My Secret Mate

Chapter Five

It had been a week since I started hanging out with Cassie. Though it was just to study, I wanted to move things faster. Especially when seeing Seth everyday gave me a pang in my chest I couldn't get rid of. Bella helped somewhat here and there, but I found myself distancing from her, and rightfully so. I shouldn't play with her feelings, yet here I was trying to get a taken girl and guy to fall for me for payback. I tried not to think about it too much.

Instead, I wondered how I would progress things with Cassie. We texted here and there, but it was a little too bland. Nothing too time consuming or interesting, and all she ever wanted to do was actually study at the cafe. Whenever I tried to bring up a joke or two, she'd laugh but remind me to stay focused.

It was Monday again, after all. There had to be something I could do to make her trust me more. Then I thought of something brilliant.

Today, instead of dreading it, I couldn't wait for lunch time. It was boring to sit in class and wonder her reaction when it would. The minute class was over, I jogged to where I knew she would be- walking to Seth's class. Did I have his route memorized? Maybe.

Luckily, thanks to my supernatural genes, it was easy to run faster than most humans. I spotted Cassie's raven hair quickly, and grabbed her hand. She looked over with a gasp as I dragged her along, and she scoffed. "What the-"

We made it outside. It was raining, which was why it was the perfect opportunity. She gasped loudly, "Oh my god, Xavi! What the hell is your problem?"

She looked over to face me, no doubt to tell me off when she froze. I was laughing at her really, but I guess it looked different to her as I attempted to look up at the rain, but even then I could hear her breath hitch. I looked down, a full blown smile on my face as I spoke, "Sorry. I just wanted to surprise you, but now that it's raining, I don't know if I can..."

She placed her hand on my shoulder, a small smile forming on her lips, "I don't mind."

She blinked away at the rain, and I suddenly remembered the jacket I packed in my backpack this morning. I took it out hastily, and wrapped it around her, covering her head and laughing at her bewildered expression. For some reason, I suddenly realized how at ease I felt with her, and wondered if I should stop this altogether. She scoffed, "What are you laughing about?"

"You just look..." I trailed off, failing to find the exact word I wanted to use. In the rain, her skin was slightly more pale, her lips and cheeks were a little red, and as I grazed my hand against her face, I could feel warmth. But it wasn't the kind with Bella, it was calming. Even soothing, but still not as soothing as it had been with Seth. "You look pretty."

Cassie bit her lip.

"Pretty funny." She hit me and I laughed even harder.

"You're an ass."

"Well, this ass has a treat for you. So if you could follow me to my car, I'd be much obliged." She nodded, and I took her hand as we ran through the rain. It was cold, but I had always loved the rain. She giggled as we ran, and I almost scoffed at the magic of it all. This was almost too easy, and I immediately felt bad. I wondered if Seth wasn't in the picture at all, for me or her, if she would've been my mate. Sirius growled in the back of my head, spouting some nonsense about how she wasn't worthy. I ignored him.

I unlocked the car, and we both got in panting. I immediately turned on the heater when I noticed our huffs of breath were visible in the cold car.

She looked at me expectantly, and I forgot what she was supposed to expect. After a minute of silence, she gave me a raised eyebrow.

"So what's the treat?"

"Oh." I smiled, and reached into the back for the basket I packed. In case it didn't rain, I was going to take her for a small and friendly picnic, but this was better. Cute, even, since it was a 'fail'. "I was gonna make us a friendly picnic, but obviously..." I gestured to the rain with a sigh, "It was a fail."

I could hear her heartbeat skip slightly, and it made me feel nice to know I had this effect. God, was I turning into a fuckboy? No, I decided. I've been a fuckboy.

"Well, that depends on what you have in here." She opened the basket with an encouraging smile towards me. She took out little wine cups, and gave me a deadpanned face. I chuckled, reaching in and pulling out the Martinelli. Her expression grew into a surprised and excited one.

"I'm hurt to see your little faith in me." She rolled her eyes and kept looking through it. She pulled out two sandwiches I made, which actually did take me a while, and two little baggies of chips. I wasn't much of a cook, but I figured that an honest homemade thing would be more appealing when it showed that I tried really hard, which I did. There was also a cheesecake Monsè helped me make, because even if she was mad, she would never pass up the chance to make it with me.

"It's not a complete fail." Cassie gave me a nonchalant look, but her rosy cheeks gave her away.

"I'm glad." I smiled, grabbing one of the sandwiches. They were peanut butter and jelly, which I thought was simple and not really dangerous. Unless she was allergic to peanuts. I panicked as she grabbed the other one, "Wait. You're not allergic to nuts right-"

"I wouldn't grab it if I was, would I?"

"Oh. Yeah." I felt dumb again.

"Heh. You're adorable." She laughed, unwrapping her sandwich. I unwrapped mine as well, and when swallowing a bite, I spoke up.

"So, we don't really talk much-"

"Uh, yes we do-"

"Oh?" She slightly raised her chin with a serious expression, and I scoffed. "Name one thing you know about my personality, my hobbies, my likes even."

"Well, you're obviously a flirt." I shrugged with an eye roll, and she opened up her mouth to say something else, then closed it. I smugly smirked as I took another bite of my sandwich, and she huffed. "Oh yeah? Tell me something you know about my personality, hobbies, and likes."

I swallowed, "Easy." I placed my sandwich down, and turned towards her. "I don't know."

She frowned, "That's not even-"

"How am I supposed to know? We barely talk."

She contemplated for a second, going back to eating her sandwich, and eventually finishing it. It was starting to get awkward by the time we finished our foods, and half the cheesecakes were gone. I was finishing the last of the Martinelli when she spoke up again.

"Lunch has been done for ten minutes, so I should go." I placed my hand on her arm before she even went towards the car door to stop her.

"Did I do something wrong?" She frowned and shook her head as she looked down at my hand on her arm.

"I just don't know..." She mumbled.

"Don't know what-"

"What do you want from me?" Cassie was too smart for this. Sure, she got carried away at times, but even she knew I might have ulterior intentions whether it was to get in her pants, or something else. Anyone would be suspicious from this, some might play along, but they would know I had something up my sleeve. She knew I was doing at least some of it intentionally, especially since she had a boyfriend. "You say you need help with history, but that was a lie. You say you just want a friend, but you make me a picnic and give me compliments that friends just don't do. You know I have a boyfriend, who's supposed to be your 'buddy'."

I sighed, looking away as she finished her accusing, yet justified, rant.

"What do you want?"

I looked over at her angered expression, contemplating what to say or do. Deducing from what she said and how she acted, I was getting under her skin. And of course she didn't like it, because she had a boyfriend. She trusted me and our interactions to be platonic, and here I was betraying it. Though, right from the start, she knew I was flirting and still chose to come into my car with me alone.

I stuck my finger under her chin, lightly making her look up to me as I leaned in ever so slightly. I stopped an inch away, and I could hear her labored breathing as her face became worried.

"I want you." Cassie's eyes widened at my words, and I hesitantly leaned in more. Our noses grazed. She turned red and pushed me away with a frustrated shriek.

"What the hell is your problem? Are you really that much of a man-w***e?"

I rolled my eyes, "I didn't expect you to be one to slut shame. It's 2021, for f**k's sake."

She scoffed, "Did you expect me to just let you kiss me and have your way with me?"

"No." I gave her a smug smirk, "But that's one of the reasons I'm attracted to you."

This was somewhat true. Yes, she was attractive. The thought she'd cheat on Seth with me was appealing to my ego. I knew this was wrong, and I honestly never expected to be this kind of person. But at least I'm not playing with her feelings, now I'm being honest about some of my motives.

"God, you're a pig."

"I'm not asking for your first time or anything. I'm actually a virgin, myself." She gave me a look that screamed disbelief, and I elaborated. "Despite what you may think, I'm also holding that out for someone special. But I'm only human, and we all have needs. Even you."

"Seth takes very good care of my needs, thank you very much." She frowned and crossed her arms with a huff, her red blush still apparent over her face.

"Why are you acting so innocent?"

"What do you-"

"I'm not forcing you into this car with me." I gestured around us, "If you're smart enough to blatantly ask for an explanation as to what my true intentions are, then you're smart enough to know that my asking you for history in the first place was bullshit," She glared at me as I continued, "Maybe you assumed that I was held back or something, but a smart cookie like you knows that seniors, even some who flunk, don't take history, and not the kind where they can get tutors outside of school hours.”

And if you knew about that, you would know by now that I have plenty of friends, including Bella, to pass the time with and not be lonely."

She looked away, practically seething.

"Are you that bored?" I lowered my voice a little, trying to come across as sultry. "Did you need a little excitement in your mundane life? Something new that would break your routine a bit?"

From what I saw on her postings, her and Seth rarely went out. They usually hung out to talk or watch movies, from what I saw on her update videos, and with him being closeted, or at least a cheater, it indicates there isn't much going on in the s****l department. I wondered if that was what was happening to her, and if she would break yet. Every time we studied this past week, I tried to talk to her but she would shut me out or leave. Now, in this car, one seat away, there wasn't any avoiding this.

I felt like I was playing chess. We were both cunning in different ways. I was bold yet strategic, and she was able to predict others while being able to stealthily achieve her goals.

"I could do better than him." I leaned in more as I spoke, my lips brushing against her ear. Cassie shuddered and turned her head towards me, looking conflicted.

"I can't." She shook her head, "Seth would be heartbroken."

I almost scoffed at the irony. Seth cheated on her, led me on, and he would be the one to be heartbroken. I grazed her jawline with my index finger, and pressed my thumb against her bottom lip.

"Not if he never found out."

Her eyes flashed up to me in an instant, sparkling with the promise of pent up s****l frustration gone.

"How long have you been dating Seth?"

She smiled as if reminiscing, "Three years."

I narrowed my eyes in confusion. Three years was a long time for her to be this annoyed. I would have thought they'd just gotten together, "How far have you guys..."

"We've only kissed."

I was stunned.

"Wait, when you say kissed... do you mean no make-out sessions?"

She nodded, and I loudly gasped. How could have Seth gone farther with me than his girlfriend?

"You pour soul." I grasped her cheek, caressing it with my thumb.

"It's not like I haven't tried, either. I thought he was asexual or something, but he has secret porn files, so it's not like he has no s****l attraction at all. But when I try to initiate more stuff, he just pulls away." Her eyes started to tear up, and I suddenly felt very sad for her. "Is there something wrong with me?"

I winced, feeling a tremendous amount of guilt. I simply caressed her more, and even started playing with her hair. "Did you... talk to him about it?"

"Yeah." She rubbed her tears away from her eyes, "He said that he was just nervous to go further, but that was one year ago. How much longer is this supposed to take? I want him, I love him. And it's not like I'm asking for much, I just wish I knew he actually found me attractive."

I shook my head, huffing as I thought about how Seth was being cruel. If he didn't have attraction for her, he should just break up with her. Not cheat on her behind her back and make her feel bad about her appearance, even if he didn't mean to, she was self-conscious because of him.

"Well, I obviously find you attractive." This wasn't a lie at all. I did find her to be really pretty, but obviously I didn't long for her like I did for her boyfriend. Jesus, my feelings were all over the place with that guy. Just the thought of him made my pants uncomfortable.

Cassie's eyes closed gently as she leaned in, and I hesitated for a brief second before pressing my lips against hers as well. They were unbelievably softer than Bella's, yet somewhat dryer than Seth's, though I was convinced that was because of the mate bond. I moved my lips first, subtly and gently. I didn't want to scare her off more than I almost already have. I wanted to impress her, especially if this was going to be her first make out session. I honestly hate you. Sirius' voice was livid, but then was gone in an instant. He usually did this when I was with Bella as well, but for some reason this felt worse.

Cassie suddenly kissed me rougher, and I groaned in surprise as I forgot what felt so bad. She climbed over, deepening the kiss and straddling me.

I pulled away slightly, breathless, and moved her hair away from her face. I don't know what it was that compelled me to do this, but I smiled at her just as I had to Seth, albeit not with the charming words, but I liked seeing her this way. I wondered if I had the capacity to care for her, but then I thought about how I couldn't even fall for Bella who was both in my pack and who I loved as a friend already. Was it because I was used to her and Cassie was more of an enigma? I dismissed my thoughts, leaning in to kiss her again. No thoughts, head empty for now.

I let myself revel in it as my hands clutched at the curve of her waist, knowing I was taking something of Seth's. This was toxic, no doubt. But with her lips all over mine, begging me for more, I didn't mind all that much. Her hands gripped my shoulders, appreciating how wide they were, no doubt comparing them to the likes of him. I gently licked her lips, and she giggled as she lightly nibbled on my lower lips.

"God, this is so wrong..." Her breath hitched as my hand travelled lower to squeeze her behind, "Xavi, you're really a bad influence."

I laughed, "Oh, please. As if you were ever a good one."

She preened and began to kiss my neck instead. My other hand travelled between her legs, and she gasped while giving me a shocked expression. I immediately retracted my hand, "Sorry. I didn't mean to-"

Cass gently held my hand and put it back where it was. I grinned up at her as I got to work. She was breathing heavy, and her face was flustered as I did one of the things I was best at when it came to girls. Even though I regretted hurting her feelings, I was glad Bella taught me everything I knew in that aspect. I could hear my pride swell as her moans in my ear became more frequent, and she tried to hide her face in my shoulder, but using the hand that wasn't occupied at the moment, I softly grasped her jaw and turned her face towards me. Cassie's expression was heavenly. Her face was red, her mouth open in ecstasy, and her eyes rolling back as she reached her peak.

"Xavi, Xavi, thank you, Xavi." I had always loved the way Bella would say my name, sometimes grew addicted to the way she would praise me for how 'good' I was while down there. Cassie saying my name like a prayer was no different, and I found myself wanting to hear her say it more. She painted against me, her body slightly shaking as well. I lifted my fingers and looked at them in wonder. People were always different in the way they tasted, I knew that much, but I still had never physically been with anyone besides Bella. I licked three of my fingers, one by one, including my thumb, and relished in the taste. Bella was a little more bittersweet, but Cassie was definitely more on the sweeter side. I briefly wondered how Seth would taste, and shook my head.

Cassie's eyes looked down at me in wonder, "Why-Why did you put it in your mouth?"

I shrugged with a smirk, "It tasted good."

Her lips parted slightly before kissing me deeply, moaning and grasping my neck as to have a firm grip. "Have I ever told you how your hair just makes you hotter? It drove me so crazy while studying... I wanted to run my hands through it all the time."

I bit her lip this time, and chuckled.

"Well, now you can."

"At this point, I'm convinced you're the devil." She laughed, and I grasped her neck with a stoic face.

"What if I am?"

She grinned, "Then punish me."

Okay, she's obviously not as vanilla as I thought she'd be for a virgin. I didn't expect her to go for that, but who am I if I can't deliver?

I motioned to the backseat as I gently let go of her neck, and she basically leapt towards it. I got out of the car, shivering and opening the back door and hopping in.

She immediately grabbed me by the collar, and I held her shoulders before she can continue. I smiled, "There's no rush, Cass. We have time."

She nodded, leaning into give me another kiss. I kissed her neck instead, teasingly giving soft open-mouthed kisses, and started suckling on the skin to make it bruise. She didn't protest, but only moaned.

I slowly laid her down, and started to lift up her shirt when she stopped me.

"Wait." She sat up slightly, having a guilty expression. "I want to return the favor."

I froze for a second, suddenly feeling like I wasn't... I wasn't able to

"As much as that is tempting," I let my eyes rake over her body, "We have lost time to make up for."

She hesitantly laid down, biting her lip as I slowly lifted her shirt with my hands gliding upwards. Her skin was cold against my heat, because as a werewolf, my body temperature was naturally higher.

I lifted her shirt completely, and pulled her brassiere downwards revealing her breasts. I gently grasped them, marveling in their pretty pink buds. I messaged them before leaning in, taking one of them into my mouth. She moaned as I teasingly, and lightly, grazed my teeth over it, and I smirked against her skin. I grinded my hips against her core, and she whimpered, very needy to the way I was making her feel.

"I want more, please." Her nails raked against my scalp, lifting my head up by my hair. I grinned as I gave her a lustrous kiss, then kissed down her jaw, chest, and trailed a path towards the hem of her jeans. She lifted her hips as I pulled them down her legs, and we both laughed as I struggled to take off her shoes as well for the jeans to slide off more smoothly.

"Sorry, I didn't shave." She covered her face, bashful. I frowned, wondering why that was even an issue.

"And that matters because...?" I trailed off, running my hand up her leg, and slowly slipping off her underwear as well. She shook her head, still covering her face in what seemed to be embarrassment. I placed her thighs over my shoulders as I laid on my stomach, I could already smell her, and I tapped my fingers on her skin to get her attention, "Look."

Cassie hesitantly peeked through her fingers, and I took a long, tentative lick. She moaned out, and I took another lick. Soon enough, I was devouring her.

"Xavi-" Another whimper escaped her, and I was all too aware of what I was doing to her, I felt smug. I let my fingers explore her as well as I switched to suckle on her precious bud above, and she shuddered with another moan, "Xavier."

Her body convulsed soon afterwards, and I drank in all I could until she was literally begging me to stop because it was too overstimulating for her.

I licked my lips as I leaned in a couple inches away from her face, "How was that?"

She sighed in bliss, "The best." She pulled me in, seemingly forgetting how I had just been devouring her, and moaned before pulling away, "Is that how I taste? It's..."

"Yummy." I laughed, wiping my chin.

She giggled, and pulled me in for another kiss. I snuggled into her, letting my eyes close as I pulled away, and then rested my head against her chest.

I didn't really know what time it was anymore. The windows were steamed in comparison to the cold outside thanks to the heater and Cassie's and my extracurricular activities. We obviously didn't go super far, but what we did was enough that we were spent and fell asleep in the backseat of my truck. I woke up, my body feeling a little stiff as I snuggled against her chest. She stirred, and I sighed as I sat up while grabbing my phone and placed her legs on top of my lap. She was in a deep sleep for sure.

I checked the time, and was surprised it was already halfway into sixth period. I saw a couple texts from Lindsay and Bella, and two missed calls from Trent. I texted each one of them not to worry, just that something came up and I took care of it. I glanced at Cassie, and poked her stomach to try to wake her up. She only snorted slightly, looking hilarious as she drooled on my leather seat, and I took a picture of just her face drooling. Her face right now was hilarious. I immediately sent it to her before deleting the photo, because it was rude to have such indecent and non permitted photos. But it didn't meant I could trick her into thinking that I had it.

I spent a couple minutes on my phone, before realizing we had to leave before someone would see her in this car with me. School was about to end, after all. I nudged her, trying to wake her up. She huffed, getting up in a groggy manner with a pout and squinty eyes.

"What is it?"

"Time to get up, Cass. Want me to drive you home?" I passed her jeans and underwear, and she fixed her bra in addition to her clothes.

"Oh, well, yeah. If that's okay with you?"

"Of course." I nodded, getting out of the backseat once she fixed her clothes completely. It wasn't raining anymore, but it was still very cold in contrast to the heat I was experiencing in my car. I got into the front, and started up the car.

She tapped me on the shoulder, "Can you get my phone out of my bag?"

I leaned over to the passenger side, looking through her small satchel bag before handing it to her. It's case was pink with glitter on the inside, and I took note of the missed calls from Seth as her phone's screen lit up in reaction to me grabbing it.

Cassie practically snatched it out of my hand, and I laughed as she huffed.

"Hey-"

I looked over, about to ask who she was talking to when she gave me a death glare. I silently laughed when I realized it was Seth.

"Oh, yeah. Sorry, listen I had to skip to take care of- what it was... this last minute sale on BTS merchandise. You know how much I love Rap Monster, heh."

I smirked to myself, starting to pull out of my parking spot.

"Yeah. So are you coming over to mine after school- Oh. Ohhh, yeah. Okay, no that's fine. I actually need to clean myself up because I got into a brawl over this one thing, heh. But I ended up having nothing because- Heh. You know me, cheap as hell."

I pulled into the street, tapping against the wheel in thought. How much did Seth really love her?

"Alright then. I love you, see you tomorrow. Bye." She let out a shuddering sigh, no doubt feeling the guilt from earlier. "God, I feel terrible."

"Didn't feel terrible earlier."

She hit me, and scoffed. "Whatever. Here, look at the address."

I glanced at the map, memorizing the route easily. It was by Seth's house, of course. That's how well they know each other, they've probably been friends forever. That's also why I think she thinks she's in love with him, but is simply just in denial. I could use this to my advantage.

I pulled up to her house, smirking back at her. "Need any help?"

"I got it," She grumbled as she got out of the backseat and grabbed her bag from the front. She gave me a pointed glare with a rather rude finger point, "We never speak of this again, got it?"

"Can we hang out again?" I flexed my arms, feigning that I was stretching out ahead of me, and gave her a genuine smile.

"Maybe." She rolled her eyes as a hint of a smile developed on her lips, and she turned away, walking into her house.

I laughed, pulling out and driving back to my house. As I drove, I suddenly felt really bad. I knew this was wrong, I mean, of course it was wrong. But a lot of things in this situation were wrong; Seth and I were soulmates, he led me on while having a girlfriend, and he neglects his girlfriend sexually, which I don't mind since he is supposed to be with me anyways, but it sucks that she feels bad about herself for it. What was I doing this for anyways?

Oh right, Seth.

I parked in the driveway, groaning as I got out and debated grabbing my backpack. I begrudgingly did so, knowing I'd be too lazy for it later. When I walked in, I listened for anybody but figured that my parents were at the pack house or working, and of course my siblings weren't home just yet. They were probably still hanging out with their friends.

I dropped my stuff by the door and made a beeline for the kitchen. I immediately grabbed an ice cream pint out of the fridge, a huge spoon, and proceeded to eat my guts out. I loved sweets, and the fact I had fast metabolism helped a lot. I wondered if Seth liked sweets.

The doorbell rang, startling me. It wasn't any of my family members, they all had keys. Who could possibly be at the door right now?

I walked over, ice cream pint still in hand, and opened the door.

"Huh. Speak of the devil." Seth stood there, wearing a baggy hoodie, and some plain skinny jeans with his backpack. God, why did he look so cute?