The Turmoil of The Moon Goddess (#3)

Chapter 1- Madeleine

** 2 days after Anna wakes up **

We all feel and hear Andrew’s pain, as alpha his pain becomes ours and his howls of pain is so loud the whole of the country can probably hear him. As his pack his loss becomes our loss, his grief becomes ours and his torment affects us all.

I know he is in the house next door and I know Alexander is busy comforting his mate, so I go to Andrew. I leave my walking frame behind but take the walking stick and try to get to him as fast as I can. I wish I had the strength to shift but I don’t- so I hobble as fast as I can before Andrew destroys himself.

I get to the door and it is still open, the inside of the house is torn apart, and I can still hear him howling and roaring, crashing and banging so I do the only thing I can think of, I mindlink him, singing a soothing lullaby that I sang to both him and Alex as children, and I hear him immediately start to calm.  

Mother? He is confused that I am here, but my eldest child is distressed and hurting of course I am here. He comes back downstairs,

“How did you get here mother?” I go to him, holding my arms out.

I walked, Anna insisted on me doing a lot of therapy to improve my mobility and independence.

He hears her name, and the fight goes out of him, he falls to his knees and cries without restraint, and I wrap my arms around him, wishing with all my heart that he was 5 years old again and a plaster and cuddle could fix this.

I know your hurting son, but Anna will come back, and when she does, she going to want her house back, she is going to want the man she fell in love with to be here ready and waiting. It’s not her fault it’s the head injury, as soon as she remembers she will want what you both had back, you need to stay strong Andrew, you need to stay patient this time, you need to keep faith that she’ll come back to us all.

 He nods his head accepting what I am saying. “I can’t carry on without her... she is the whole world to me, I feel like I’ve lost everything, my mate, my love, our home, our child...”  

A child? I had hoped but thought it was too early a child? Was there a child too?  He stops before answering.

I wonder if he’ll tell me the truth, he lets out a big sigh “yes, obviously it was incredibly early on but after all her injuries it must have been too much on her body and... I haven’t told anyone, only me and the doctor knew.”

I hold my child closer, I know the loss of his own child, no matter how early on, is devastating. I am so sorry Andrew... for your child, for Anna. I believe she helped me get better so I could help you now, I know it seems hopeless right now, but our girl is strong, she’s going to come back I know it. 

“She wrote me a letter, it was here when I came home.” He holds the letter in his hand like it’s made from fine China and I read what our Angel sent to her true love.

To my Dearest Andrew,

From the moment we met my life changed, I didn’t know in that moment just how much you would come to mean to me, I didn’t realise that the fated mate bond could be so strong, I didn’t realise that I could love someone as much as I love you. I think deep down I knew even then that there was something pulling us together, that we was meant to be.

I’m writing you this letter as you leave on your mission to the indigo moon territory not knowing the outcome, and I just want to take this chance to tell you, no matter what the result is- you are and will always be the love of my life, meeting you was the best thing to ever happen to me and I am so proud to be your fated mate. Thank you for making me believe in myself, for making me strong and for making me feel special and adored, I love EVERY memory we made together and I will cherish all our moments together until my dying day, you showed me what it means to be brave and that’s how I will try to move forward, cherishing what we had and not dwelling on what could or should have been.

I truly wish you every happiness my darling even if that can’t be with me, but know that I will love you with all my heart and soul and I feel so blessed to have been able to have the time we had. No matter what the outcome my heart and my love will belong to you and you alone for always and I will never ever give up on the possibility of us.

With love always from Your Anna xxx

My own tears are flowing without restraint, this is heart breaking. They both love one another so much and yet so many obstacles have stopped them being together. 

 Andrew is roaring in pain again, his anguish is so extreme that it is tangible. I worry my child may never recover from this, may never ever be able to move past the loss of his fated mate.

She will some back son, Anna loves you and she will be back. Don’t give up in her!

I pray to the moon goddess that I am right, my son needs his mate back, she is the love of his life, and I would give anything to see them together again.

I feel others in the house, I recognise the scent it’s Alex and his wife. They have come to support their brother and alpha. Katy looks fragile, she is so tiny in stature but then has a blooming baby bump filled with her and Alex’s pups. I can feel anger rolling off the shoulders of my youngest son and I can see he is linking others. When he reaches for his phone I know I’m going to find out what is bothering him 

“Louis I don’t care! We need extra security, my mate and my mother are here and I’m not leaving them exposed... you do remember what happened three weeks ago don’t you? You do know why your alpha is roaring in agony right this second? I thought so, don’t question me again Beta, extra security now and get the filthy leeching paparazzi off our lands now!”

Alexander is obviously on edge with worry for us all. He learned at his brothers side the responsibility of Alpha and with Andrew now in a world of grief and mourning its Alex’s duty to step up.

Later, once the warriors of moved the press away we return to Alex’s house. Andrew stays in Anna’s bed and torments himself continually by smelling her pillow, holding her hair brush and playing with her eternity ring incessantly. I mindlink him constantly but he’s withdrawn,  he hardly ever replies to me. We all feel the power leaving him. I never knew the loss of your mate could kill you and yet that is what I fear I see with my own eyes. I don’t know how to help him. I’m so worried for him, for us all.