Chapter Two
Looking back, it’s clear that Roland had an idea of where all this was leading. I don’t say he had everything planned down to the last detail. He didn’t know me well enough at the start to be sure of how I would respond. But he had a good idea of what he had in mind for me. I, of course, had no such idea. At the beginning, I was simply pleased to have found a man I liked and respected, and who was incredibly good at s*x. I don’t think I had been particularly unlucky in that department. I don’t think my lovers were unusually insensitive or clumsy. Most of them meant well. The problem is that, most of the time, I felt s*x with them was insipid. It just didn’t really engage me. It didn’t stir me. Whereas with Roland, right from the very beginning, one look or one touch from him a
