Addicted

6

MAYRA’S POV

I tilted my head slightly towards the window and a low smile crossed my lips. Sprinting trees looks even more beautiful in white shining rays of full moon. I inhaled sharply and sifted my eyes to Rehan who was driving, maintaining blank face but still there was something different in his eyes. His eyes were not cold instead they were reflecting some warm emotions. I don’t know where he we were but why would I care? I am with him and that’s what matters the most. I pressed my eyes shut and impatiently waited for the moment to reach our destination.

“Once again you are drifting to sleep.” I bite my lips in embarrassment after hearing his voice and slowly look at him who tried harder to hide his smirk.

I shook my head.

“Okay.” He said awkwardly and this time something irked in his voice. Like he wanted to carry on the conversation. So instead I tried to find some words.

“Where are we going?” I asked slowly, fixing my eyes at him who chuckled in reply.

“You know you could have used better words, if you wanted to talk.” He replied the minute late and this time I couldn’t help myself from smiling.

“And apart from that I am not going to tell you that where I am taking you, you’ll get to know that by yourself.” He added with a smirk.

My smile went bigger and a low blush crept on my cheeks.

I don’t know the reason behind his sudden change but I promise to myself that if again he will be back to his cruel self still I will love him the same. I am in love with Rehan and not with his behavior. So however cold or sweet he will act, my feelings will never change.

“Close your eyes.”

“Huh?” I looked at him confused.

He pointed his fingers towards my eyes and then gestured them to shut while turning off the car's engine. I nodded and closed my eyes shut and next thing I know was my body being lifted up. I was about to open my eyes when his palm covered them. My breath hitched up when the smell of his familiar intoxicating Cologne entered into my nostrils, clearly indicating that he is holding me in his arms. Cold breeze kissed my body but that was nothing compared to the warmth radiated through his chest.

“Breath.” He said and then only it hit me that I had caught my breath from so long.

I flushed and clenched my fists together. He does surely knows how to take my breath away even with his slightest touch.

Next I found him placing me on the chair and it took all in me to not open my eyes.  I missed the warmth of his arms and how his cologne danced over my senses.

“Open them.” He said and slowly removed his palm.

After blinking thrice I looked around and my jaw dropped in awe.

Beautiful.

He has brought me to the same place where I used to come whenever I felt like breathing alone. Between many trees, a small area was lighten up with white shiny lights. In the middle, a table was set up for two which has candles. I blinked again and stood on my feet. Mesmerized by the sight in front of me, unconsciously I twirled around and almost gasped in excitement when saw many fireflies twinkling.

Wow.

“Do you like it?” He said.

I immediately turned towards him and found him looking at me unsure, scratching the back of his neck. I smiled and nodded in a big yes.  He chuckled and looked up at the sky. His expression changed and a weak frown crossed his face.

“I know I had h-” He stopped in the middle and closed his eyes shut and sat on the ground.

My heart raced finding him this vulnerable. With slow step I went closer and sat next to him.

“Mayra.” He said softly and it felt good to hear my name in his voice.

“I know I did hurt you and me-I deserve your hatred but don’t hate me.” His voice sounded so weak and hesitant that I couldn’t stop myself from intertwining our fingers together. A sharp spark ignited inside me from our little touch.

Rehan when will you understand that I am never going to hate you? I-I just couldn’t. Hatred word doesn’t exist in my dictionary for you. After all how can I hate you when you have given me this beautiful emotion called love?

Hate can never cross the boundary of love.

“You don’t deserve my hatred.” I whisper, tightening the hold of our fingers.

He said nothing for few moments, simply kept his eyes closed.

“I have no one Mayra. If you will also hate me like...Never mind.” He added in a flat tone and that’s when I noticed the twitching of his lips slightly into painful smirk.

Hate him like everyone? What? I knitted my eyebrows and brought his palm near my heart.

“Are you hearing this?” I questioned with a weak smile and instantly his eyes snapped in my direction. He looked at me, then his palm and then lastly held an eye contact with me. His eyes were pale, devoid of every emotions except confusion.

“Can I hate my heartbeat?” I asked again but he only searched my face and few minutes later he shook his head.

And that’s when my smile went mode bigger.

“This heartbeat is for you. So if I couldn’t hate it then how can I hate you?” I said softly and he gets almost startled in shock.

His eyes soon changes colors and a beautiful intensity reflected on them. An intensity of happiness.

“Why are you like this Mayra? Why so different? Why so calm? Why - why me Mayra? Why you are so gentle with me even after all the f****d up things I’ve done with you? Why?” He started throwing questions one by one but his tone was not of any negative emotion but instead they were of amusement and curiousness.

I took a deep breath and looked up at the sky, breaking the beautiful eye contact with him.

“Fire can never be calmed by fire.” I said still lost finding the answers of his questions.

“Maybe gentle water can do that.” I added looking at the stars which are shining brightly. Maybe tonight our stars are also shining with a new hope.

“But water has oxygen Mayra it can ignite the fire more.” I almost shocked by his reply and locked my gaze again with him.

He was looking lost like he was mentally debating something. That means he is feeling more hurt and anger only because of me? My eyelids filled up with tears and I started looking on the ground to avoid his eyes which were penetrating me to forget everything and just hold him tightly in my arms.

“No-no. Wait. No it isn’t what you are thinking. I didn’t mean that way.” He said worriedly and forced me to look up at him by softly placing a finger on my chin.

“Am I hurting you?” I asked nervously and he just shook his head in no.

Some relief washed over me but then what his words meant?

“I mean you are igniting the fire inside me. The fire of happiness.” He added whilst tucking my hair locks behind my ear.

I shivered under his touch and my heart swells up with joy and content.

“You are taking my pain away.” He confessed and I am sure I almost thought that I was dreaming.

“Anything for you.” I let out my words and he just looked at me.

His fingers slides away from my hold and soon he cupped my cheeks with his warm skin. I almost melted under his touch. His face leaned a little closer till his minty breath was fanning over my face.  I bite my lips in nervousness due to this much close proximity.

"Will you hate me if I will kiss you, right here, right now?” He asked in nervous tone and his breath warmly flattered all over my face.

My heart skipped a beat and I almost gulped audibly.

“K-kiss?” I shuttered and thousands of butterflies formed inside my belly. Even the thought of kissing him was enough for me to flush badly.

I lowered my gaze and clenched my fists.

“I-I know you will not want me to kiss you. Forget what I said. It will not happen again. Just don’t hate me.” He muttered in disappointed tone and quickly pulled his hand away from me and shifted his eyes to the sky.

My lips parted and I looked up at his face. Hurt was easily visible on his face. With a deep breath I sifted in front of him and looked into his chocolate brown eyes which are not looking content instead hurt, anger and frustration are reflecting from them. And that was enough for me to place my lips over his, without thinking twice.

He at first seems taken back my action but after few seconds his lips moves against mine so softly that I felt almost melted into the sweetness of his lips. Electric current ran all over my body and slowly I encircled my arms around his neck. My taste burst almost exploded in excitement when his tongue slowly finds inside its way inside my mouth. It felt like haven like something so addictive yet so pure.

I’ve never experienced any kiss in my life except that at the day of our marriage but today I realized that why they describe kiss as the sweetest thing in the world. For sure nothing could ever describe this beautiful feeling.

His arms snaked around my waist pulling me closer to him if possible. His tongue started exploring every bit of me and I almost felt like riding a roller coaster. So much breathe taking. After few minutes which felt like eternity, my lungs soon felt like they are going to burst out in absence of air. Reluctantly I broke apart and with a huge blush I closed my eyes and a small smile crept on my lips when he rested his forehead on mine.

“Again.” He said whilst trying to catch his breath.

I parted my eyelids and confusingly looked at him. His face sparked with satisfied content.

“Can I kiss you again?” He added and I bite my lips to suppress the urge of smiling again at his words.

I nodded slowly and instantly a second next he started kissing me all over again. I closed my eyes and slowly started brushing my fingers through his soft hairs. Like an ice I melted in his kiss and mentally thanked god for blessing me with a person like him as my husband.

And when we parted away he gave me one of his perfect heart melting smile. My heart started doing summersaults in ecstasy.

His smile. I am never going to get enough of his beautiful smile.

“Wow.” He whispers interlocking our gaze and softly creasing my cheeks.

I smiled at his touch.

“Never knew that kissing can also be this beautiful but here again it was beautiful because it was with you who is equally beautiful inside out.” He said huskily.

I flushed in all shades of red. He passed a wink at me and lied down with his head resting on my lap with crossed legs. This night couldn’t get more perfect. This moment couldn’t get more perfect because maybe now we are us. I started running my fingers over his temple and he pressed his eyes shut.  My eyes linger over his clothes and couldn’t helped myself from asking

“Why you always wear business attire?”

He simply shrugged his shoulders.

“I don’t have any casual clothes.” He replied.

My eyes went bigger and I mentally noted down that I will buy some casual clothes for him.

“Wait a second. I have a surprise for you.” He said and I just looked at him that which more surprise he is going to give me.

This night, this date, this new Rehan was more than enough I have ever imagined. But I guess this date was still not ever.