Beth
I call Terrence three times only to have no answer. I leave three voicemails in return, each one more aggressive than the last. It's late evening and I feel he is ignoring me on purpose, making me sweat it out a bit. He is punishing me for giving him the gift he wanted more than he had ever wanted me.
My hands shake and tears roll down my face. The feeling of powerlessness and guilt keep me awake at night. I spend all my time thinking of Blythe; I wonder how Terrence and Spencer are treating her—if Lawrence is watching out for her. I wish I hadn't been so harsh with him on the phone. If I had been well-behaved he might have agreed to my terms and conditions.
I have no idea how I'm going to return to work in the upcoming week. I cannot focus and my stress is near debilitating. I'v
