Cursed Demon's Love

Maybe Isabella is changing

I woke up in a warm embrace. My arms were wrapped around a hard torso. My head resting on somebody's chest. The secure hold on my waist was firm, protective and warm. There was no possessiveness, no malice, no carnal in their touch. I squeezed my eyes before opening them and I froze. I was in the Neron's embrace. I gulped at the warmth his body provided to me. His forest green orbs were staring at me. The golden freckles flared when I clutched his shirt, my eyes widened at our proximity. We were sitting so close. 

I squealed when I heard someone clearing their throat from behind. I jumped and fell on my butt and looked at Jenna with horrified expression. She was looking at me with amused eyes and wide smile. She, indeed witnessed me sleeping on him. Justin, however looked more alert. I swallowed nervously when Neron stood up and grabbed my bicep before pulling me up too. Jenna pushed herself away from Justin and take a few steps ahead. 

"Good morning, Isabella. I see you've slept very well." She wriggled her eyebrows, pointing towards Neron, openly. This girl had no filters. Justin, however didn't look so happy. He looked more like ready to pounce at Neron.

"Hi," She turned towards my demon and pushed her palm forward, "I'm Jenna, her roommate. And he is Justin, my boyfriend." She wrapped her arm around Justin's bicep with a wide smile. 

Neron, being his usual self, didn't respond to her handshake. His hands were shoved inside his pockets and his forest green eyes directed at Justin in deterrent and malevolence. There were no fire in his eyes, the only thing that made him inhumane to a normal human being. He had covered it up well. But one still couldn't miss the malice and danger in his eyes. Why does he always has to pull his guard up with people? I held his clenched fist and his eyes shifted to mine and he nodded lightly at me. 

"Neron." I rolled my eyes at how forced his introduction sounded. Jenna cautiously looked at me, and I smile at her in assurance. 

Neron easily dominated human beings with just a gaze. Jenna retracted her hand back and smiled awkwardly at him. How much I wished to hit this demon. Can't he be a little more polite with my friends? I pinched his finger and he rose his eyes in question, making me sigh in annoyance. Justin wrapped his arms around Jenna's waist and pulled her closer to him. His eyes softened at Jenna's scared and confused gaze but hardened when he looked at Neron in warning. 

"Isabella," Justin addressed me, "You should know whom you're associating yourself with. And you," He glared at Neron and I almost chocked in fear. "Stay away from her." 

Neron's eyes darkened and he rose his right brow in challenge. A low and vicious growl escaped from his chest, sending shivers down my bones. His demonic state was unwrapping slowly and I feared his divulgence. The fire that often surfaced with his anger was still diminished but that didn't make him any less scary. 

"Want to repeat that again, pup?" 

"Why? Are you heari—" 

"I think that's enough!" Justin looked at me with stern gaze and glared back at him. "You don't get to decide who I spend my time with, Justin. And you," I jabbed my finger in Neron's chest with narrowed eyes, "Calm down!" 

"Isabella," Jenna touched my shoulder and smiled at her softly. "I think you need some time. Justin and I are going out for a while. I'll see you in second lecture, okay?" I nodded my head gratefully. at her. 

"But—" Jenna glared at Justin before tugging him out, leaving us all alone. 

I gasped when he turned me around suddenly. The fire in his eyes returned and I burned in his fire, feeling my soul turning to ashes, blending into him. His touch was warm on my skin and I looked up at him. His chiseled face was clenched in annoyance and anger. He reached to touch my face, his fingers rubbing my cheeks, softly before his palms rested on my right cheek, holding my face tenderly and sighed. 

"The only reason that pup is still breathing is because he's your friend and is looking out for you," He gritted out, his fire flaring and I gulped. His fingers moved forwards to rub circles on my temples and I closed my eyes in ecstasy. 

"You never stay inside the dorm or make appearances amid humans. Why did you even take the risk?" His lips twitched and he retracted his hand back and motioned me to take a seat on my bed. 

He passed me the bottle of water before kneeling down before me, meeting my eyes. I swallowed the water, before pushing the bottle behind me. 

"Confession?" I rolled my eyes but smile none the less. 

"For every confession of mine, I want a true confession of yours too. You know the drill." I rolled my eyes in exaggeration but nodded in affirmation. 

"Yeah, yeah. I know. Go head, my demon." He rose his brows, flicking my nose. 

"You refer me like I'm a dog." I laughed, shaking my head. 

"I was about to leave when the thunder stopped but you held my hand and asked me stay the night with you—" 

"Hey! I did no such thing." He rose his brow, his eyes looking at me intensely. 

"You did. In your sleep. So I stayed until you woke up." My throat went dry and I gaped at him. 

"You stayed for me?" He sighed, his hand reached to hold my neck from behind before tugging me towards him, leaving only an inch or two amid us. My lips parted in shock and he smiled so measly that I almost thought it was my misconception. His touch left uncountable number of butterflies in my stomach that whirled inside me.

"I'll always stay for you, Bella." I swallowed, nodding my head, almost in his trance. "Now your turn." 

"What do I confess?" He shrugged, dropping his hand back to his side. I almost groaned in disappointment but kept quiet. His touch still lingered along with his warmness.

"Anything." 

"I have a wish diary. I made it when I was thirteen but things...... started to change and I started to hate my wishes. It used to be my very sacred secret back then, but now, they're just an ink of melancholy." He stared at me and I smiled emphatically at him. 

"I—I should leave now. The warriors are waiting for me in Hell." 

My heart suddenly started to ache, the void in my chest felt so real that I blanched. Neron reached forward to tuck some strands behind my ears and smiled lightly at me. The small action, put my heart on fire. The void in my chest was brimming with ecstasy and longing. The undefined emotion rushing inside my vein s were too overwhelming for me but his touch, they soothed every single kink and pain inside me. 

"I'll see you soon, hm?" I nodded my head, smiling. I wish this soon was everyday. Every hour, every minute, every second.

He pulled me against his chest, wrapping his arms around my frame firmly before pressing a kiss on my hair and patted my back before pulling away. He reached to his pockets before pulling out two bars of Kit-Kat and I laughed, wiping the corner of my eyes. Of course, How could he forget to gift me the chocolates. With that he vanished in the air, leaving some traces of fog behind him. 

The void in my chest only increased. 

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Loneliness swallows a person until there are no traces of happiness left. And loneliness flares when you long for a person and they're far away from you. Dying from an ailment or accident kills our body, liberating our souls free. But loneliness kills our soul before they reach to our body. People often say, killing one's self is an act of coward but what they fail to witness is the pain of the soul. Killing one self is not just killing the body but to kill the soul. 

The first time, I tried to take my life, I stopped when a little voice inside me consoled me, encouraged me that things would change. With every passing day, my inner voice started to get faint and vague. One day that voice got quiet. The silence echoing inside my chest was so loud that the roaring and clamor, outside started to get distinct and then I realized what loneliness feels. Loneliness is an echo of our dead soul, a reverberation of our end. I had been trying to get my soul back, trying to get my inner voice to return, trying to eliminate the never-ending chasm of loneliness, only to drown deeper into it. 

But with Neron, my soul heals, my inner voice screams but when he departs the silence again reigns, loneliness arrives and the desire to destroy everything prevails. My father always told me, I'm a messed up child, that my mind shuts before my heart and somehow I feel my mind doesn't shuts down, because every thought that conjures my mind, is a piece of my overthinking. But with him, every part, every cell in my body relaxes. He's a drug, I'm getting addicted to. 

"Are you going to pretend that I'm not talking to you or you're really deep in your thoughts?" I snapped out of my thoughts and glanced at Jenna, who was writing down the notes. The teachers were used to the nonchalant behavior of students and they didn't care much now. I sighed, writing down some bits of it. 

"I was..... thinking." She hummed. I bit my lips, not knowing what to say and what not to. 

"Isabella," She spoke, almost in a timid voice and I rose my eyebrows at her. 

"I'm really sorry for Justin. He just...... gets a little overprotective. He's not bad though." I nodded, looking at her with a smile. 

"I know, Jenna. Don't stress over it." She gripped my hand and pressed it in gratitude and I chuckled lowly. 

It was lunch break and we were eating our lunch when I saw a presence behind me. Jenna suddenly went stiff, making me turn my head back to see Jack. He was goofing at me, before sliding on a chair beside me and took his seat. I rolled my eyes, continuing with my lunch. 

"How are my ladies doing?" Jenna's jaw clenched and she stabbed her food, making me look at her in amusement. 

"I'm not your lady, Jack." Jack chuckled at Jenna, rolling his eyes. 

"Hello, Jenna. Of course, I remember you're Justin's girl. Who in their sane mind would oppose him?" He chuckled nervously. She hummed in response, sipping the water. Jack turned his attention towards me. The carnal in his eyes was so prominent that even his small talks came out husky. His needs were so well aware by me that I could smell his desires. 

"Long time, no see, Bella." My jaw grounded in annoyance and I narrowed my eyes at him. 

"Isabella." I gritted out. The way 'Bella' rolled out off his tongue, it burned me like an acid. The passion lurking in Neron's voice when he calls me 'Bella' is pure and raw but with Jack it left so noxious. 

"Right, Isabella. Most of the people love when they're called with other names." I rolled my eyes, chewing my food. 

"Guess, I'm not the most of the people around here, right?" 

"True," He laughed, rubbing his neck. "So, tonight, my place?" I sipped the water before turning towards him. 

"No." 

He frowned before a smirk formed on his face and he grinned at me. 

"Yours then? I don't really have any prob—" 

"No ones place, Jack." He blinked once, before glancing at Jenna and then again at me. 

"Why?" 

"Because I said so." All my desires were now flushed down. Even the thought of any other male touching me grossed me out. The sudden whim in me, gave me a whiplash but my expressions remained stoic. 

"What— why?" I sighed, turning towards him. 

"I don't wish to, Jack. Now if you could excuse us, please." He clenched his jaw and nodded, getting off the chair and marched off. 

Jenna looked at me with a wide smirk and I groaned loudly. She was sipping water from the bottle and looked at me with an obnoxious look. It was hard to ignore her and my cheeks were turning scarlet at how she was implying her thought with merely a smirk. 

"Someone's turning into a devotee." I glared at her and she smiled cheekily at me. 

"I just wasn't in the mood, okay?" She rolled her eyes, the smug expression still on her face. 

"Because you're just in the mood of Neron, yes?" I chocked on my food, glowering at her.

"Jenna!" 

"Isabella!" I narrowed my eyes at her and she looked at me innocently. 

"Come on, we need to get to our next class." I rolled my eyes, following her. Though, her words hit a spot on my heart. Neron.