EXQUISITE DESIRE

PROLOGUE “I asked you to stay away from me, but you didn’t listen. Now you deserve a sweet punishment, sweetheart.” I tied her up on the bed. Her angelic face was filled with fear and lust. I could feel her body trembling. I can't stop thinking about her innocent face. My eyes were glued to her irresistible body. She is gorgeous, no doubt about that. “Are you blushing, Liyah, or should I say Mayah?” I asked her, and her face turned even redder. Ang sarap lang tingnan ang inosenteng mukha niya. My heart is so stubborn to recognize how amazing she is. Like the first time, I saw her at university. But in the back of my mind, I ignore the strange feeling she wants me to feel. I have buried it already. Hindi ko maatim na makapanakit na naman ako ng kalahi ni Eva. I live my life miserably. I learned my lesson when I hurt Daniyah. She’s the most amazing woman I have ever met. Our relationship started when my brother asked me to manage our hospital. I agreed because this woman declined my courting proposal. I may not love her, but having children with her was the best thing that happened to me. The moment I knew she had died, guilt consumed me. Regrets and guilt consumed me. I shook my head to disregard that thought. I was severely wounded and didn’t know if I could feel the same way. But this woman in front of me is so persistent and stubborn. My reverie went back to the first time I saw her at school. Ilang beses ko pa itong dapat ipagtabuyan. She was seducing me, and I couldn’t resist. Or let’s say I don’t want to fight it. She awakened my coldness and turned it into something hot with burning desires. Each time I gazed into her mesmerizing eyes, I was hypnotized, my defenses fell, and every time our skin touched, I was ecstatic. To me, every session was a death. My lower legs weren't moving, and I couldn't feel them, but for f*****g sake, I thought my friend was alive between my legs. And hell, I always feel horny when that happens. She is my therapist. Kaya madalas sinisinghalan ko siya, to hide her effect on my body, especially my buddy down there. But the more I pushed her away, she forced herself on me. I recovered fully but pretended I couldn’t walk to be with her. I want to know why she’s doing this after she ran away and left me dumbfounded. Now she’s in front of me, with her lacy bra and red underwear. Her eyes were burning with anticipation and desire as I do. Her smooth and flawless skin makes me horny as hell. I ran my fingertips over her skin. I feel the heat and lust. I saw her face begging. I don’t know if she is begging me to stop or continue and rip those two pieces that cover her precious jewels. I want to torture this woman. I want her to beg me to claim her. After I run my fingertips on her skin, my palm stops on the gems between her legs. Napasinghap ito, I heard her moaning, whimpering, arching her body, showing her sexy curves. I heard her calling my name like music in my ears. “Ah—ah, Clint.” I ripped her underwear and claimed her lips roughly; I bit her lower lips and tasted her blood. It made me wild, like an animal. I couldn’t stop myself. My lips ran down her neck, sipping and licking simultaneously. My hands roamed around her body, pressing it. I was busy on her neck when I slowly moved my lips to her mounds. I cupped her right breast. Her left breast was so soft as my lips sucked on it. It was a perfect fit in my hand. Her body is shaking, and it is hot. I took my time playing with her mounds, and my other hand ran down from her waist to her belly until I reached my final destination. I cupped the gem; it was supple and well-shaved. I played with her clit, and rubbed my two fingers on her jewels, which were soaking wet for me. I pinched her clit, knowing she felt a tingling sensation after that sweet pain. I flicked my tongue at her gem, licking and sucking simultaneously. I felt her hand on my hair. Lalo pa niyang pinagduldulan ang mukha ko sa p********e niya not that I complaint but I obliged. I insert my middle finger on her opening, ramdam kong natigilan siya sandali ngunit unti-unti nitong, sinalubong ang daliri ko na nag labas masok sa bukana nito. “God, you’re f*****g so tight, baby.” “Hmmm” I heard her moaning. Lalo kong binilisan ang paglabas masok ng daliri ko sa naglalawa niyang bukana. Mas lalo akong nabaliw nang sabay niya nang indayog ang balakang niya sa daliri ko. I heard her long moan and she almost reach her climax; I licked her clit harder and I inserted another finger on her opening, she opens her legs wide open. I thrust my fingers deep, fast and hard while sucking her clit. Alam kong malapit na malapit na siya, mas lalo kong pinag-iigihan ang ginagawa ko sa kanya. Until her legs tightened, her toes curled and he arched her body more. “Ahhh—ahhh Clint…. She screamed my name in pleasure. I sipped every juice she released. Wala akong may itinira kahit isang patak. And it had the sweetest juices. I am addicted to her sweet scent and her taste. After that mind-blowing climax, I gave her. I licked my fingers in front of her, and her face reddened. f**k, her eyes were so innocent and naive. Ramdam ko na nahiya na ito akin. She even looked away, not seeing what I did. I walked to the bathroom and took a white towel for her. Kitang-kita ko ang gulat sa mukha niya at pagkapahiya. Hindi agad ito naka kilos. Napayuko ito and I saw a tear in her eyes. But I ignored it. I have to do this. “I tasted you already; now, get the f**k out of my room.” I shouted at her. Alam kong nasaktan siya sa ginawa ko but I don't f*****g care. Gustong kong suntukin ang aking sarili dahil sa kagaguhang ginagawa ko sa kanya. “Clint—clint…” Her voice was trembling. Ngunit pinatigas ko ang aking mukha. I showed her my emotionless face so she would leave my room; if not, I would claim her right now. And I don’t want that to happen. “Get out, Maliyah, or would you like me to drag you out of my f*****g room?!” Dumadagundong ang boses ko. I was confident that no one would hear me shouting at her. Because my room is soundproof. Gusto ko siyang halikan at yakapin ngunit pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I want to push her away. Hindi dapat ako nakaramdam ng ganito sa kanya. Not now, not f*****g ever, what he had before was gone. “Sinong pinagloloko mo Clint my mind hissed at me and I ignored it.” I saw her slow walking naked and f****d. I was doomed. She covers herself while she’s picking her clothes one by one. She run towards the bathroom to get dress. I heard her sobbing. Alam kong pinipigil nito ang sarili na h’wag umiyak nang malakas. Ngunit wala akong pakialam mas mabuting kalimutan niya ako kaysa masaktan ko siya. Kong ano man ang meron kami noon, kong meron ng aba, tapos na ‘yon. She rejected me. I wear my Gucci fitted t-shirt. Lumabas ako ng aking silid na hindi ko na siya hinintay pa. Alam kong nahihiya ito at nasaktan sa inasal ko. I better hurt now than hurting her even more. Then the image of Daniyah crying appeared in my mind. Mas lalong nag rebolusyon ang utak ko. Pabalibag kong isinara ang pinto alam kong marinig ni Maliyah ‘yon. I don't give a damn about it. I just want to get out of here. Away from her. I have to push her away. If not, I will inflict pain on her and I don’t want that. She deserves someone better. Someone who will love her completely and unconditionally. I know it wasn’t me. But f**k, thinking about that makes me crazy. I was too broken to mend. I was a monster. I deserved these, all the pain. I deserved all of it because of what I did. The past haunts me. Daniyah is haunting me. And it kills me every f*****g single every time she crosses my mind. I am troubled, and no one can fix me. Not even Maliyah. Looking at her a while ago is like my heart ripped from my ribcage. f**k’s sake, what I have done. Napa-hagulgol ako. I punched the wall; pain radiated in my fist, and I felt it. Ang bilis ng t***k ng puso ko, ang bilis ng paghabol ko nang hininga ko. I saw blood on my fist. My world stopped; my mind turned blank. My senses were numb. Gusto kong mag wala at sumigaw ngunit hindi ko magawa. I was stupid to hurt her like that. “Daniyah” … I whispered her name, unti-unti akong napaupo na parang nauupos na kandila. Hindi ko alam kong ilang oras akong nakaupo sa sahig naka sandal ang likod sa mahabang sofa. I heard the door open but I didn't bother to look at who entered. Nanatili akong nakapikit at nakaupo. “What the f**k Clint, what the hell happened? What did you f*****g do this time?” It was Chlyde shouting. I didn't bother to answer him. Dinig kong napabuntong hininga ito at alam kong nakatingin siya sa akin, naawa ako sa kanya because he did everything to save me, a second chance to fix everything I did. Hindi ko nga matingnan ng mata sa mata ang asawa niya. Hindi ko nga alam paano humingi ng tawad sa kanila. I shut them down too. I pushed them away; I pushed Maliyah away. Kahit mga anak ko wala akong mukhang ihaharap sa kanila. I was so ashamed. ***