Naramdaman ko kaagad ang pagpulupot ng bisig ni Caius sa baywang ko nang akmang susugurin ko ulit si Lynne. Nasa amin na ang tingin ng lahat, pero wala na 'kong pakialam!
"Luisa, what the f**k are you doing?" bulong ni Caius sa tainga ko, pero ramdam ko ang diin sa boses niya.
I removed his arm on my waist. I pulled Lynne's hair. She screamed and stood up as I pulled her hair. Pulang pula na ang mukha niya, marahil sa sakit at sa pagkapahiya. Nagbubulungan na ang mga tao, nandoon din ang iba kong school mate, pero hindi ako apektado roon.
"Stay away from Caius!" I pushed her again.
I wasn't like this. I don't let my emotions rule over me. I don't want to stand out and be noticed by many people... but here I am, causing a scene... and it's because of Caius... or because of my uncontrollable love for him.
"What are you doing?!" napasigaw na rin si Lynne at itinulak ako.
"I'm Caius' wife! Tinapos na niya ang inyo, bakit nilalandi mo pa rin?!" Again, I reminded myself na hindi ako eskandalosa... but well, to hell with it.
Lynne's mouth agape. She looked at me with disbelief in her eyes, she even looked at me from head to toe. "Ano ba'ng sinasabi mo? I remember you, estudyante kita pero hindi ka pumapasok sa klase ko... Caius..." She turned her gaze at him. "Ano ba'ng nangyayari?"
I pushed her again, malakas, napasubsob siya sa sahig dahil sa pagtulak ko. Tila doon na napigtad ang pasensya ni Caius at humawak nang mahigpit sa braso ko saka hinila ako palabas sa restaurant. Halos itulak niya ako palabas ng restaurant, mailayo lang ako roon.
Mahigpit ang hawak niya sa braso ko nang dalhin niya ako sa kotse niya at itinulak papasok sa kotse. I gritted my teeth and clenched my fists. I didn't say anything and let him have his way. Agad niya nang pinaharurot ang sasakyan palayo roon.
We're both quiet inside the car, but I can see his jaw clenching. His gripping the steering wheel so hard, tila madudurog 'yon sa higpit ng hawak niya. He frustratedly ran his fingers through his hair and muttered curses. I've never seen him this mad.
Nang makarating na kami sa bahay niya, agad siyang bumaba ng kotse at pinagbuksan ako. Muli niyang hinablot ang braso ko at halos kaladkarin ako papasok sa bahay. Nang nasa loob na kami, pabalya niyang binitiwan ang braso ko, halos nawalan ako ng balanse.
"What the f**k is your problem, you f*****g crazy b***h?!" he growled. His loud voice thundered around the house.
"Ako dapat ang nagtatanong niyan! I told you not to flirt with anyone! Bakit ka-date mo ang Lynne na 'yon?! Naglalandian kayo!" ganting sigaw ko.
Hindi ako pala-sigaw, pero hindi na yata gumagana ang isip ko ngayon. Emosyon ko na lang ang gumagana.
"We're just talking about our project, Luisa! Sinaktan at pinahiya mo kaagad 'yung tao! Have you got no shame?!" asik niya pa.
"Wala akong pakialam kung nakakahiya! Kapag nakita kong nilandi ka niya ulit, hindi lang 'yon ang gagawin ko sa kaniya! Sinabi kong iwasan mo na siya dahil nagseselos ako--"
"Wala akong pakialam kung magselos ka! f**k you! I f*****g hate you! You're f*****g embarrassing! Hindi ka na nakuntento na pinilit mo 'kong ipakasal sa'yo, nagawa mo pa 'kong ipahiya?! You're hopeless, you f*****g obsessed b***h!" he shouted. He pushed me away from him.
Napaupo ako sa sahig sa lakas ng tulak niya. I immediately stood up even though my knees are shaking.
He's insulting me and yet... I like it.
Caius looked at me with disbelief. He chuckled humorlessly and clenched his jaw. "You're f*****g unbelievable, Luisa... I'm talking shits about you and your... what? Turned on?"
Hindi ako nagsalita at nag-iwas ng tingin sa kaniya. "I-I'm not..." I denied... but I'm sure he already knew. I was too obvious.
He hissed and gripped my arm. Halos kaladkarin niya ako papuntang living room. Itinulak niya ako sa couch, napaupo ako roon dahil sa pagkakatulak niya.
I froze when I saw him unbuckling his belt. My lips parted and looked at his face. "C-Caius..."
"On all fours, Luisa... put your hands on the armrest," bulong niya habang matiim na nakatingin sa akin, bakas pa rin ang galit sa mga mata niya.
I gulped. I pressed my thighs together as I felt the familiar sensation between my legs. Nanaginip ako ng ganito noon... Pinadapa niya ako sa panaginip ko at...
Mangyayari na ba talaga 'yon? I wasn't prepared. Did he find me even weirder now that he discovered that I want to be treated like this by him... that I want to be this submissive over him?
"f*****g do it!" asik niya.
I bit my lower lip and nodded. Sumampa ako sa couch at dumapa, saka kumapit sa armrest kagaya ng gusto niya. Nanginginig pa ang mga tuhod ko sa kaba.
"Lift that f*****g ass, Luisa."
My knees quivered even more... I did what he wanted. I lifted my ass. My cheeks are burning... I'm embarrassed... and turned on at the same time. I've been anticipating this for years.
I gasped when he suddenly hit my ass with his belt. I gripped the armrest tighter, bumaon pa ang mga kuko ko roon. It stung, a lot. He really used a lot of force with that. I gulped and bit my lower lip... I can feel the familiar wetness in between my legs... f*****g hell.
"You're f*****g shameless... and you'll get punishment for it," he muttered.
He gave my ass a hard hit using his belt again. Tuluyan nang bumigay ang mga siko ko. Napasubsob ang mukha ko sa armrest dahil sa panghihina. Pati tuhod ko, bibigay na rin yata, pero pinilit kong tatagan 'yon.
"You dirty slut... You like it, don't you?" he asked, then he hit my ass with his belt again.
"C-Caius..." I moaned and bit the armrest to stop myself from wailing. Tears formed in my eyes... I'm so thrilled. I've never been this thrilled and excited before.
Caius roughly gripped my jaw and made me face him. I bit my lower lip and sniffled. He roughly wiped my tears with his thumb and stared coldly at me. "Why the f**k are you crying, w***e? Want me to stop, huh?" he asked in a domineering voice.
I bit my lower lip and shook my head. "P-please continue, I-I deserve to be punished."
I saw his ghost smirk. "That's more like it... A slut like you deserve it."
I gasped when he hit my ass again. It was harder. I closed my eyes tightly as it stung. He hit again, and again, and again... I buried my face on the armrest and sobbed.
"My w***e can't take it anymore, huh..." he whispered.
Oh my... I'm so wet... My underwear is soaking wet.
He gripped my jaw again and made me face him. He's staring intently at me. I don't know what he's thinking right now.
"Pull your pants down... with your underwear," utos niya pa.
Napalunok ako. Kahit nanginginig ang mga kamay ko, sinunod ko agad ang utos niya. Ibinaba ko ang pants ko pati ang underwear hanggang sa hita ko. Mas lalong nag-init ang mukha ko. My ass is fully exposed. Sigurado ako na namumula iyon ngayon.
"C-Caius!" I gasped when he suddenly spanked my ass with his hand. I bit my lower lip so hard, parang dudugo na.
"Damn you, Luisa... Damn you," he muttered and gave my ass another hard spank.
Then he spanked it again... and again... until I lost count. My whole body was shaking. I was crying on the couch... because of pain and pleasure. The fact that I have this kink just made it worse... I only want Caius though... Si Caius lang dapat.
I sniffled and looked at him. "C-Caius... I-I can't take it anymore... P-please..." I don't know what I'm begging for anymore.
Caius looked down at me. He gripped my hair. Naalis ang pagkakaharang ng mahabang bangs ko sa mukha ko. Pinaikot niya ang buhok ko sa kamay niya saka matiim na tumitig sa akin.
"What the f**k do you want, huh?" he asked in a low and sexy tone, I almost melted.
"I-I want a release."
Hindi siya nagsalita at basta na lang umupo sa couch. His hand is still gripping my hair. He made me face him. I flinched. "Do it yourself," he rasped.
I just gulped and nodded. I spread my legs and sat on his right thigh. His hand is still gripping on my hair. My damp core touched his trousers. His eyes went down on my bare p***y. I clung on his shoulder and started grinding my aching wetness on his thigh. I saw him clenched his jaw.
"Aahhh... C-Caius..." I moaned and started moving my hips faster.
Caius took a pack of cigarette and a lighter from his pocket. Naglagay siya ng isang sigarilyo sa labi saka sinindihan 'yon. Humithit siya sa sigarilyo at prenteng isinandal ang likod sa backrest, habang pinapanood ako sa ginagawa.
"Look at how desperate you are... you f*****g slut," he muttered and puffed on his cigarette again. He gripped my hair tighter.
"Aahhh! Hmm..." I bit my lower lip as my toes curled. Basang basa na ang trouser niya pero tila hindi naman niya alintana 'yon.
Bumuga siya ng usok, agad kong nalanghap 'yon. He stared intently at my face, exposed and uncovered with my hair. The way he stared at me fueled my desire. I licked my lower lip and closed my eyes... I can feel it, I'm about to come.
"C-Caius... Ohh!" I gripped his shoulder tighter. I shivered and collapsed on his chest when I finally had my orgasm. I closed my eyes. I was catching my breath. I've never been this satisfied in my whole life.
"Get off me," malamig na sinabi niya.
Kahit nanginginig pa ako, sinunod ko ang utos niya at umalis sa kandungan niya. I closed my legs and turned my gaze away from him. My cheeks heated even more... What the hell? Did I really do that?
Caius stood up and brushed his hair with his fingers. He looked coldly at me. "I satisfied you and put up with your kink... I deserve a reward for it, right?" he asked in a cold tone.
I gulped and stared at him. "W-what do you mean? W-what reward?" I murmured.
"I want you to f*****g leave me alone, Luisa," malamig na sinabi niya na nagpatigil sa akin.
"Caius--"
He didn't let me finish. He cussed under his breath. He walked away and left the house, just like that.
Napabuntonghininga ako... Kung ganoon, pinagbigyan niya lang pala ako para lubayan siya. Akala ko pa naman ay may nararamdaman na siya para sa akin, kahit kaunti.
HINDI UMUWI SI Caius ng ilang araw, apat na araw rin siguro. Hindi rin siya um-attend sa klase niya at pinasabi na may kailangan lang siyang asikasuhin. I know he's avoiding me. I know he's still mad at me. I tried reaching out for him, pero hindi ko siya mahagilap.
My days in campus were quite difficult. Kumalat sa campus ang ginawa kong panunugod kay Lynne. Kung noon, hindi ako pinapansin, ngayon naman nasa akin ang atensyon ng mga estudyante. Lantaran silang nagpaparinig sa akin at tinitingnan ako nang masama. Some pulled ridiculous prank on me... Binubuhusan ako ng tubig, tinatalisod, kunwari hindi sinasadyang itulak... I was expecting this. Tila loveteam sina Caius at Lynne sa campus na 'to.
"That weird freak really said that she's Sir Caius' wife... f*****g delusional," pagpaparinig ng isa kong blockmate at tumawa pa. Nagtawanan naman sila sa room.
Hindi ko na lang pinansin dahil wala naman akong pakialam. Um-attend lang ako ng klase sa pagba-baka sakali na pumasok na si Caius.
I sighed and stared at Caius' picture on my phone. I missed him so much. Walang araw na hindi ko siya nakikita, kahit noong stalker niya pa lang ako. Kaya sobrang hirap na sa akin na hindi siya nakikita ngayong nakasama ko na siya sa iisang bahay.
Lumabas na lang ako ng campus. I sat on the bench nearby. Nagtingin tingin na lang ako sa pictures ni Caius sa cellphone ko. Mamaya na ako uuwi, maghihintay muna ako, baka bigla siyang dumating.
"Woah, you're f*****g desperate, freak!"
Natigilan ako nang may humablot sa cellphone ko. Napakunot ang noo ko... mukhang schoolmates ko sila. Hindi na lang ako nagsalita at akmang kukuhanin ulit ang phone ko pero hindi sila nagpatinag.
I stared at them, assessing if I can beat them. Seven sila, limang babae at dalawang lalaki. Di hamak na mas matatangkad sila kaysa sa akin. Even though I studied defensing myself, I know I won't be able to beat them.
"Give it back," malamig na sinabi ko na lang.
"Oh, ang tapang mo naman... Sabagay, sinugod mo nga si Ma'am Lynne eh... Gano'n ka kadesperada kay Sir Caius? Maninira ka ng relasyon at mag-e-eskandalo? Wow, you're a f*****g creep."
I just tried to take my phone back but the b***h just threw it on the ground. Akmang pupulutin ko iyon pero agad na may humila sa buhok ko saka sumampal nang malakas sa pisngi ko. Akmang gaganti ako, pero agad akong natadyakan ng isa sa sikmura dahilan para bumagsak ako sa sahig.
Hindi ko na alam ang nangyayari... They are kicking me, slapping me, pulling my hair. I tried fighting back, pero walang wala ako sa bilang nila. Napaigik ako nang maramdaman kong may tumadyak sa pisngi ko, malapit sa labi.
"What do you think you're doing?!" Someone shouted in anger... The voice was so familiar, pero masyado na yata akong nahihilo. Hindi ko na maintindihan.
Napapikit na lang ako habang panay ang sigaw ng boses. Naramdaman kong nagtakbuhan ang mga bumugbog sa akin. Naramdaman kong lumapit sa akin ang lalaki at binuhat ako. Nanginginig ang mga braso na napakapit ako sa batok niya nang buhatin niya ako.
I don't know anymore... My mind was hazy. My whole body is aching.
"N-Neron?" I asked in a soft voice.
"That's not my name, Luisa..." anas niya at nagsimula nang maglakad. I felt his jaw clenched.
I smiled a little when I finally realized who it was. I hugged his nape tighter and snuggled on his neck. "I-I missed you so much, Caius..."