Chapter 5
2116 Words
Adyson Pov
I wake up to the slow rising sun, it’s still early and I stretch out. I have to get up soon and hit the gym before breakfast.
I suddenly recall what happened last night and my eyes widen. Did I actually give Jax a lap dance and then kiss him.
‘Hell yes, you sure did’ Spartan is goofy happy this morning.
I was feeling a little too confident about the lap dance and quickly lost myself to the feel of being against his body. I only stopped when I felt him harden beneath me and he was trying to control his breathing. How on earth will I face him today, I roll over and scream into my pillow. His lips were just so soft, I wanted his tongue to stay in my mouth forever. I felt tingles shooting across the inside of my mouth the entire time. He tasted better than I ever imagined.
I can’t do this to myself.
‘You can do this. He is a god’
‘Spartan! I am not having this conversation again. I can’t lose him’
‘You are making an assumption that he will break your heart. You don’t know that’
‘I know that once he finds his mate, he will only want her. Plus I want to travel and Jax has to stay here to take over as Alpha’
‘We could be his Luna though. Alphas and Lunas still travel for pack business.’
‘I am not his mate Spartan, he won’t want me to be his Luna’
‘Who are you kidding Adyson. You are only travelling to run away from him and his so called mate.’
I huff and scream into my pillow again. She is right of course. I am only insisting on travelling as I can’t bear to see him meet his mate.
I decide it’s time to get up and ready. I slip on my workout shorts and sports b*a. I throw my hair into a ponytail and brush my teeth before heading out. Lila is just opening the gym door as I get there.
“Hey Lila, how you doing?” I ask her politely.
She moans before answering, “I drank way too much last night.” She holds her head on the way in.
‘I don’t recall seeing her drink’
‘Me either Spartan’
We decide to hit the treadmills first, I run for about thirty minutes before Lila gives up and lies on the floor by my machine.
The door to the gym opens and Jax walks in. I have my earphones in listening to music so I quickly look down at Lila and pretend I didn’t see him. I feel him walking over to me and stand just by Lila. The hairs on my arms are standing tall. I look up and he gestured for me to take out my earphones so I oblige with a sigh.
“Hey,” I say out of breath.
“Morning beautiful,” he flashes me a gorgeous smile and I feel my face flushing red. “I just wanted to see if you would join me for breakfast at the pack house?”
I can’t think of a good reason to say no fast enough, “sure.” He gives me another heart breaking smile.
‘I will eat him for breakfast’
‘Stop it Spartan’ I scold her as I try to calm my breathing. I catch my own ankle as I scold Spartan and stumble to catch myself. Both Lila and Jax laugh at my clumsiness and I flush bright red.
I stop my machine and head over to the mirrors followed by Lila. I do some stretches before trying out some yoga poses. Myself and Lila have been trying a new pose each day, we lose balance and fall over laughing. I grab a drink and realise that Lila has spaced out, I follow her gaze and see Jax. Jax is topless whilst lifting weights, sweat is glistening across his perfect back muscles. I get the sudden urge to walk over and lick him, but luckily I snap out of it and shake my head.
‘Do it! Lick him’
‘Pipe down Spartan’
I look back over at Lila who is practically drooling. I throw my sweaty towel at her and it smacks her in the face.
“Hey,” she complains as she throws it back.
“You have a little drool there Lila,” I tell her whilst pointing to my mouth.
She laughs and rolls her eyes, “you can talk. I wasn’t the one grinding on him last night.”
I groan and flop back onto the yoga mat with a thud.
“Adyson Silver!” I turn to see my dad storming towards me.
“Daddy?” I question his angry mood, I don’t remember causing any recent trouble. “What did I do now?”
“I just heard some boy bragging that you were playing spin the bottle last night and kissed someone.” He thundered. Oh no! My dad was a big believer in reserving all your firsts for your mate. “Who was it?” He demands.
I could feel my palms sweating and tried to avoid his eye contact as i sputtered over my words.
“It was me sir,” Jax announces confidently as he walks over to me and puts his arm around my shoulder. “I was dared to kiss the girl I fancy most, so I kissed Adyson sir.”
‘Yes you certainly did’ Spartan adds with a seductive smirk.
‘Not now Spartan’
My dad grows quiet and looks between the two of us with narrowed eyes. Slowly a smile starts to spread across his face before turning into a huge grin.
“Well this is great. We always knew you two had a special connection!” My dad cheers happily and pulls me into a hug. I am at a loss for words, I just let him embrace me whilst I stand limp with wide eyes. I was hoping my dad would forbid a non mate relationship with Jax, like he tried with Eli, which would make it easier to stay away. Why is my dad suddenly acting like a match maker?
‘See Adyson, even dad is on Jax’s team’
“You are eighteen in a week right Jax?” My dad asks him as he let me go. I step back and Jax pulls me to his side.
“Yes sir, myself and my wolf have a strong belief that Adyson is our mate.” Jax admits confidently.
I feel my breath catch in throat and then begin choking. Did he just say that he thinks I am his mate? Since when did he think this. Could it be possible that we are mates. Does he know that I am in love with him. My brain is working over time whilst my body tries to cope with my choking.
“Adyson breath,” my father tries to soothe whilst Jax rubs my back. I finally manage to stop coughing and close my eyes to take deep breaths.
“Sorry,” I mumble with my eyes still closed and I hear my dad and Jax chuckle before carrying on their conversation. If I pinch my arm hard enough then I might wake up. I open my eyes and see that the guys in the room are not paying any attention to me. I slowly pinch my arm, and then pinch it harder. Nothing is happening, which means this isn’t a dream. This is actually happening to me. The love of my life actually feels the same way and is convinced we are mates. But what if he is wrong.
‘He is not wrong’
‘But what if he is Spartan’
‘Then at least we would’ve had a taste’ she says with a lick of her lips.
If he turns eighteen and we are not mates, he will not want to be my friend anymore. I am absolutely going to lose him now. I don’t know if I can withstand the pain of seeing him with his mate next week. I slowly step back from Jax with sadness stricken across my features. Jax turns to me with worry in his eyes and my dad follows his gaze.
“Ady what’s wrong?” Jax asks as he steps towards me, I step back again.
“I-I-I,” I stutter over my words. “I need to go shower before breakfast.”
He studies my face for a second so I try to plaster on my best fake smile and nod to reassure him. He doesn’t look convinced but nods back.
“Okay, I will meet you at breakfast then.” Jax tells me with a small smile.
I turn and try to hold myself together whilst I walk out the gym. Once I’m outside I break into a fast run to my house and let the tears free.
I reach my house in record time and dash straight up the stairs. I rip my travel bag out the wardrobe and stuff my clothes in, underwear and charging cables. I grab my passport and my saved cash and shove those in too. Then I grab a couple of photos and put them on top before zipping it up, I throw my bag over my shoulder and climb out my window into the back garden before running through the trees towards the pack border. I have a little secret of my own that I’ve been keeping. I have a motorbike, hidden out on the border of the pack. When I reach the pack border I hesitate for a few seconds to catch my breath. My dad and Jax will feel me leave the pack borders as they are high ranking wolves. It will not take them long to realise that I am gone and come after me.
‘Ready Spartan?’
‘This is all you Ady’ she huffs in response.
I reach the bike in seconds and pull the helmet on before speeding away.
I have had an escape plan in place for a few weeks now, I was worried that I would need to get out fast. I will travel on the bike for two hours in the east direction. Once I reach the designated hotel their is already a car awaiting. I will check into a room and cover myself with rodent spray. I know it is disgusting, but it’s the only thing that can hide a scent to a werewolf. Once I have sprayed i will enter the car and proceed another two hours east-west. There i will go to the airport and catch the first flight over to Paris to start my travels. I have turned location off on my phone but will respond to some texts and phone calls to let them know I am okay.
I drive for about thirty minutes before my phone starts to ring, I look to see it is Jax. I stare at the screen for a few minutes and the call goes off. It instantly rings again and I pull over to answer it this time.
“Hello,” I say whilst stifling my cry.
“Please don’t do this Adyson, please come back.” Jax begs desperately. I could feel my heart splitting in two at his voice.
‘Go back now Adyson, this is stupid’
“I’m sorry. I have to go now, before it’s too much.” I try to explain through sobs.
“Ady I don’t understand, I thought we wanted the same thing” I could hear his voice starting to c***k and it was breaking me.
‘Go back Adyson, please’
‘I can’t Spartan’
“I love you so much. I always have Jax. I just couldn’t wait around for you to find your mate. It will destroy me and I will lose you.” I try to reason with him but i can’t stop crying.
“I love you too Adyson. You are my mate. Come back please, we can sort this together.” He pleads again.
“I can’t lose you Jax,” I was sobbing uncontrollably at the thought.
“But you are leaving me,” he retorts back at me. I sob for a few minutes as I think over what he said.
“But what if I’m not your mate?” I ask him in a small defeated voice.
“I don’t care, I still want you Adyson. I will choose you if I have to,” he tries to reassure me.
- Writer
