The Mate Fate Almost Didn't Give Me

Chapter 7: Maybe?

Chapter  7 

Maybe?

Damian’s P.O.V. 

As I sit in my car with her she is all I can smell. Oranges and warm chocolate, her scent swirls around me making it difficult to think. 

I do know one thing as I stare at her … She will not be going back to hotel. I won’t survive being separated from her. 

“What hotel are you staying at?” I ask her. 

“The Mittigan.”( Oh goddess, I internally groan. Her voice is so beautiful. It sounds like music to my ears. I am positive that it is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard in my life.)

(Suddenly, I realize that this is the first time she has spoken and the question she is answering is what hotel.)

“Your a dumbass.” Demon whispers.

(stay on track you need her hotel number so you can have her things picked up for her.)

“What room?”

“Room 313”, she responds. 

Without saying another word to her, because as my wolf so eloquently put it I am a dumbass, I call Lorcan and tell him to get her things from the hotel and bring them to mine. I end the call quickly so I can go back to staring at her but as soon as the call ends. 

She glares at me, “excuse me, but I don’t know you. Hell I don’t even know your name. All I do know is you cut through the presentation, skipped the ball, and now you think you have the right to move my things to your room without my consent. Who the hell do you think you are.”

I chuckle. (she is quite the little firecracker. I am rather impressed most aren’t willing to yell at an Alpha. Even though I haven’t told her who I am yet, I know I ooze the dominance of an Alpha and usually it makes others nervous.)

(As for who I think I am well that is simple) “Your Mate.”

(She would probably at least like to know my name though huh.) “My name is Damian.”

She freezes but only for a second before saying, “As in Alpha Damian of the Winter Waters Pack.”

(From her expression I can clearly see that my reputation has preceded me)

Demon, “that’s probably a bad thing and your scaring her by the way.”

(Oh s**t, my wolf is probably right.)

I glance over at her, she is expecting me to answer her. “Yes.” (Please don’t be scared, I won’t hurt you.)

(I can see that she is thinking but I can’t really get much else from her expression but I am sure that all she can think about is my reputation. I will say it isn’t pretty I killed my dad when I was 15 and my mate when I was 17. That couple with being a harsh Alpha. Well let’s just keep it at not pretty.)

The rest of the car ride is quite, I try to figure out what she is thinking but I can’t. (I will admit this woman plays it pretty close to the best when it comes to regulating her expressions. As soon as there is a hint of emotion it disappears.)

As soon as the car arrives at the Davenport. I help her out of the car and take her upstairs to my room. I open the door she gasps. (I guess her room isn’t as nice as mine. It makes me happy I remedied that by moving her here.)

As I walk over and take a seat on the couch. She just stands at the door looking into the room. (this doesn’t work for me I want her to come closer. I want her to talk to me. I want to hear her voice again.)

So I say, “are you going to continue to stand there and look stupid woman, or are you going to come take a seat so we can discuss our arrangement.” 

“Could you try to act like less of an asshole?” asks Demon. 

She, however, doesn’t seem to be fazed by me being an asshole and responds,“ if those are my options I think I will remain here looking stupid.”

My mouth drops, though only for a second. (First of all, she is amazing. Second of all she could never look stupid so she shouldn’t even try.)

“It wasn’t actually a choice,” I snap (not wanting her to put herself down like that)

“Fine” She responds as she walks over and to my surprise and disappointment sits down on the couch across from me “ What is it you would like to talk about Alpha.”

(What would I like to talk about? How about why you dare to sit so far from me?)

“First of all so I can know what I kind of situation I am stuck with, what exactly were your scores and ranks?” I snap back at her. 

“You are going to be the reason we loose our mate.” Snaps Demon. 

She glares at me, “you would know the answer to that if you had allowed the ceremony to be completed.

(and have every male looking at her, I think not.) “I said I need to know, not every male in the kingdom.” 

(To be clear if looks could kill my mate probably would have murdered me already) but she does respond “Azara Silver age 20, scores: beauty 7, intelligence 9, kindness 8, strength 10. Pack Alector from Montana, birth rank warrior, placement rank warrior. Did I answer all you questions?” (So in other words she is perfect. Absolutely perfect. Whoever scored her beauty couldn’t have been more wrong though. Maybe they just had a thing for blondes.)

(She definitely didn’t answer all of my questions though. I have at least a million of them; I want to know everything about her.) “No, what is your favorite color?”

She stares at me for a second, “That isn’t answered during presentation?” 

“Well I still want to know, and you asked if all my questions were answered.”

She goes back to glaring at me, “red, but only the really dark red.”

“Like blood red?” I ask her.

 “Yup.” She responds. I can’t help but smile. 

Until she asks the question I have been dreading, ““Well since you cut out pretty much the entire meeting of the mates do you care to tell me what was in your file, that I probably won’t get to see now.” 

“Nope,” I can’t talk to her about that file. I can’t talk about what is in that file. 

She gets straight to the point “fine then answer this, did you kill your first mate because she was low ranking.” (What? Is that what people really think that I killed Alaine because she was an omega?”

“No, I didn’t.”

“Did not kill her or didn’t kill her because she was low ranking?”

I stare at her. (What can I say I may not have been the one to physically kill Alaine but I cause her death when I turned her in). So I respond with, “the latter. 

(Instantly, I regret it. All, I can see is the fear in her eyes. Before she can ask anything else someone knocks on the door.) As I walk over I breath a sigh of relief. ‘

I answer the door, it’s just my beta telling me we have to meet about pack affairs. ( I know that all of the pack affairs were handled for the month. So I think that this is just his way of being vague). I agree to come downstairs and talk to him in a few minutes. 

Before, I leave I turn around and say “Your things have arrived, I am going downstairs to discuss pack affairs with my Beta, you might as well take a shower and get out of those ridiculous clothes whilst I am gone”. 

“Could you stop saying things that are  going to offend our mate?” asks Demon. 

“I just want her to get comfortable in her new surroundings. You can’t tell me that dress  is going to do that.” 

“No,” he responds. “But she does look quite beautiful in it.”

I smile at that she does look gorgeous in that dress but I have a feeling she would look beautiful in anything. 

“And in case you can’t tell. She is scared and you have been nothing but rude to her. I would be surprised if she tries to run away.” Demon points out. 

I freeze at that. ( I can’t take it if she runs away. I will lose my mind.)

Out of fear I walk over to her get down to eye level and say, “And if you even think about running, I will hunt you down woman.”

I spin around and walk out of the room.

Meanwhile Demon is howling in my head. “ARE YOU f*****g STUPID. WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING. I SAY THAT SHE IS SCARED AND PROBABLY THINKING ABOUT RUNNING AWAY AND WHAT DO YOU DO? OH THAT’S RIGHT YOU SCARE THE f**k OUT OF HER BY THREATENING HER. I SWEAR TO THE GODDESS YOU BETTER FIND A WAY TO FIX THIS RIGHT NOW. I WILL NOT LOSE HER BECAUSE YOU ARE A DUMBASS.”

Unfortunately my wolf is correct, I am yet again acting like a dumbass.

“DAMN RIGHT YOU ARE,” Demon yells. 

“I am sorry”. I apologize to him. 

“You don’t understand, I can not lose her.” 

“I  know you have said that already. Although I don’t understand how you can be that sure of that. We survived losing our first mate.” I say to him. 

“This is different. I don’t know why but I do know I can’t lose her.” Demon whispers.

I groan, “ I know Demon, I don’t think I would survive losing her either.”

“Then fix it.”

“How?”

He rolls his eyes, “show her who you are.”

“What if that only scares her more?” I ask him.

“It won’t.”

“You don’t know that. If she reads that file she won’t just find out I am a murderer. She will find out I am a traitor that I gave up my first mate to the authorities. I didn’t even try to protect Alaine.”

Demon sighs, “you didn’t murder Alaine Damian and you didn’t betray her. I know you feel responsible for what happened to her but she brought it upon herself. You are an Alpha, your responsible for your pack. She attacked our pack, you had no choice but to protect it.”

(I know that he is right and I do need to be honest with my mate.)

I walk back into our hotel room to give her the file but she is already in the bath. (At least she is relaxing.)

I grab my file out of my pile of paperwork on the desk on the sticky note I place on the folder I write

“Woman,

I don’t wish to discuss my folder with you. I will not go to that stupid counselling session, or discussing arrangements, because it is simple you are moving back with me. I will not have it any other way. However I do feel like you should know what your future entails, so I  have left my file on the bed and am allowing you the extra time tonight to read it before I get back. 

Sincerely,

Damian 

Part of me knows that I should tell her this face to face and explain what is in my file and go to the counselling sessions with her but I just can’t. I am not quite ready to talk about it. I just hope that this will be enough for now. 

I leave the file on the bed and walk back out the room to give her some privacy and walk down to the hotel bar to talk to my beta.