. The only difference is, I would have listened to her; I would have given her time to explain herself. But I didn't get that from her; she had avoided me since the summer party and forced me into another loop of heartbreak. When we got back to the city, she had told Susan she was behind the messages that came into my dad's phone, which was totally my doing, all to have her to myself. The confession had gotten h