Jenna I don’t know what led me here. I told myself I wouldn’t come here again; I shouldn’t have come last time when Brandon told me to stay away, but then how could I not? Everything is such a mess. How did I mess my life up this badly? I was fine before Brandon stormed into my life and changed everything I knew. I know he’s done wonderful things for me by giving me the courage to take Toby back. I will never regret that. But look what happened because of it. I love Brandon; there is no doubt about that. God, I love him with every part of my heart. But how can I trust that he cares for me when he’s been in contact with his ex when he told me he wanted nothing more to do with her? I don’t believe that Brandon has cheated on me se.xually, but emotionally? Yes, he has. Why wouldn’t he