Lost One's Vengeance

Episode 5

Ange's P.O.V

"Noah!" Trevor yelled at his son with a lot of embarrassment as he was not at all expecting Noah to react in such a way, after meeting me for the first time.

Neither did I.

But, it was not his fault either, cause he was just a little pup, and it was quite obvious that he would want some motherly affection at such a young age, while he did not get the chance to be spoiled with all the love and adoration that a mother usually has for her pup.

It seemed that Noah had been deprived of such feelings from a really long age which indeed created an empty space within him that makes him crave for a mother the most, no matter he has a dad to take care of him as well. Even so, I can clearly tell how Noah always longed for a mother over anything, by seeing how he jumped on me to hug with a broad smile on his face. I saw how his eyes twinkled with the utmost joy, thinking that he could finally get a mother who is going to love him even more.

And now, how could I break this little boy's heart saying that I am not going to be his mother at all.

Cause, Noah seemed full of hopes right now, while being in my embrace. But seeing that his dad was a bit embarrassed by his behaviour, he felt ashamed as well, and went all quiet, and kept seeing me with his wishful eyes.

As if, he can only be at ease if I accept him now.

Noah is such an innocent boy, that my heart could not help but melt down without much effort.

"It is okay, Trevor. There is nothing to scold our Noah." I uttered after a while, seeing that this little boy who was completely reluctant to let me go even after his dad had warned him already.

I just did not want to break this little boy's heart which was full of hope, and in an attempt to make him happy and cheerful once again, I did not realise that I would end up building a new kind of hope in someone else's heart right now.

"Listen to me, Noah. Although I can not promise that I will be your new mommy as you wanted, but I will not mind at all if you call me mommy. In fact, I would love to hear you calling me as your mommy. Cause from now on I am going to have two of my pups in my life. One is this big boy Noah and another one is that little devil Eva." With that, I hugged his little body tightly, assuring him that he could be at ease while he was in my embrace. In fact, I wanted him to know that he could even rely on me from now on as his mommy will never let him down from this day onwards.

I kissed his cheeks with a lot of adoration and he smiled with a warm heart that he owns.

"Thank you, mommy." Noah's laughter filled my heart for the time being and kept on making my heart even fuller, that for some moment I had totally forgotten about the fact that I have a daughter as well.

But, I must say that at this moment, I was happy.

On the other hand, I did not even realise how someone had already started to blush hard, hearing our little conversation from behind, and seeing that his son had finally got his mommy for whom Noah might have been asking him for long. I did not know that my little gesture to show love to this little pup will also make Trevor extremely happy as well. But he did not say anything, neither did he bother to stop me from giving his son new hopes.

Trevor just kept standing behind us, holding my daughter Eva in his arms and kept watching me and Noah getting familiar with each other.

And just when I looked back to see if they were still here, I did not fail to see those warm gaze which was reflecting all the happiness of his life. He might have not realised but I saw how his lips were curved up, showing the most gorgeous smile ever, unconsciously.

How could I not blush, seeing Trevor like this and that too for me?

Yes, only after seeing Trevor, I just realised what did I do actually.

I panicked, for some moment.

I stood up from the floor in an instant, holding Noah in my hand, and felt the urgency to clarify myself as soon as possible.

"Umm... I hope you do not mind Noah calling me Mommy. I mean, I did not want him to make him sad." I said hesitantly, showing how guilty I was feeling that I did not even ask Trevor before I went on promising his son that he may call me his mommy from now on. I did not even ask Trevor if it was okay with him or not, without knowing that this position of being called as Noah's mommy, might left a big impact on Trevor as well, and he might not be that pleased to see me in the place of the one who was supposed to be only for his loving mate's.

I did not know why I have not thought about that a bit earlier.

But, now, except feeling guilty I had no other option left.

"I know. And I want you to know that you did the right thing. So there is nothing to be ashamed of, Ange. And also, thank you for acknowledging my son's wish and for becoming his mommy, willingly." Trevor's words finally freed me from my guilt in no moment, and I could not be happier at this moment.

"It is time for dinner. Come. Eat with us." He said right after, attempting to lessen the uneasiness that both of us started to feel at this moment, for no reason at all.

Or may be there was some reason but it was just that we indeed failed to see it for the time being.

In this splendid moment, something might have changed between us, without much of our consciousness that none of us could realise yet.

Cause, the night felt pleasant after a quite long and we were busy cherishing the moment with all those who are going to be the part of our lives from now on. Soon, we were served the most amazing food in the world at dinner, as if it was some kind of celebration.

And most of all I felt like I have finally found my new family, and I was not alone anymore.

Throughout the dinner, Noah was absolutely reluctant to leave my side, not even for the slightest second, and I was really glad for that.

"Trevor. What do you think about Noah now? I think he loves me more than you. What do you say?" I asked Trevor intentionally, repeating the exact same phrase that he used on me this morning, regarding Eva.

And now, it was my turn to get back at him.

I laughed in my mind, seeing how Trevor was turning into an old and grumpy alpha with a scowl on his face, while Eva kept pinching his cheeks with her tiny little hands.

"Yes. Yes. I love mommy, the most." After hearing me, Noah said in an instant, mischievously, teasing his father even more by showing that he was always going to choose my side, no matter what.

And then Noah giggled right away while I could not hold myself back any longer, and laughed out loud, together with this little son of the grumpy alpha. Cause, right now, Trevor was indeed looking funny.

"You traitor..!!!" With that, Trevor stood up from his seat and handed Eva over to me and went to chase little Noah who was already on the run even before I had realised that he was no longer sitting beside me.

I could not help but laugh more, seeing this father and son.

I guess, that is how a family looks like.

Anyway,

After dinner, Trevor dropped both of us Eva and me at the door-step of my house, and then walked back to his place, giving us the space and time that we needed at the end of the day.

And after that, I could not help thinking about all those that happened earlier, throughout the night, even when it was past my sleep time.

Eva dozed off to sleep soon, without giving me much trouble as today was indeed a tiring day for her as well.

But sleep did not come to my eyes that easily, and kept me awake with all those insignificant or significant thoughts for the rest of the night, until my eyes became heavy at some point of time, probably before dawn, and I fell asleep at last, after a long wait.

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Maybe I got to sleep for just a few hours last night, as I had to wake up with the terrifying nightmare once again, even before the alarm could go off that I had set to wake up earlier only to attain the pack training as per Alpha Trevor's order.

But it seemed that the nightmares every night is now making it difficult for me to have a good rest after spending a whole tiring day.

Every night is the same for me.

And the nightmares that do not let me see properly, shows the visions of the very same incident over and over again. Every time I find myself standing in the middle of a weird kind of forest, and before a clear ground, as if the place was made only for the sacrificial ceremony. Then some mysterious stuff starts to happen all around me out of the blue but nothing specific shows up. It was just the fears that I could feel at the moment ever so strangely, as if I was going to die. In the end, I find myself being tied up with something, that no matter how much I try to free myself, I just can not do that, anyhow.

And each time, I wake up from my sleep with my frightened heart just when the vicious and horrifying face with two glowing red eyes show up just before my eyes, in my nightmare, scaring the hell out of me.

Yes, that was what I kept seeing every night over and over again, without understanding what is the meaning of such a nightmare in my life.

I wondered sometimes if all the things I had been seeing in my sleep have actually happened to me or not.

What if those were not just any dreams but the flashes of the reality from my past?

But, even after having so many assumptions, I still do not know what is the truth, when I do not even remember, where I have come from.

Anyway,

It can not be helped, even if I wanted these nightmares to stop pestering me each and every single night, snatching my sleep from me ever so ruthlessly.

Moreover, I can not even complain about it to anyone.

Cause, I did not tell anyone about my nightmares, not even to Trevor, as I am not yet sure if I should let anyone know about it or not.

I was still in the bed and was thinking about a whole lot of things, just when the alarm started to go off, declaring the fact that it was now time to get up and get ready for the pack training, as I had already promised that I will not be late.

Even it was not for the alarm, I might not have realised when the outside became bright once again with the new sun rays, announcing the arrival of a new day.

I just could not help wondering how fast time goes by, waiting for no one.

But I knew very well, that the time works for me a bit differently, only if I wanted it to. Yes, time freezes sometimes, or I should say that I can move even faster than lights sometimes, which nobody knows yet. Neither do I feel the need to let anyone know, not right now.

And that was also why I was hesitant to join the pack training. Cause I am afraid that I might end up exposing myself in front of everyone, any time soon.

Even so, this little worry can not stop me from fulfilling my promises.

So, I was determined to have a try this time.

I got down from the bed, without wasting any further time and took Eva to the bathroom to clean her up, cause as usual she had already done her job of getting the clothes wet once again in her sleep.

After I got her all ready, I took a quick bath and dressed myself up as well for the training.

And after I was done feeding my daughter, I took an apple with me to eat later and went out of the house, taking Eva along with me at the training ground.

"Good morning." As soon as I reached the backyard of the pack-house, I wished him as I had easily located the broad back of alpha Trevor who might have definitely arrived before me, and was busy with stretching his body before the training begins.

"Good morning, Ange." Hearing my voice, he turned around sharply and my eyes met with his warm gaze and his amazing smile that was plastered on his face.

"Mommy, I am here too." I heard Noah from somewhere behind me, when I had totally failed to notice him before. So he himself took the initiative to run to me with the same smile on his face, just like his father.

"Of course, you are. Good morning to you too, my boy." I kissed on his cheeks which made him happy in an instant, without any effort at all.

"Can I take Eva with me, mommy? I want to play with her." He asked with his childish voice which could melt anyone's heart right at that instant, without any doubt. And I was feeling no different.

"Yes. Of course. Cause I want you to look after her when mommy will be busy with the training for some while. So, you need to take care of this little devil, you big boy." With that, I handed Eva to Noah and he held her very carefully that she had no chance to fall.

Seeing both of them together like this, I could not help but think that he was indeed going to be a really good brother in later times.

I ruffled Noah's hair playfully just before he went away to a little bit distance, away from the pack ground so that he does not make trouble in between our training.

"Noah was asking for you the whole night." Trevor's enchanting and manly voice rang just beside my ear from behind causing me to shiver with some unfamiliar sensation, when I was not at all prepared to face such kind of situation any time soon. Cause my mind was still with those two little precious things of my life. Noah and Eva.

But during this time, I had totally forgotten about the fact that Trevor was also present there, and he was not at all happy to be ignored cause I had chosen to give attention to his son instead of him.

And there was no doubt that his little gesture was enough to make me nervous as well as confused thinking what exactly he was thinking.

So, I jumped up in a panic and ended up hurting his chin with my head, unconsciously though.