REJECTED

Homeless

Brianna

Finally! The train was moving, I was leaving Dawson Pack lands behind, I was getting away from my past and the all things that had hurt me. 

'This was going to be a new beginning! Freedom!' I know I had told myself this so many times already but I could not stop myself. The more I said it, the more real it felt. I loved the feeling of it feeling realistic. It made me realize that I had actually taken the first step to controlling my own life.

I would not go as far as saying my own destiny, who knew what the moon goddess had planned for me. I had shifted earlier than everyone else, my wolf had been the one to push to accept my mate's rejection. Nothing about me was normal but only I knew that to everyone else I was the boring girl that had no wolf.

Don't judge a book by its cover, perfectly summarized my whole existence.

I was a big anomaly.  

Before the train had left, I had gotten a weird feeling in my chest, something was calling to me. It felt like a pull, maybe it was not going to be so bad out of Dawson Pack as I thought it was going to be. See something was already calling for me to leave.

My future was indeed out there, limitless. I could do whatever I wanted out there, there would not be any rules tying me down. I was ready to explore what the world had to offer.

I quickly realized that the further the train moved the weaker the pull got.

Was whatever was waiting for away from Dawson Pack, had I left it behind? A small part of me panicked a little. 'What if it had been something important?' I thought to myself.

Right there, I questioned all my choices till then, was I making a mistake? Was I too much in a hurry to cut ties with others?

"Hopefully I do not regret this." I tell myself with a sigh, but what kind of pull what that? Just that quick and I had regretted everything I had chosen, that was very unsettling to say the least. In that moment I wanted to undo every choice I had made.

It took a while for me to realize that I was the only passenger in my cabin but being that the first stop was Dawson pack it made a lot of sense that no one else had boarded with me a the Dawson station, pack wolves rarely went anywhere.

Wolves preferred to run to most places so no one was going to sit in in a crammed trained when they could let their animal out for a refreshing run except when there was absolutely no choice.

I sat in silence, I had no thought in my mind. I simply enjoyed the silence for the one hour I was supposed to be in the train before getting off, I was not sure if Dawson Pack members would ever look for me but I had made the choice to get off at the first stop. because the eye of the storm was usually the safest, no one would think of  Fairville, it would be the last place anyone would think to find me.

I may have drifted off somewhere in the middle of the trip because next thing I know, the train is coming to a stop and I have to get my bag from the overhead carrier before waiting for the train to come to a complete stop before getting off.

This was it

What does a homeless, pack less sixteen year old 'wolf less' girl do in a new town? Even though I had technically been my own for almost all my life at least I had grown up in Dawson pack and everything always felt familiar this was different.

I was alone, in a new town, under no Alpha's jurisdiction. My life was in my hands now but why did I suddenly feel scared?

"I need food, actual food." I say to myself when my stomach growls for the third time earning several funny looks from the people at the platform. With my petite frame I probably looked a little malnourished.

How embarrassing! Cheeks turning red.

I had gotten used to a life where no one turned to look at me no matter what I did, this was something different. Imagine feeling different because people actually for once turned to look at you.

Pathetic!

"I know a place that sells good cheap food around here." a little old lady finally offers startling me. Basic human communication, help being offered. I had never experienced all that and for the first time since morning I felt my eyes welling up.

I was not even been this emotional when I had been rejected earlier so why was this getting to me? I was just offered help!

I should be stronger than this, I have always been stronger than this.

'Come on Brianna suck it up! Get a grip!' I tell myself before turning to the old lady. "Please." I really was hungry so I was not going to be polite, "where can I find the place. I really need food."

She shows me a toothy grin before telling me to take a couple of lefts when I got to the exit of the subway station. I was already getting a little claustrophobic now, the subway felt like I was trapped in some underground cave system and I couldn't wait to leave. I am wolf remember, my kind love open spaces and freedom.

"Thank you" I mumbled before practically running out.

This was my real first taste of freedom.

The envelop Alpha Colton had handed me was full of cash, I was not sure whether it was out of guilt or out the goodness of his heart but right now I was very grateful for the help. This combined with my savings could last me for a while.

Before I got to the eatery I saw a place that sold SIM cards and I decided to get one, it was not really for communication but I need one for mobile money services. 

I was not stupid enough to carry money around with me all the time. I know what happens to people new in town. Easy targets for robbery, I was already added to the statistics of rejected books no way was I going to add to the robbery books.

SIM card bought, all my money deposited on it save for one hundred dollars I make my way to the eatery. I had to bribe the guy at the SIM registration because I did not have an identification card. I was still underage remember?

It was worth it though because this way even if my phone was stolen all I needed to do was renew my SIM card and I would still have access to all my money.

Smart! I know!

I have always been known to be a smarty pants! 

Well, not really, no one knew me. Even my own mate did not know my name.

Maybe I could actually make friends in a place where no one had prejudice against me. That would actually be really great.

New town.

New me!

As cliché as it sounded, that was exactly my plan.

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