Addicted

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MAYRA'S POV

I pushed myself to open my eyes and second next, strong masculine scent of dark cologne travelled  he's up to?

MAYRA'S POV

Hurt. Anger. Betrayal. Heartache. Frustration. Pain.

Those were just few words which would fit correctly to describe the flood of emotions to which my mind was passing through. My heart started thumping harder and every vain in my body felt like they were about to freeze after every single second.

Is this is all I am going to get as being his wife?

Tears welled up into my eyelids and suddenly whole surrounding seems like suffocating. I clenched my fists and tried to dart my eyes away from the scene where Rehan who happens to be my husband was kissing Tara who was his secretory.

"Never thought that you'll need me again Rehan." Tara words dragged me back and instantly Rehan switched position by pushing Tara on the bed and removing his own shirt from his body.

Tara giggled in response, playing with her hair locks and admiring his shirt less body. I felt bile rising up to my throat after realizing that what was going to happen next. My whole body shivered in disgust and I bit my lips to suppress the urge to cry harder.

I closed my eyes tightly shut. I can't take it anymore.

How could so easily do all this?

Everything was going perfectly good between us then why he is doing all this? Was his every words was nothing but a lie? Our marriage vow doesn't meant a thing to him?

"Ah Mayra what a pleasant surprise to see you here." My eyes went wide after listening my name from Tara's mouth.

I blinked several times to let go of tears which were clouding my vision. Then only I saw Tara looking straight at me with a mischievous smirk who is trapped underneath Rehan.

My body stiffened and automatically my legs started taking few steps backward. I just don't want to face Rehan at this moment. I don't know what would be his reaction but my heart just couldn't take it.

"Wait. Where are you going?" She said again and this time, pushing Rehan away from her.

She stood up and straighten her dress which was sliding over her shoulder. I gulped down and froze at my place. I didn't even dared to look at Rehan.

"Oops I guess it wasn't a pleasure for a sweet and innocent wife like you to witness her hot husband on the bed with another woman. Isn't it?" She muttered while giving me a side hug.

Her words felt like someone had just passed a knife through my heart. I dig nails on my thigh and fixed my eyes on the ground.

"TARA LEAVE NOW." Suddenly Rehan yelled and I flinched in shock.

His voice full of anger.

"Whatever. I bet you'll need me soon." Tara sad in a matter of fact tone and walked away.

Her words started spinning in my head and at that very moment I hated her words with whole my consciousness.

"Come here." He said in a calm tone but yet his voice was full of venom.

My palm became wet due to sweating I forced myself to look in his direction but couldn't find enough guts to do that.

"Mayra have I said something?" Again he rolled out his words and my whole body started shaking in fear.

"I SAID COME HERE." After few seconds he added harshly and my legs automatically started moving towards him.

As I reached in front of him, my eyes went closed and mentally, I started praying that his anger will calm down. I don't want to agree but whenever he is angry then all I want is to stay away from him but at the end always my heart push me closer to him.

"Open your eyes." He forced out his words laced with blank emotions and I simply shook my head.

"MAIYRA DON'T TEST ME. JUST OPEN YOUR f*****g EYES AND LOOK AT ME." He shouted harshly and his voice literally gave me goose bumps.

Uneasiness started spreading over me and reluctantly I pushed my eyes to meet his. Everything again get stilled. His face was holding strange expressions with tired eyes and clenched jaw.

His pupils maybe expanded in rage but still something soft inside them didn't get unnoticed by me. And once again like every time, my every irritation, my every pain went away.

I almost forgot everything and what matters right now was this moment where we have interlocked our gaze, making me realize that my every pain and every heart ache was smaller than his happiness.

Seriously Rehan this time I want to ask you that what you are doing with me?

I was no longer that old Mayra. You've developed new feelings in me.

"When I told you to go back to home than WHY you came back here? WHY?" He questioned, stressing over his tone but this time I didn't flinched away. This time I just fixed my eyes with him.

"Sorry." I whispered and his eyes went wider. His clenched jaw get relaxed and by the look on his face indicated that he was trying hard to read my expressions.

I thought of smiling but it didn't reached my lips.

"Mayra let me get you straight to the point. We are married couples but only for the world there is nothing between us, in reality. For me you are just a woman who lives in the same house as I and there's nothing more I feel about you. It would be much better if you also think the same" He said in a casual tone and turned his back towards me.

From backside, the muscles of his shoulder became tensed.

My heart constricted in my rib cage and his every words started hitting straight into my mind.

But I don't know why some words slipped out of my mouth in hurry. "That means I can also date whomever I want after all if you could sleep around then the least I can is to go on a date?" I know my words were harsh but sometimes even sense couldn't control feelings.

He instantly snapped towards me and grabbed my wrist tightly. I hissed in pain but by ignoring everything he pulled me towards the bathroom.

I licked my lips in nervousness and tried to wriggle my wrist from his hold but instead his hold get tighter.

Soon he pushed me under the shower and turned on the water to flow down. As soon as water touched my skin, I shivered. The water being enough cold that if I will stay here any longer than definitely I will freeze. He also step inside the shower, trapping me between glass wall and his hand.

I quickly turned away my eyes from him but by placing his finger on my chin, he forced me look at him. His tousled hair started dripping with water which drained him completely. I gulped down my saliva in fear but he just kept a blank face.

"Never think of anyone else except me. Only I have every right on you. Am I clear?"

My stomach started forming knots at his sentence. My cheeks heat up and I hesitantly looked at him again.

"Am I clear?" He asked again making me gasp and without saying anything, I nodded.

"W-What do you w-ant Re-han. Yo-u are confu-sing me. You had said that we don't have any r-relatio-nship other than one for p-ublic showing then why...." I started stammering with whatever comes inside my mind but before I can complete my words, suddenly he covered my mouth with his palms.

My breath get hitched up and in shock my eyes went wider.

"I don't want any other word on this topic." He said and with that he left me standing still in the shower.

I closed my eyes shut and tilted my head to take a support from the wall. I have an instant urge to laugh at my current situation. This is all so messed up.

Whenever I feel like I've figured him out, he does something unexpected at that very moment causing me to even doubt my own instincts.

He had clearly said that he didn't feel anything for me well more precisely I am just a woman who was living in his house. But Rehan you also didn't know one thing that you might not feel anything for me but I do for you.

And that's more important.

My growing feelings towards you will not fade away just by few of your cruel words. You may have not taken our vows during marriage but I did. So I am going to complete my promise of making your life better, no matter what. I am your wife and either accept it or not you are my husband.

I smiled a little and stepped away from the shower.

Come on, Mayra you shouldn't feel bad about whatever happened today.

I sighed.

I chanted several times in my mind that I shouldn't feel bad but in reality it hurts. I quickly took a glance over my reflection in the mirror and plastered a smile before stepping out of the bathroom.

My eyes started searching him and a sudden spark ignited inside me when I saw him leaning towards the door, shirtless and arms crossed near his chest. His hair still wet and perfectly messy. Some hair locks were falling on his temple. It had taken all in me to not run my fingers through them.

"I called Tara because I wanted distraction." His deep voice echoed in whole room and I looked at him in surprise as I haven't expected that he will say something like this.

"Distraction from what?" I asked and he was mentally debating that whether he should tell me or not.

I smiled in assurance and he sighed heavily.

"From everything." He added making me more confused.

I wish he was easier to understand.

"From me also?" I questioned weekly and he chuckled.

"You come in that everything don't you? But Mayra I don't have everything." He tried to sound casual but his voice was of hurt.

My pupils soften and on a mental note I thought that I will figure out the meaning of his words later because now it seems like he needed comfort more than conversation.

"I know you are planning to hug me." He commented in a cranky tone and pulled his body straight then took a steps to me. As I watched him coming closer, my heart started running more and faster. I wrapped my fingers together and a low blush crept on my cheeks.

My mind stopped functioning when he was just few inches away from me. His intoxicating smell of Cologne wrapped me and his warm breath started tingling over my face. My eyes roamed over his shirtless body which were bulging out his abs. I gulped down my saliva in hesitation and tried to step back but my legs started feeling like jellies.

"Stay away from me, Mayra. It's better for both of us." He said and slightly ran his finger through my neck to collar bone.

I shivered and butterflies started erupting inside my belly. It felt like my body was sat on fire. Strong sensation over took my senses.

"What-what have you just said?" I shuttered, closing my eyes.

My thinking capacity was lost somewhere and was replaced by some strange feelings towards him.

"You are beautiful Mayra." He added after which felt like eternity.

I flushed and smiled slightly while having a glimpse of him who was observing my face with desperate look.

What does that look meant?

"You are too good." He whispered near my ear.

"You are too good for me and I don't want any goodness in my life. Stay away. "He placed kiss on my neck.

I instantly felt like riding on a roller coaster. He walked away leaving me in a state of shock and surprise.

I started smiling and touched my skin where he had kissed and then it hit me hard that

I am falling for him!