Haunted By Her Control

---Please be warned this book mentions suicidal thoughts, abuse, s*x, near-death experiences, etc if you don't like any of this please do not continue to read. also please be warned this is a sequel to My Domme Teacher---- There was a time when I didn’t think I would make it past 18 let alone be turning 21 in a couple of days. A fully grown adult, of course in Australia that doesn’t mean much. To me it means everything. just three more days and I will be totally free from my past. I know that sounds dramatic but I can’t legally sell off my parent's company until I turn 21. It’s the last aspect that keeps me chained up to the horrors of my past. Although my mother, I hate calling her that, lost her rights to the company when she was branded a fugitive. Although I fear they have stopped looking for her, as she has immense resources. In 3 years and my life has changed so much, I moved away to the peaceful country. Got myself a big piece of land far away from the growing population. With my beautiful German Shepard, Roxy. I feel safe. Although my memories and past still haunt me. That’s why I lost touch with you after school, I explain. “I understand that and I gave you the time but we grew up together and I don’t want to lose us. I should have come after you earlier but I didn’t know what to say or how to act. But I realise now that all I needed to do was be there for you and I wasn’t. I can’t say how truly sorry am for that.” “Don’t be sorry for a long time I was angry at the world and everyone. It took me down a dark path and I got into a lot of trouble for it. I am glad you weren’t around me when I was like that because I ruined everything in my path during that time. You didn’t deserve to be treated like that. That Amelia is gone.” “Well, I am glad to see you have cleaned up and made a happy life for yourself. speaking of which any lucky girls around?” she jokes to change the subject. “Nah, I am steering clear of relationships for much longer, how about you any lucky guys?” “Um yes actually, do you remember Lewis?” “Wait that class clown that was three-year levels above us?” “Yes, the very guy.” “Does he make you happy? “He makes me so happy, actually we are looking at moving in together.” “Are you still going to travel?” “Yeah, we plan to rent so when we decide to travel it easier.” “Lovely, I am happy for you. Do you want to come for a walk? We always loved those.” “Definitely, I want to see you place, I didn’t pay much attention on the way in, I was too nervous to see you.” “I am still working on it but it has come a long way since I bought it a year ago.” “Do you have pictures from when you first purchased it?” “Yes, I do, here I’ll pull them up on my phone.” I say to her as I find the house pictures. For the next few hours, I showed her my property and explain my plans while we continued to catch up for lost time. “It is getting late; did you need to head back down to Melbourne tonight or did you want to stay the night? It is almost Roo hour.” “I was just going to stay somewhere in town.” She replies. “Well you have a open offer to stay here but I understand if you don’t want to, considering all that happened in my last house.” I whisper the last part while looking away. Roxy senses that I am upset, and rises from her spot in front if the fireplace and jumps up onto the couch, placing her head in my lap. “Oh no, it has nothing to do with that, I didn’t know what kind of welcome you were going to give me after all this time. I would love to stay.” “Lovely I have some left over fried rice that I was going to have, if you don’t mind having left overs.” “Sure, but hopefully your cooking has gotten better since we were kids” “You will have to be the judge of that.” I remark back before standing up and heading into the kitchen. “You are welcome to put the TV on while I get this ready.” I yell out. “Thanks” Roxy follows me into the kitchen, I grab her dinner even though I know she most likely won’t eat it until Stacia leaves. She sits down when she smells her food. I then put the food in her bowl, to which she sniffs and then looks up at me. “Come on girl, you can eat, we are safe.” I say but she doesn’t make a move to eat it. “Well, you can watch me cook then.” I say before grabbing the food out of the fridge. I place the food into the microwave before looking out the kitchen window. --- When I think back to the moment, I woke up in that hospital bed, I was confused and lost. I panicked because there was a tube down my throat, it was so hard to breath, I just kept gagging. Just as I try to press the nurse button, the doctor rushes in. “Hold on Amelia, calm down. I need to remove the breathing tube.” He says while pushing me back down as the nurse run into the room. They removed the tube and helped me drink some water. Before asking me if I wanted to contact anyone. I was still disorientated; I just broke down crying. “What happened?” I forced out while examining my body. I am covered in bruises that have started to turn yellow and brown. My leg and arm are in cast. I wonder how long I was asleep for, as the doctor answers me. “I think the police are the best person for you to talk to about that, they are going to have a chat with you soon.” “Please,” I plead, the doctor stops to think but before he can say anything the nurse steps in. “You have two friends that have been asking about you, considering you have no family to see you. if you give permission, I can let them in here to see you,” she says while giving me some more water. “Yes please,” I croak out, the doctor doesn’t look too happy with the nurse but all this movement has me dizzy so I lay back down and stare at the roof. My eyes blur and I realise that one is swollen shut. I would know that feeling anywhere. A tear slips out of my eye as the memories resurface. What had my life come to. I am worthless, I don’t deserve to live. I wish I had died, what is my life worth anymore. My whole bad is aching, even with the pain medication, I don’t have to think hard to know that if I wasn’t on the medication the pain would be much worse. “Amelia.” I hear, I look over and see two worried friends. “Amelia” I hear again but they aren’t saying anything. It is then that someone shakes me and I am pulled back into reality, well the present. My past is unfortunately also a reality for me, one that is impossible to run from. The memories will forever haunt me. I just won’t let them control my life any more. “Sorry, I zoned out” “Yeah, that’s what I thought but are you okay?” “I am okay, I just get stuck in my head sometimes.” “What do you think about?” she ask as I check the temperature of the rice, realising that it needs heating up. “The past, mostly” “How often?” she asks with worry evident on her face. “Too often” I reply while looking away from her. “About her or your-” “Please don’t say the P word they don’t deserve to be called that.” I quickly cut her off as the microwave dings. “Sorry Amelia.” “Don’t be sorry, I am the one that should be” I admit with shame as I separate the fried rice into two bowls. “Dinner is ready, lets eat outside by the fire. The sunset looks beautiful.” I say attempting to change the topic. Stacia follows me in silence. “Oh, s**t I forgot the sauces, I will be back in a minute.” I rush in side to find my favourite soy sauce and sweat and chilli, before heading back out to her. As I get back outside Stacia says, “Mate, this fried rice is bloody good, almost impossible to believe that.” “Still a comedian I see” I joke as pope the sauces on the table, before popping some more wood on the fire. “Always but it is bloody good” “Glad you liked it.” I whisper as I sit down. “Do you mind if I ask you some more questions, about the past? Or do you want that topic to be kept quiet?” she asks, after we finish eating. “Nah, you can ask anything you want, although it might be hard for me to answer some.” I say with honesty. “That is fair enough, um, what were you thinking about earlier when I had to pull you out of your dreaming state?” “I was thinking about when I first woke up in the hospital and what was going through my head, you pulled me out of the memory just as you guys were allowed in to see me,” I explain. “We didn’t know what to expect, they wouldn’t tell us anything as we weren’t family, even though Max was your cousin. We knew that she was the reason for the information block out, but there wasn’t much us teenagers could do.” she shares. “You know, I found out later that day that when I previously woke up, that my body couldn’t take the toll and went into shut down. Causing me to flat line. I don’t really know the medical explanations for it and she was the one that translated it all for me and well, I wasn’t really myself around her. Most of the time, I struggle to remember what happened before I flatlined.” I explain. “I never knew you flatlined,” Stacia whispers, with tears coming out of her eyes. “I know Luna was there and that she looked worried. I still wonder to this day if she was worried that truth would come out or for my safety.” “I am not defending her; I would never defend her but she truly looked distraught to us. In addition, she is the only reason that the police knew something was wrong. They would have never found you in time if it wasn’t for her” “There is so much that still confuses me from that time, maybe that is why I still think back to the past. I have gone to countless people for help but I am ashamed of everything that happened with Luna Armstrong that I can never share that side of things which caused me to discontinue or they figure it out and send me to someone else. So, I gave up and found other ways to cope. Not always healthy ways. Life gives challenges, I may have faced some bad ones but I survived and unfortunately, not everyone does. I am thankful every day for that. I won’t let my past ruin my future.” I say before standing up and looking out into the night sky.