The Hole

shame

Gibson

The drive back to the packhouse is a quiet one for me. All the men around me talk about the night, all the s3x they had and all I want to do is crawl out of my skin and die. The fact that I betrayed on my mate is unforgivable and I expect a rejection when I get home, but I need to speak to Lena first. The Alpha has his eyes set on her. When we arrived at the other pack, he mentioned my mate many times. He mentioned my pups. I am actually beginning to think he is trying to take my family. We drank werewine and then girls were brought in and everything went to sh!t from there. I got put on the spot and the Alpha got angry, wanting to know why I would not cheat on my mate. Everyone else was doing it. They had women on their laps and some were f*cking as soon as the girls walked in the room. They wasted no time. According to the men in our pack, women are nothing and they need to respect us and know their place. They are just good to f*ck and bear our pups. I know it sounds bad to fall into peer pressure, but if I didn't I would be dead and I don't know what would happen to Lena and the boys. I know for a fact that all of the men would have turned on me if I wouldn't have agreed to sleep with a she wolf. They would have known that something was up and if they would have attacked me, I wouldn't have made it out alive. I had no choice. I made sure to put a block between Lena and I, hoping she didn't feel me being intimate with someone else, but I am not sure if that worked.

All of the men from our pack slept with the other pack's she wolves and the she wolves from our pack slept with the members from the opposite pack. It was like a big orgy. When I brought up the fact that I couldn't participate because there were no condoms, Quinton laughed and told me to go in raw, but I told him I would't want to risk getting a shewolf pregnant. He laughed and mind linked me, actually agreeing he thinks I have magic sperm and didn't think I should leave powerful pups in another pack. Luckily, the other Alpha also said he didn't want his wh0res to get pregnant and have one less to please the men he did business with, so I wore a condom and tried doing it as fast as I could, but I couldn't. I couldn't even get hard at first, then it took me forever to c*m. I had to close my eyes and picture my mate. It was the worst experience of my life. I need to get my family and leave this place sooner rather than later. If Lena wants to leave me once I get her out, then I will just live with it. After all, I promised her this would never happen and I did it.

We arrive at the packhouse and all get off. "Gentlemen," a nurse comes out and greets us. "Heidi. What, do you need a good d!cking? I think I still have one round in me," Quinton tells her and laughs. She blushes "No Alpha, there has been a problem. Last night, many women were brought into the hospital. They collapsed due to the betrayal pains." she says. "Again" he groans. "Can we find a witch to give them something so they won't feel it? I'm tired of this happening every time we go out to have fun." he tells her. "I can try to contact someone" she says. "Who is in the hospital this time?" he asks. "Kenya, Juliana, Patricia, Olga, Connie gave birth prematurely and Lena almost lost her baby" she says. My eyes widen. Lena got her to lie for her. "Almost? So she is still pregnant?" Quinton asks. "She is, but she needs to rest and is being kept for observation for a couple of days. Connie's up is being kept under observation. We aren't sure if the pup will make it. We are doing everything we can though." she says, pulling out a paper from her pocket and handing it out for me to grab. I do so and realize it is an ultrasound picture. I step forward, needing to go check on my mate. "Well, that is too bad" Quinton says. The tone he used, I know he doesn't mean it and that annoys me and I turn around, not knowing what I am about to do, but that comment was uncalled for. He chuckles darkly. "I mean, go check on your mates. Gibson, go to Lena. It would not be good for her to lose her magic pup" he says, with amusement in his voice. Yeah, I want him dead.

The men all go their own way, some home, some to the packhouse, some to the hospital. I make my way to the hospital when Heidi calls me "Beta. She is resting now. It's best we don't wake her up. She was really worked up earlier." she tells me and I nod. "Do you know where my pups are?" I ask her. "I believe the doctor said your neighbor took them. Mrs. Smith. She is who brought her here," she tells me and I nod. Great, now everyone knows what a piece of sh!t I am.

I walk into the room Lena is in and she is asleep. She looks so small and fragile. Her little body is turned so she is facing the wall. I walk over there and stand in front of her. I want to be the first thing she sees when she wakes up. I need to be able to beg her for forgiveness. I stand here, and just watch her. She is so beautiful, but I can tell she was crying. There is yelling coming from another room that wakes her up. She looks at me and I see the sadness in her eyes. "Baby I.." I begin "Don't", she says in a soft but authoritative voice. Tears form in her eyes. "Lena" Alpha Quinton says. I watch her blink the tears away and she begins to sit up. I reach to try to help her. "Don't touch me," she mind links me, so I step back. "How are you feeling?" he asks her. "I'm fine" she says, looking at her legs. "Well, good thing you didn't lose the pup, right. I was thinking we should have an ultrasound performed to check on the little booger," he says. F*ck. I have no idea how Lena got these women to lie, but I think he might know something. The doctor walks in with the ultrasound machine. "Lena, lift your shirt a bit" she tells my mate. "Isn't she too ill? She should continue resting" I say "She will, once we check on your pup. Don't you want to make sure the pup is alright? You did have a wild night, Gibson. That girl had big t!ts. You got the best girl. Plus, I hear those betrayal pains are brutal." he murmurs. Shame is all I feel right now. He is sitting here taunting me, in front of my mate, making fun of my situation and there is nothing I can do. I gave in. I betrayed my mate and I have to live with the consequences.

The doctor puts gel on Lena's stomach. She moves the wand around and soon enough, we hear a heartbeat. She points to the screen and looks at me. "Here is your pup, Beta" she says. I look at Lena, but she is silently crying. She roughly wipes her tears away. "Well, all is good then. Take care Lena. Let me know when you deliver the pup," Quinton says, and walks out of the room. "Congratulations," the doctor tells us and walks out, taking the machine with her. "Lena, please forgive me" I say. "You couldn't even go home and shower. I still have to smell this disgusting scent on you" she says instead. "I just, I had to come see you." I tell her. "Why? You had to come see if you k!lled me? Our pup, oh yeah by the way, I really am pregnant" she gives a dry laugh. "Lena, please" I say. "Leave. Go home and take care of the boys. I am stuck here until further notice. Don't come back. I don't want to see you and don't bring the boys here," she tells me. I don't even know what to say to her, so I nod and leave. I will just give her time.

I pick up the kids from the neighbor and all she does is give me a disgusted look. Luckily, she doesn't say anything in front of the boys. "Thank you," I say "Anything for Lena. That sweet, sweet woman doesn't deserve any of this. She has suffered enough" she says, and slams her door shut. I know that lady. We go home and I sit on the couch and the boys follow me. "Is mommy dead?" Ranger asks. "What? No, of course not" I say. Both boys burst out in tears. "We were so scared daddy. Mommy was making these sounds we have never heard. She was in a lot of pain and we couldn't help her. It was so scary." Rayden says, and I am even more ashamed of myself. I didn't just f*ck up everything with my mate. Ruined the love and trust she had in me. I also screwed up my kids. It takes a lot for them to fall asleep, but they finally do. I finally take a shower and lay in our bed and I can't even fall asleep because I am taken over by a lot of emotions, but they aren't just my emotions, all of Lena's feelings and emotions are pouring through the bond. Sadness, grief, regret and rejection. I close my eyes. There has to be a way to fix this.