sorry is not enough
1596 Words
Adriana POV
I give him my gun, pointing it at my head I asked him to shoot and take his title back. That’s all he wanted wasn’t it? Since he came back never not even once did he asked how did I do on my pregnancy, or when are the twins birthday. He once saw my scar under my belly bottom while having s*x, he asked how I got it, I reply simply, c section, and that was it. All the time since he was back all I ever heard him say was I love you during s*x, I missed you the first time I saw him, and I want my title back since then. Where was the love he swear to have for me? Where was the men that for three years fought everything to get back to me? I didn’t see that guy I don’t think I know him, so yes I pointed the gun he was holding to my head, he was thing about it. Why was he thinking about it? Was he doubting his love for me? Or was he now sure he didn’t want me? I didn’t know I still don’t know how his head works, but seeing him doubt just hurt. It hurt a lot actually so I did what I had to do I shot my gun, the gun I was holding in my other hand. Yes that’s right I shot my gun pointing the grown so no one was to get hurt, his eyes watered while everyone else turn around looking for the shooter I felt Luke’s and Jackson’s stares on me they knew exactly what I was doing. I was showing this ashole in front of me that he can’t just mess with me. I take his gun from his hand putting it away “I’m sorry” he whispers I shake my head to the sides and walk away hearing him call my name I didn’t stop walking til I was inside my car. Jackson got on the passenger seat while I was in the back seat, Luke got on the driver’s seat. “Let’s go home” it the only thing I said before Luke started driving, it took us one hour to get home. I run inside missing my babies they were waiting for me in the living room. I hug both of them taking them on my arms as I walk to their room. I put them to bed like I always do, kissing their foreheads after two songs and one story they finally fell asleep. I walk out of their room seeing Luke opening the front door, “Adriana?” Luke called I turn to see him from the top of the stairs “yes?” “You have a visitor” he made a face that’s enough for me to know who it is, “I am tired and not in the mood for idiots so please Luke take care of it.” I said loud enough for him to hear as I walk to my room to have a nice bath before bed.
Alberto POV
When I had the gun to her head I saw determination in her eyes, was this really what she wants? Or why I want? Where the questions that pop in my head, she had a poker face on I could see what she was really doing. That’s when I felt a pang in my chest, she is my wife the one I love more than anything then why fight her for a title I clearly don’t own anymore? Then a gun was shot I was sure it wasn’t mine but still my eyes watered at just that thought that it could have been. At this point I wanted to die for what I had done to her, I brought war to her peace. I am her husband the one that is supposed to protect her and instead I am the one harming her. I kept calling her name as she walked away not even once did she turn to me I went to get my car and drove as fast as possible to get to her in her house. Her car is here so I am kind of late. I get out of my car as I take a step on the curve a guard is in front of me. “Get out of here she doesn’t want to see you men,” I know him he used to be one of my guess before. “I need to talk to her, I made a mistake,” “you made too many mistakes, you have no idea what she has gone through while you were gone.” “Then tell me to understand why the mafia means so much to her?” “Why am does it mean so much to you?” I thought about his question for a while “because it is in my family since before I was born it’s my legacy, my right.” He shakes his head “no men, it’s your children’s legacy, you know damn well she has no family your family was her family, then things happened she left you. That’s when things started, she was in bed rest for weeks. Then you were dead, she was called on a meeting. Their was going to be a vote someone was going to be the new boss but she stopped it for her children. She fought too much in order to have men accept her a women as the boss. She did it thinking on her children, when finally she was the boss she dedicated her time in helping other like her, she made her own guns to gain more money for her children. She said the life of the mafia was going to take her life one day so she was going to do as much possible to leave something behind for her children. Everything and I mean everything she has ever done has been for her children. She doesn’t want to leave them the way her parents left her.” I thought for a second of everything he has told me is this why she has brothels and strip clubs? She is helping the women that work there? “I need to talk to her please let me it,” “fine but I am coming with you if she says no then it’s a no got that?” I nod we walk to the door Luke opens “I need to talk to her,” “I will check,” he closes the door a few minutes he is back at the door and shakes his head. “Sorry but she doesn’t want to talk to you right now she is tired.” He closes the door before I can knock again the guard is pulling me away. I get no other choice but to leave with the promise that I will be back. The next morning I am waiting for her outside her house I wait and wait. At noon the front door opens she walks out with her children, my children as she is putting them in their car seats I walk to her. “Adriana!” I call for her she closes the door of the kids then turn to me “What do you want now Alberto?” Her voice sounds so cold I have never heard her speak like this well yes once in her meeting but never to me. “Please Adriana we have a lot to talk about I know I messed up…” she interrupts before I can finish, “I know, now that you know you won’t get your title back you want what is closer to it right sorry Alberto that won’t happen.” She turns walking to the passenger seat I can see Jackson is in the driver seat. Before she can get inside the car I speak “Please Adriana…. I am sorry… really sorry” She get in the car but before she closes the door she says “sorry is not enough for mine oh my children’s love.” I stand there watching the car drive away, does that mean I lost her completely this time?
Adriana POV
I see through the window of the car how he stays there while the car drives away. ‘Love is not a sentiment that will disappear this easy, and having children with him makes it harder. We don’t choose who to love, our heart chooses for us. But I have to stay strong use my head and not my heart, because I know if I give into him this easy I will get hurt again and again till one day it will be almost impossible to get away from the pain. We always have a choice no matter how hard it is, I will choose my path, not my heart, because I have two beautiful children that need a strong mom not a defeated one. Alberto’s love will not defeat me I won’t let him I can’t let him.’
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