cruel world

Chap 6

Sarah

Sometimes when your biggest fear becomes your reality than two things happen one you can't face it and then you die and second you face it and survive. Both things happen with Sarah. She wasn't lying when she said to Theo that she was claustrophobic, she first discovered her self when she was 8 and was stuck in a small storeroom of her house.

And now she is stuck in the small room of the basement where she is sure no one can hear her voice even someone did no one will help her. Her first day was the most difficult she remember she was screaming, begging and looking at the cameras that Theo has fitted in every room of their wing to keep an eye on her. She begged him, she knew he can see her but that cruel sick bastard was enjoying her misery... her back was already hurting from the assault Theo had done on her... First day morning when she heard door to be opened, she can't sleep the whole night and be alert that if she slept she will die.

she saw Theo foot first and she waited that he will say now that you can come out of this room...but he never did... Theo was holding a small bag and then he said 'Good morning dumb girl..look I got you some food, I know you must be hungry' he said with a fake concern

She held her breath and tightens her fist... 'Can I come out now, I'm sorry for everything... my punishment is finished now, isn't it? she softly said

He shakes his head and said 'Tsk tsk, but stupid girl your punishment is just started, how can I let you go...ok now I'm here to tell you that the food I brought is the only food you got, so use it wisely.. because you don't know how long you will be here'

She just lost it then, she sobbed and crawl towards him and hold his leg 'Theo plz plz I'm begging you, I will die here, I can't breathe, I'm sorry so sorry for whatever I did, I'm serious, I'm claustrophobic.. plz let me out, I will do anything, theo I'm so tired and hurt'

Theo eyes flicker for a moment and she saw something in his eyes like guilt but that was gone in a seconds and he pushed her from his leg so bad that she flies towards the wall which made her hand and feet to bruise because of the friction... she closed her eyes and felt so helpless because of her situation.

Theo said ' I'm going to London for a few days, so don't create a scene and if you behave well then I will let you out soon'

Sarah didn't know what happen but she laughed & said ' like anyone is going to help me if I create a scene, you will make sure of that'

Theo lost it and put his boot on Sarah's hand and pressed it so tight that she felt instant pain and she screamed like a madwoman and she knows at any minute she is going to lose one of her hand. Theo turn away n said ' don't ever reply me back and because of this you are going to stay longer then I expected, so enjoy'

With that, he closes the door and she screamed and kicked her foot in frustration on the door....which hurt her more

After few hours her stomach growl and she remember he brought some food that he put in the fridge... when she opened the small fridge, there she saw 4 bottles of water, 3 carrots, and 3 apples, she put her hand deep in the packet to find other items but she found nothing...Sarah felt the floor to be slipping from her feet, she put her hand on her face in shocked...how can she survive with only this food, don't know for how many days... she is so hungry now that she can eat all this in one sitting.

He was serious when he said he will starve her to death.... in her helpless she dropped to the corner of the wall and start breathing heavily, all of a sudden the room felt to be closing on her like it's compressing and in any felt she will be compressed in the wall.. she starts shaking and then she felt like throwing up...she runs to the small washroom and puke...and puke more...she was shaking by the time she reached her corner and sit there... n took a water bottle..she took few sips and felt so refreshing that she can't stop herself and drink the whole bottle then she took a deep breath and closed her eyes but then she realized she drink the whole bottle...shit.. what she did, now she is left with only three water bottle ...damn it... she start walking left and right and then felt the panic attack, she has distracted her self and said to herself 'timetable, yeah I need a timetable, I can do that ... I will divide the number of the food item into a number of days and meal'

She took out all the items from the fridge and divide the food, one carrot and one apple for two meals on a day and one bottle water for 2 days, while doing so she was satisfied that she won't die here at least ... as her stomach starts making noise again she decided that one carrot for now .

Her stomach growls again and she looked at the worn-out clock on the wall after a time she realized that at least 6 hours is passed since she has a one carrot and for dinner she still have 5 hours left...oh god how She is going to survive that long...she cries again and said it to the camera 'sir plz let me out I know you are listening to me let me out...' but no response came ..

Sarah keeps living like that in a paranoid and lonely situation and in the 5th day when she opens the fridge and found out to be empty she remember all the food item was finished yesterday night when... there was not even a single drop of water left in the bottle.. 

she was so dehydrated that her throat feels like choke But more than hunger she felt lonesomeness is the main cause of her death... for more than 5 days she hasn't talked to anyone, she hasn't seen anyone.

She sit down on the floor and stare on the camera and said 'Sir today is the fifth day and the food is finished, you told me to use it carefully and I did, I even make the timetable when to eat what, but you also know that the food was only for one day but still I managed, now plz let me out'

She said it with a calm and confident voice that he will let her out this time as she got no food so he won't let her die here, will he? she was not even sure.

For the whole day, she was waiting impatiently and keeps looking at the door that he will come in any minute from now or send anyone to let her out from this hell... 

after the clock was ticking and she waited for 10 hours but she was becoming so weak because of hunger and pain her body is suffering from the last few days, then she realized he will not open the door today again, even knowing she will not survive without food , even is she did she won't survive without water and her throat was already so dry that she can't even talk properly. 

Something in her broke and she shouted and said ... 'You bastard, you evil sadist man, I hope one day you feel the same thing I'm feeling now and you will beg for mercy like I was begging for the past days ... you will kill me and when I die I will tell God what you did to me' she said that last sentence in such pain that her whole body shook with sob and she didn't even realize that for the first time in their marriage she said those things to Theo, but what difference it makes she will be dead when he decided to open this damn door. 

She felt lightheaded and nausea, great the first symptom of starving to death she can felt... then she stand and went to the toilet and vomited her guts and open the tap to drink the dirty water of the toilet, it;s better than nothing but as soon the water enter into her body she vomited again. She is not sure when she will die but if she uses the water in her body again she will die immediately... she holds the wall to walk and then sit in the corner...it was 11 pm and Sarah has accepted her fate. Hunger and fatigue were enough to make her sleep but when she closed her eyes she knows she won't open them again... she looked at the camera once again and said 'tell my family that I forgive them what they did to me but remember I will never forgive you THEO GREY, ' and then she closed her eyes with tears falling out .