With a heavy snow going on, Wu city was as beautiful as a fairyland. I wore a long gold dress, a white coat on the dress, a pair of exquisite silver ear rings, and a delicate makeup. Aimlessly, I sauntered around the commercial street.
Wu city was lively, but I was so out of place in it. Standing at sea among the crowd, I began to look out to the people in front of me up and down. There were cold winds, and snow fell on me, but I didn’t feel cold at all. Them, I began to slowly follow a medium-looking, medium-sized person.
As he stood smoking to kill the time, I summoned up the courage to run over to him. I raised my bank card, and begged, "I'll give you 5 million as a reward, please have a three-month romance with me."
He looked at me as if I was a fool, and then said, "I'm sorry, I already have a girlfriend."
I only managed to summon up my courage when I saw that he was alone.
"It doesn't matter."
I ran away at a loss, and found another plain-looking man. I thought that with my appearance, they should not refuse. Plus, I had 5 million to pay them.
But it was exactly because of this that they regarded me as a psycho.
"Please have a romance with me."
"Is there anything wrong with your brain? Do you need me to contact your family?"
I smiled awkwardly, "I’m okay. I'll go find someone else."
I found another person, and I said, "Please have a romance with me."
"I'm sorry."
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I don't know what to do. I just wanted to have a romance. I wanted to find someone to love me, because I didn't know what it felt like to be loved.
I don't know exactly what happiness felt like...
I was just crazily jealous of Wen Ruyan.
I lowered my head again, went up to a man and said with expectation, "please have a romance with me."
I heard a voice of surprise, "sister, it really is you?"
I looked up in dismay and saw Gu Sisi, a relative from Gu family.
The man standing in front of me with a cold face at the moment was Gu Tingchen.
I was extremely embarrassed. Gu Sisi asked in surprise, "sister, brother Tingchen and I have seen you for a long time. We have been wondering what you were saying to those men. But we didn’t expect to hear this as we approached."
I turned around and tried to escape, but was grabbed on the wrist by Gu Tingchen. Gu Sisi called us anxiously. Gu Tingchen said to her impatiently, "go home by yourself. Don't tell anybody about what you have seen."
Gu Sisi asked, "how about the concert tonight?"
Gu Tingchen didn't answered her. I struggled: "let go of me!"
But he didn’t release me until we were in the parking lot.
I rubbed my sore wrist. Gu Tingchen lit a cigarette and smoked impatiently. Finally, he asked me coldly, "Shi Sheng, what are you doing?"
I had borne too many grievances from him, but I didn't want to bear them anymore at the moment. So, I threw the handle after the blade: "didn't you see it? I was looking for someone to have a romance with me."
"Don't tell me that you have degenerated to this extent now."
"To what extent? Looking for men all over the street?"
Gu Tingchen was almost choked. He coughed gently, threw away the cigarette butt and got in his car. When he tried to start it, he found that it had broken down. He turned his head and asked me, "did you come here driving your car?"
He seemed to be less hostile to me, and didn’t have hatred in the eyes. His expression was a little gentler than before. I lied, "no, I came by bus."
He got off and called someone to have his car towed after closing its doors. Then he dragged me to take the bus. He had no change, so he directly took out a note of a hundred yuan and put it in the box.
The driver looked at him with surprise, as if he was a parvenu.
The bus was filled with people, Gu Tingchen took me to the middle. I stood by the window, and his body blocked the other people for me with his body. I looked sadly at the snow outside through the window and asked, "Gu Tingchen, I remember that we have divorced. What are you doing now?"
There was a sudden brake, causing us to bump against each other hard. My cheek was tight against his warm chest, and my heart beat faster. I hugged him in the waist, and said in a low voice, "Gu Tingchen, I am wearing high heels. I am afraid of falling. Let me hold you just for a while. I will let go as soon as I get off."
There was a trace of fear of rejection in my voice.
I loved Gu Tingchen, even after divorce.
As soon as he showed up, my defense against him would begin to collapse.
I clung to his clothes with my fingers. After a long time, I raised my head from his arms, and saw him looking at me with a clear eyesight. I whispered: "how have you been with Wen Ruyan recently?"
He was confused, "huh?" .
I compressed my lips and asked in a low voice, "will you get married?"
For a moment, there was no other sounds but the sound of light breath. I stared at him stubbornly for a long time. Then, he answered with a sigh as if he had compromised, "I owe her a wedding anyway."
I drew back my fingers and asked with a smile, "when will the wedding be held?"
He looked at me for a long time, and finally said, "the second day of the first lunar month."
The second day of the first lunar month. That was the very first day after the New year’s day.
I should have not existed in the world by then.
I smiled sincerely and said in a soft voice, "congratulations to you, Gu Tingchen."
Gu Tingchen's expression suddenly changed. He reached out to clench my arm and leaned his head against me. He asked: "why were you looking everywhere for someone to have a romance with you just now?"