Eleanor POV
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I grimace, as I look at down at my boring nails.
They have trimmed it well and have applied a nail enamel.
I'm not even allowed to wear proper clothes here,
Everything should be matched according to the royal standards.
Like stockings are mandatory when you wear dress or skirts above knee.
And no deep cut clothing that can show off your breasts.
And also you can't color your hair.
No bold lipsticks that will make you look slutty,
It not like I want to do all those things.
I never tried them even in high school, I was the 'nobody ever cared girl'
But the fact that all those things make me look like a taboo, makes my brain to think that I should actually try off all that.
It's like ' be a rebel without any cause'.
Talking about school ,I wasn't the most popular one.
I might have looked pretty with proper make up and if I had dressed up well, like the other popular ones did.
But I was part of girls basket ball team, I enjoyed that, which left me tanned and having no time to be any fancy
And I was much comfortable in my baggy clothes which my back then boyfriend liked.
He told I looked beautiful, he was the biggest nerd who would help me before my exams.
I was a sports student, who missed too many classes and even failed to maintain proper notes.
So that's where Jim, my bench mate, played a main role.
Jim is my first boyfriend.
Till date, I wonder whether I really dated him because I genuinely liked him or because I liked the idea that he always helped me in all things that concerned school.
I was too used to getting helped when I was with Jim, he did all of my assignments, school work like everything.
Marked the important notes for me to study, explained to me the concepts the day before exams.
My go-to call person when I was early to the practice before all the girls show up.
Pick me up and drop me, when needed.
Honestly, I would have never broken off with him, if he didn't turn up one day at my room door and decided to tell me that he was gay.
What the hell?
And he cried the whole night, telling that he had kissed a guy and how he knew he was gay even before he could meet me but was not ready to accept that, so he dated me.
Like I was his play thing, a protection shield, and it turned out that he used me as well as I did.
And moreover we had only kissed like once.
I thought he was shy, so I didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable.
But I didn't see this coming, that he was not interested in girls at all.
So we called it off and my little heart might have yelled a few curse words at his direction.
My ego, my pride was hurt.
The whole question was, how will face my friends at school if he decided to come out?
That part scared me the most, high school was not fun for me
And I might have dated the next guy who asked me out.
Tori ,my second boyfriend.
He was the troubled kid ,but he was cool or at least I thought him to be one
And I was desperate in need of a boyfriend.
I didn't want my friends to make fun of me because Jim turned out to be gay, so I kind of switched from one guy to another in a matter of days.
And I felt so relieved to have walked with Tori, my hand in his when Jim came out as gay making it official to all.
But still people teased me, picked on me, making fun.
And Tori was an ass, he used to make me pay for his gas, even make me buy his cigarettes.
It started getting toxic, those rumors, those hurtful comments plus Tori forcing me to get him money, it was too much to handle.
I kind of tolerated him until I decided I have had enough and later called it off giving him a bill of money I spent of him, which he had promised that he will return it(which he didn't)
After all that drama and nicknames where people called me gay maker, I was really done with high-school.
So to be honest I waited to leave school and go to college which I did.
That's where I met Jay, Jayson was his full name, and he was my roommates best friend.
Jay appeared to be good the one caring guy who will kiss you when he bids goodbye, he made me believed to think that he was good.
And later I caught him f*****g me own roommate who had introduced both of us.
I didn't feel anything to be honest.
I thought I just wanted to find a new place.
So my romance life is always been a bummer.
Back then growing up when my dad used to tell me about his royal family I used to get so excited like I wanted everyone to know that my dad was a Duke.
Like maybe that could have made my years better.
This title could have been a little more enjoyable if I was still at school
But look at me now…
"Jeez.
That's my lips" I scream out as the girl who is helping me with my face, waxes my upper lips which hurts like shit
"Pardon me ,your royal highness" she whispers as she bows down curtly
And just the words itself makes me agitated.
I'm not sure why , its like I'm losing myself in order to fit in
"Leave"
I grit out ,as I get down of the chair
"Madam, the bath is ready" Amelia informs me.
She's my A-1 staff who will be right in my side
"Thank you, Amelia.
But I would take a nap before bath.
It's only noon" I smile politely, mainly my lazy ass wants some alone time in bed to rethink all of my life decisions.
"Princess, but you have a royal Ball to attend this evening.
I'm afraid you will be late" she whispers softly, and I roll my eyes.
See, I'm not even allowed to do what I would like to do in one day.
It's like the schedule is all planned, and I just have to follow up without any questions asked.
They set out everything according to their convenience and without even seeking my thoughts
"What ball ?" I ask her
"A royal party where all the men and women from royal families gather together.
You will be introduced to them as the reigning princess of Remington" she smiles at me, like that makes her proud
And I just nod, as I let the understanding sink in
"What am I supposed to do there ?" I ask her , not understanding
"Well, the royal minister Mr. Ferguson will introduce you to them.
You will just have to keep them entertained by your talks.
Today it's just a mere meeting, a simple get together.
But the one which you will be attending after a month or so, will be huge.
And we are hoping that the Duke of Theroux will announce the wedding idea officially on that particular day making it known"
She beams, and I just clench my teeth as his face appears in front of me.
And I just start walking to my room.
The minute the door opens I see Kasper, who is in another black suit today.
His hair pinned back.
I could have fought to get him removed,, but I didn't.
And I have a reason.
It takes two people to make a wedding.
And also two people to break one.
My eyes glance at his direction before I look back at Amelia who opens the door curtains for me to enter in.
The two people.