#3 making a deal with a Goddess
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a Phoenix in itself is nothing special. born from pain and suffering only to learn to rise above. a Phoenix rises from the ashes. reborn from the pain and suffering. if it wasn't so dark it could almost be beautiful. it wasn't like I was the real Phoenix. I was just a girl who died too soon and suffered many ti.es in life. it had been a cruel and hard life. mated to an asshole who used everyone around him. he was good at taking what he wanted. even if it didn't belong to him. he saw and took. I blamed him for my untimely death. yes I was the one who slipped and fell whe. I ran crying from our bedroom, but he was the reason I did run crying. there he was on top of a naked Carla and grunting and moaning. whe. he sw me he smugly smiled and told me to make sure to shut the door behind me he would get to me next. even in desth I couldn't shake that image from my mind. I lost more than my life that day. I lost a piece of me that kept me hoping. I lost my hope.
what am I doing here anyways? I was in total darkness. no one was around I was alone. silence all around. only my thoughts to keep me company and right now those thoughts weren't good. only bad could come of them. I was genuinely surprised I hadn't lost all my memories yet. I guess I just assumed when I died I wouldn't remember any of it. here I was though, fully aware of everything. maybe the moo. Goddess knew my rhoughts and was making me simmer down before she talked to me and sent me off to my next life. maybe those dark thoughts brought me here as my punishment. I guess it served me right being punished. I was punished in life as well. it felt like it had been years since I died. maybe it had only been a day. I couldn't tell time there was no warch stuck in limbo. maybe this was hell. I couldn't be sure. it definitely wasn't anything pleasant that's for sure. darkness still surrounded me. hoping had it been? I was growing tired. being alone was making me desperate.
maybe if I just started walking towards any direction and just not stop unless I finally see something. or someone. so far even death really sucked. that asshome just sucked the fun out of all my life. oh, well technically I'm not alive anymore. o started walking. just moving my feet forward towards a non existentight that I prayed would just appear. hope was easy to lose when you lost it before you died. "hello?" I wanted to talk to someone. I wanted answers. why was I being punished even in death? "hello!" I was screaming now. I wanted my voice heard. I was getting angrier with each foot step. then what I had been wanting suddenly appeared. a light. a smallish off in the distance and I found myself picking up the pace running towards it afraid it would just vanish on me. the harder I ran the further away it got until I was panting hasping for air. "SCREW YOU!" I kicked a non existent rock. oy my foot actually kicked something this time. "what the he..." my words were cut off my a voice. an angelic voice that broke the silence in the darkness that surrounded me.
"Angel?" I looked around trying to see someone at this point anyone.
"who are you?" what's going on?" fear was creeping up my legs and into my blood stream. I was trying to keep my heart from beating out of my chest.
"sit next to the water with me. I need to talk with you."
"are you crazy? it's pitch black whatbwayers edge? there is nothing but darkness." like a light switch I was in a meadow. the sun was in the sky and a river ran down on the edge of the meadow. it reminded me of our territory. there ong the edge was a woman sitting down watching out along the river. I stood there for a moment. not sure of what to do. her voice e called out again to me.
"Come Angel. sit with me for a moment." she never looked back at me. she just used her hand to pat the ground next to her. frustrated I decided I might as well. it's not like I have anything else to do since my death. I opted myself next to her not so elegantly but I was there so there was that. she never looked at me. she just looked into the water. after a moment of silence I couldn't take it anymore. I started to speak but she raised her hand to silence me. "I heard all of your prayers."
"and hear I thought they were falling on deaf ears." I was a little angry. angry at the abuse and my death and even more so angry that I was put in lockdown in complete darkness with nobody for Goddess knows how long. I know she could sense my anger and frustration but I couldn't reaign it in. there was just too much and it was bow bubbling to the surface ready to explode.
"I heard your prayers and I am going to let you go back." I was shocked. still a little pissed off but thankfully I have been heard. "there are conditions to this agreement."
"oh because I haven't been punished enough? you know what I have been stuck in this limbo for Goddess knows how long by myself with nothing but darkness amd silence! I died because I was mated to an abusive asshole who was drugging my best friend and raped her and you want to put conditions on me returning? no! I don't accept any conditions! I want my life back." I could feel the fire burning deep inside me. yeah I didn't want conditions. I just realized I screamed at the moon Goddess. not sure if that was even allowed.
"I can't put you in the same body. it's gone. what do you suppose I do?" it was right about now I realized she looked like nothing. she was beautiful and Goddess like yet she looked like everyone and no one all at the same time. it was as though she were somehow everyone.
"you are the moon Goddess. you can do whatever you want. my body was sent up to you." she seemed to smile at what I said. maybe she was getting amusement on my behalf. of course she knew she coukd do what she wanted. she created us. "I have a question."
she cracked an eyebrow at me. I got the feeling she already knew my question before I even asked it. "yes Angel?"
"why?"
"I didn't mean for you to die. it actually wasn't part of my plan. I will right that wrong. through suffering and pain lessons are learned."
I was trying not to show my agitation. I had definitely suffered enough. I was done learning lessons. I played my hand on my face shaking my head. "lesson learned." I let out an exasperated groan. " I want my body back. I want life back."
"very few people would dare to demand from me." she seemed amused with me. I was tired of being her toy.
I jumped to my feet. how dare she think what she did was a game. "my life was just a game to you! did you laugh? was it the desired joke amongst all you Gods? give me back my life! I have had enough!"
"Angel it was not a joke and I will give it back to you but I need something from you before I can do that."
I was shocked. what could she possibly need from me? wasn't I just a wolf and she the moon Goddess? "what do you need?" I sat back down waiting for her to reply. I didn't mean to explode and yell but my life felt like it had beennfor her amusement. I was hurt so many times. how was that fun?
" I need you to kill the alpha."
I'm pretty sure she could see the shock on my face. "why not just strike him dead as he stands?"
"he is working with the God of death and so it is beyond my ability right now. he sold his soul a long time ago. something that hadn't happened until after I had paired you both together. I am truly sorry for all you have suffered. he can't be allowed to continue."
I contemplated this for a moment. I get the life she accidentally took if I kill the alpha. sounds easy enough but if he was working with the devil then it definitely was not going to be easy. how was I supposed to go against the devil?" how do you propose I kill the devil? I mean you yourself have seen what he does and that's just as a man. he is a very sadistic person even without the power of the God of death. how do you suppose I am to do this on my own?" it was a legitimate question. I wasn't sure I would like the answer because I was positive I wasn't going to get super powers. nope I was sure this was a challenge done without any powers.
"the sword of inubus."
clearly I was going crazy in death.
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