lustful but loveless

swinging the bottle of whiskey to and fro while kicking pebbles on the dirty pathway as I walk towards my secret hideaway, a thousand thoughts in my mind but only one wish, die. I always wondered why people will and cry in funerals I still wonder, I think we should all throw parties and smoke to celebrate the dismissal of one of us from this hellhole. I hear the sound of cold water flowing Awakening me from my days I take a left turn leaving to the waterfall, I have a tree house known to no one but my dad where I spend my time when I need time to be alone away from everyone. let me introduce you to myself I'm Sasha hades, The devils incarnate that's what people say, I'm 17 years in my senior high School year in brookside high School , my father's a millionaire who loves no one and nothing but himself my mother well is a beauty queen who only thinks about fashion and beauty and I'm an only child. almost forgot I hate school it's a hell hole. I hate the queen bee Victoria who is a school's head cheerleader, she always gets into my nerves especially since I have a crush on her best friend Alexis and she knows thus takes every opportunity to embarrass me when she's around. I climb the stairs to the house listening to the chipping of birds and flow of water ,I swing open the glass door , I don't open the lights like most people would have done I love Darkness, I live in darkness, there's not even a single source of light in this haven well except my phone. I throw my fatigued body to the bed and watch out of the widow to see the sunset above the waterfall as I let my mind wonder on the things that had occurred during the day. I open my eyes with a little bit of struggle and is shocked to see rays of sunshine in the house, it's already another day of suffering,oh! wait I need to be in school,I get out of my bed hurriedly,brush my teeth,hold my hair in a messy ponytail and change into some comfy sweatpants and hoodie, I wear a pair of Jordans and walk out of the crib. on my way out I call our family driver to drive my Ducati over, checking the time it's 9:30 a.m. I'm 1 and I'm 1 hour and 30 minutes out, I guess I'll be having detention after school. I scroll through my texts and calls to see 17 missed calls from my best friend and 66 text asking where I was and why I'm not in school. before I reply I hear the roar of a motorbike and walk to its direction Jason hands me the helmet and tells me not to worry for Max his friend would pick him up. I swing my leg over , start the engine and Ride off living a cloud of dust behind. I love speed the way adrenaline rashes all over your body, I accelerate reaching a speed of 160 km per hour everything is a brull as I ride past them it's like a control the universe and time, I love the feeling. I stop besides a cafe to pick up my morning black coffee I honestly don't think I would survive a day without coffee. the girl in the counter is a redhead and has a pointy pink nose , too much makeup I don't like her, ignore her Wink and work over to my baby and ride the remaining distance to school. the school parking lot is empty , no students standing on the hallways signaling that lessons are ongoing well as expected, I pack my baby axle and walk to class , we have chemistry that lesson honestly is a nightmare, I hate it having to learn about 2-3 bromomethyl prop 1 ene that's not gonna help me in my life , the only thing that's going to help me is computers, software engineering to be exact. I open the door to class I should be in and Mr Piggy as people call him because he's fat looks at me furiously, he ignores me and continues teaching, I guess he got used to me, I hear people snicker as I settle onto a desk on the back of the class. I slump back on my seat and pop a gum into my mouth. the walls of the class are cream in color and very interesting ,well when you compare them with their ongoing lesson. my phone vibrates in my pocket and I withdraw it to see mom calling, well that's a surprise, I arise and walk out of class , the teacher shouts profanities at me as I walk down the corridor, I walk to the football ground and receive the call, her over sweet voice demands my presence at the mansion so that we could visit a gala with her tonight, I answer okay and cut the call. as I turn to walk back to class, I see a person sitting on one of the benches, head bent down , I walk towards them and tap their shoulder, it's a girl I don't know her name but I see her around she's crying her eyes out. I laugh, well who cries nowadays aren't they used to the daily pain yet, the girl looks at me shocked, I squat and hold her hand then hug her. she hugs me back without saying a word. I release her and tell her to take care then leave. Becky's pov I've been trying to contact Sasha for the past 27 hours and she ain't replying to my text or picking up my calls, this b**** is a lil snob, there's a rumors spreading about her spreading apparently she was seen making out with mason's ex, one of the beauty queen in our school, I just want to know if it's true. sometimes I think I could kill to be her, getting all that attention from the hot girls and all that cash, but well. I walk of music class typing on my phone texting my current girlfriend, Haley who I'm sure won't last to weeks, I mean she's cute and all but I hate clingy girls, I send her the text telling her to meet me in the drama club office. I walk to the office finding her sitting on the table in the center of the small room she's slides down the table and catwalks towards me, looking me straight in the eye can't lie she is a temptress she hugs me and I place my arm on her lower back and pull her closer towards me, I break the hug and kiss her softly nibbling in sucking her bottom lip. when I hear a whistle behind me I hope that's not one of the drama teachers, turn back studying directly in front of Haley to hide her exposed breast. Sasha is leaning on the door a cigar on her left hand and smoke coming out of her mouth, I release a breath I didn't know I was holding, I jump and sit on top of the table as Hayley turns her back to Sasha to button up her blouse after giving her a smile.