Only you, Alpha

Chapter 2:*That same day*

I knew they will still try to make me think they care about me and my family, but Thank God I stood here unknowingly closer to them to hear them whisper every wicked thought they stored in their own heart against my family.

Mom always said during our devotions, no one loved us that God should protect us. That was always her repetitive prayer points.

I know my Dad was a gangster but we were praying for him and hoping God will change him someday.

Did our prayers come to God too late or did we never ask for what is realistic from God?

Now everyone has turned their lips against us.

I have become the scapegoat and the laughing stock of the neighborhood.

Today was going to mark a change in my life, not the type of change I ever wished for but one that will internally and externally force me to adapt to it.

I have no other option than to be quiet, not to ever trust anyone, and to be alone to myself at all times from now henceforth.

I don't feel it is right to say this..but, I have to be honest with myself am being so frightened of walking and living the rest of my life in this neighborhood.

I wish…,

I just wish I could have gone with him.

I wish I was never born into this family of mine.

Maybe I would have never witnessed all that has happened today.

If I wasn't born into this family I won't be feeling this terrible today in my life.

I guess they would have been another child for them that will witness all this trauma but not me, Alison.

But wait, which family will I be born in then?

The least I would care about at this moment anyway. I just wanted to have a proud and happy family but fear and sadness are what I have gotten into for having oxygen passing through my nostril at the moment.

I couldn't stand the whole pain anymore. I ran into the house, opened my door, and banged it against my back. My both hands covering my mouth I was sobbing, walking towards my bed to lie in my sorrow.

I turned left to find see a picture of a little girl in the mirror who is devastated. I stood still, glaring at myself in the mirror. I couldn't help myself but scowl.

I took a sip from a bottle of apple juice my Dad bought for me the other night situated on my mirror stand.

Spit. Bitter.,

*Everything.Now.Taste.Bitter*

I detest the look of the girl staring back at me.

Her broken emotion and frown look.

Her protruding hazel eyes.

Her glowing skin turned pale after wailing under the scorching sun for hours.

Her disarranged frizzy dry hair.

Starting at the girl in the mirror last time, I thought…

I thought that maybe one day everything will return how it was before today.

Would someone just walk up to me and tell me everything that has happened today is a dream, tell me it never happened.

Maybe that would take away the fear and sorrow that have filled my heart.

But no one.., no one would.

*I am finished*

Will I be able to look at myself in the mirror and admire how beautiful I was before my hope was killed?

Will that day ever come again?

Now I would go on to become the laughing stock in my school, especially among my classmates. No one will ever want to have anything to do with me, because my family gave me a disastrous identity.

*Even a bad name*

Will I ever still be the Alison guys at my schools winked and whistled at when I passed with a gang of my friends.

Alison both girls and boys wanted to be friends with her.

The 6ft plus Alison with a man-like muscular physique everyone wanted to confide in her.

Alison was most feared because of who her Dad was in the neighborhood.

I had gotten much more bitter staring at the girl in the mirror, nothing around me could convince me at this point that I was going to be safe. That I wouldn't be seeing the most unfortunate aspect of my life existence soonest.

I got scared.

I thought…, I thought about the very popular motivational clique. I heard every day on the radio, TV and read books.-"Life always has a brighter side, one has to go through toughest darkness to appreciate the sun when it finally shines".

I was trying so hard to be optimistic.

And it finally dawned on me that life has divided it is people, into 2 distinct categories: its chums and its adversary.

I had come to realize that life love and favors its chum. It abhors its enemies.

My, I and my family have become that enemy of life.

All this while, I would say life pretended to be my friend but it has finally shown its true identity to me.

It sapped out my confidence as the seconds went by, ripped me off any hope I had for life, and buried the happy confident optimistic me six feet under.

I couldn't just get my emotion together. I rushed from my bed to my window to take one more look at the scene where I saw my Dad give up his life. Where his dead body everyone came to watch and mock me. The police and mortuary officers had come around to take him away.

Sitting beside the window with tears dripping off my eye, trying to breathe.

Trying not to get suffocated by overwhelming sorrow. My classmate won't miss me, I guess they had all been pretending to like my neighbors.

My neighbors won't miss me.

No one will…,

If I die out of grief over the death of my Dad.

I left the room and ran to the balcony which is away from the horrible scene.

For the first time in my life, I am trying to console myself my Dad has always done that to me when I needed to be comforted.

Tears kept dropping off my bathed eyes lids, I tried to relish the air beating my nostrils and sinking to my lungs.

I was trying to relish breathing for a replacement of my sorrow.

Trying to be pleased with the warm rays of the sun caressing my pale skin and the soft hot wind rippling through my disarranged hair.

I took a deep breath, sigh. "What an unpleasant day!"

Should I say the universe is trying to pay off today's sorrows. it has been a long I relish the air I breathe like I did today.

I felt someone hug me from behind.

The firm and comfortable hands.

It's Ryan.

My school head boy.

He lived the closest to me and had witnessed all that happened today. I couldn't believe he had to come to my house to check on me.

"Hey, handsome", I through my whole body at him just to hug him.

" So sorry for all that had happened, Alison. I will be there to help and comfort you when you need me. Nevertheless, you look so beautiful, bestie."

I wouldn't imagine Ryan, my school head calling me bestie and beautiful the same day I lost my Dad.

He never said that or called any of them to me all the while we spoke randomly in class.

This must be a blessing in disguise a lot of people would say but I just wish he can call me this same name when we meet in school or he sees me in class so everyone would know Ryan feels the same way I feel about him.

I don't care if everyone doesn't know even, I just want Ryan to love me the way I love and I wish to have him to myself alone.

"You will need to go to bed now, tomorrow is school. I know it is difficult for you to get over all that has happened today but God will grant you the courage to do so Alison"

I shriek with excitement that Ryan was the one consoling me. I wouldn't have seen it coming.

Not this soon from Ryan.

*Never will I have thought it would come from Ryan*

"I will be on my way home now Alison" He pecked my cheek.

I frowned, you leaving me Ryan.

Tears sting my eyes I will miss you.

Can I have you spend time with me when we meet in school, Ryan?

He stays silent.

"Ryan"

His mother, my neighbor, who was done gossiping about all that has happened to me and my family, came to our doorstep and yelled at her sons to leave my home.

Ryan left me without responding to my question.

"What did I tell you, Ryan, about talking to this unfortunate girl Alison!"..,

Ryan's Mom scolded him " You are grounded from ever coming close to her or her home. She swears at me and slams the door.

I stood, staring at the door, devastated again.

I ran back to the balcony, tears kept rolling down my eyes.

Will, I ever have a happy day again in my life before I die too like my Dad.

Author's Note

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