Chapter Six – Goodbye Elliot
The car roared away from that dam place, and I sat in silence, not wanting to speak, just wanting to get away. I took a deep breath and sighed out my troubles, and Elliot stole a glance at me.
“So, do you want to tell me what happened in the bathroom?” his voice strained, and I was unsure how to read his tone and manner right now.
“Usual s**t, different day” I said, shrugging my shoulder’s.
“Let me guess, your cousin from Hell, had a go at you” his face not leaving the road,
“yeah well, she was right, I am a sad cow” I looked away out of the side window, not wanting to face him, not wanting to face anybody right now, because here they come, the tears of humiliation, rejection and self loathing.
“I don’t think you are” Elliot’s voice softened slightly.
Something in his tone, said he was being truthful, but then again what did I know, I had met him but a few hours ago, and well, he was the escort after all so what did I know about when he did or didn’t tell the truth.
“Helena, Listen, to me please, you are not Sad, and I have not lied to you, you were the most beautiful girl in that room, that is why they attack you. Also, whether you believe me or not, I am glad I met you, and got to spend this time with you, because up till that bathroom break, we were having fun and I was enjoying every moment of your company, and even though I am slightly pissed off that you have no confidence in who you are, and being honest I still am because I do not like how you view yourself.”
My head whipped round then to look at him, I mean, that was a lovely speech, and above the call of duty, maybe he was being truthful.
“Anyway, the buffet was shite, and I am hungry, and I guess you will be as well, so no arguments Missy the night is still young, and we are going for food!”
Okay, guess that’s me told then, I am going for food,
“Guess someone likes being in control and the boss” I teased him, trying to lighten the mood,
“You have no idea baby girl” he chuckled at me,
“So, what do you want to eat? There is a nice Indian, or Italian just down from here” Elliot continued
“not Indian, I am a girl when it comes to hot food” I smiled.
“Italian it is then” Elliot smirked obviously pleased with himself having convinced me to go for food! Well, more like he ordered me to go for food, but I am hungry, because he was right the buffet was shite!
Taking a turn off the main highway, we ended up going round some dark country roads, s**t, maybe he is going to kill me after all.
“You trying to get me down country lanes” I said, oh me and my big mouth, here we go again, foot in mouth disease!
“Maybe, who knows” Elliot chuckled,
“Oi, I am not that type of girl” I squealed at him, in mock horror,
“Never thought you were baby girl” he smiled at me, making me smile back at him, he had a calming effect on me, and I do not understand how.
“See that is better, you have the most stunning smile.”
I blushed again, wow, he was off the clock, he did not need to keep doing this, but here he was giving me compliments and making me smile and eat apparently.
“I love your blush, baby girl, so dam cute” now that comment is not helping my red face situation one little bit, because my cheeks are aflame now!
“Smooth talker” I quipped back, to hide my utter embarrassment, which caused him to chuckle at me.
“We are here” I looked at the time, it was gone ten at night, surely the service would be over.
“Hey, have you seen the time, they will be finished” I said, disappointed because now he had mentioned food, I was hungry, and well enjoying myself a little again,
“I know the owner; we will get served” he replied confidently. Okay, guess I will get fed then.
We pulled into the carpark, and Elliot got out the car, and headed straight round to my door and opened it, and took my hand again, dam he did not need to do that now, the show time was over half an hour ago, but here he is holding my hand, and here I am really very happy about it because fireworks are prickling through me right up my arm then down my body and straight into my freshly pruned lady garden… dam.
He guided me into the restaurant, and led me to a chair, then headed over to where the staff were sat, and said something, they nodded and smiled, and he returned taking the seat opposite mine smiling that amazing smile that would melt a thousand ice caps.
“Sorted my lady, you will eat this evening” he chuckled at me, and I just shook my head, from Greek God, Alpha Male, with seductive chats, to utter geek, just like that, and it was adorable.
A waiter brought over the menus for us, and I looked though,
“what is good?” I asked, normally I would choose the cheapest option, but there were no prices on the dam thing, so I was at a loss as what to order.
“Do you like seafood?” he asked,
“yeah”
“Two of the lobsters please, and a glass of Red, wine for the lady” Elliot immediately ordered for us.
Shit Lobster, that is going to cost a fortune, granted I still had my £60 given he would not let me pay for anything, but hey Lobster can be more than that, I looked on feeling a little concerned!
“You are frowning again, why?” he asked staring at me intently, trying to figure out my change of mood.
“Just there is no price on the food, and well lobster may be out of my range” I answered honestly.
“Who said you were paying missy, this is my treat”.
“But…”
“But nothing baby girl, now just relax and let’s not talk of money again!” he smiled at me.
“Guess that is me told” I joked with him rolling my eyes at his forcefulness.
“Yeah, it is, now, tell me about your kids, how old are they?” Elliot said, changing the subject immediately.
Normally I would feel uncomfortable talking about my kids to a stranger, but somehow with him, I chatted happily about them, and he seemed really interested, especially when I said how intelligent Steven was, and how his favourite pass time was doing math. And he awed when I told him all about Robyn and how she managed to wrap everyone round her little finger.
“So, what is your favourite music?” he asked, seeming to want to know more about me, it was a nice feeling, nobody showed me that much attention when they find out I have two small kids.
“Well at the moment, my play list consists of Let it Go, and Never Smile at a Crocodile, along with many nursery rhymes” I laughed.
“Hey, don’t knock Disney Songs,” Elliot Chuckled,
“Why do you partake in a bit of Disney music?” I laughed with him.
“shh, our secret” Elliot winked at me.
“I will not tell a soul” I giggled.
We continued chatting, whilst eating and Elliot was laughing at me trying to get the shell off the lobster. It was comfortable, like I had known him for years, and before I knew it, it was gone 2 am and try as I might I could not stop the yawning.
“Time to get you home baby girl” Elliot smiled, then walked over to the counter, and paid the bill, and came back, pulling my chair out for me, and taking my hand again. Dam this was the best fake date in the world, I mean if Carlsberg did fake dates, it would be this one, I kid you not!
We sat in silence on the way home, it was starting to feel a little awkward, I was unsure what to do next and well, fantasy time was over, and it was back to the real world for me.
We pulled up outside my house, and as I moved to unbuckle my seat belt, he placed his arm around me, and gently pulled my face towards him, I held a breath, because the look he was giving me was intense.
“Helena, seriously, I have enjoyed every second with you tonight” Elliot said, staring direct into my eyes making me feel all weak inside.
“Thank you, I must admit it was less painful than I had imagined” I giggled, remembering my old imaginings of being murdered, or my money taken and being left skint and dateless.
Suddenly his face was so close to my own, “So beautiful” he whispered, then his lips crashed into mine, dam, it was hot, he bit my bottom lip slightly causing me to gasp, which he took full advantage of, his tongue meeting mine fighting for dominance. I was a gonna, my mind in a whirl wind of emotions and tingles everywhere and when I say everywhere, I mean everywhere.
His hands were trailing down my arms again as he deepened the kiss, the feeling was intense, and I could already feel my arousal, woah, what is happening here!
Shit Helena, you must stop this, it is fake, stop it now! I screamed inside my head, and then mustered up every last ounce of self-worth and pushed him away.
“What was that?” I asked, shocked, and embarrassed by my enthusiasm of having this man kiss me,
“Helena, I am sorry, but I like you baby girl” he looked at me, not flinching.
“Erm, right, well I think it is time for me to leave, thank you” I said, desperate to get away my humiliation was now complete.
“Helena, please, don’t do that!” he sighed. I could feel his frustration, but I could not get passed the fact I had hired him for the night, no matter how much I wanted to.
“What, let us be real for one second, this was a rent a date, you were paid to be nice, and well its now over!” I shouted at him, I could not allow myself to think anything else, I had to stop this before I lost my mind completely.
“Did I ever make you feel that this was not real? I have been honest with you Helena, f**k baby girl, why can you not accept that someone may actually like you, think you are beautiful, want to spend time with you, enjoy your company, why is that hard for you to accept? “ his tone was stern, and he seemed angry at me now, which only made my embarrassment of this situation worse.
I hung my head tears welling up again, s**t he knew how to push my buttons. And I needed to get out of this dam car before this goes even further, and I feel even more s**t about myself.
“Goodbye Elliot” I said not looking at him, I got out the car, and headed into the house without looking back, because it was a fairy tale, and I do not get a happy ending so best to rip the plaster off right here and right now.