INSANE (Book one)

Chapter 1

Leah Knight

My eyes slowly adjusted to the lights as I opened them. My eyebrows creased in confusion as to where I was. I looked around the space I was in. My head was leaning against the headboard of the bed I was sitting on. The room smelt so familiar. Peppermint, vanilla, manly cologne, I knew this room! I had laid on this bed multiple of times. I wanted to feel the grey silk bed sheets but my hands were still tied together. This room reminds me of someone. My brain clicked and realization dawned me. Almost immediately, Ares walked into the room, scrolling through his phone. I stared after him with hate, regret, hurt and something I definitely didn't wanna feel. He looks up at me, his charcoal black eyes burning through me.

"hello beautiful. I didn't think you'd wake up this early so I took my shower alone" he mused, walking over towards the bed. He sat down beside me and his fingers brushed against my legs. Instantly, I scrambled back as if his touch burnt me. My hair fell back over my face and I lifted a finger to him. I was breathing hard, hyperventilating.

"don't you dare touch me!" I screamed angrily. Ares shot me a bored look before hissing, yanking my hand and loosening the rope. After that, he touched my face but I slapped his hand away. He chuckled before advancing closer to me.

"Ares" I warned curtly. He knew how I felt about his touches. It paralyzes me to the extent that I would do whatever he says. And he enjoys it. He suddenly seized me by the waist and hoisted me up to his laps, maintaining a firm grip when I tried to get away. But who was I kidding? Ares was like a brick wall. He started trailing his fingers along my jawline until he stops at my collarbone.

"you've changed. Alot" he whispered in my ear, leaving a kiss under my earlobe. I shivered from his kiss but I didn't stop protesting.

"let me go!" I screeched but he ignored me.

"you're my wife, maybe you should start behaving like one" he said tersely. I narrowed my gaze at him.

"I'm not married to anybody"

"you're mine"

"you're insane". He grinned before edging me closer to him. He turned us around so that he could trap me on the bed before leaning closer until our breaths were mixing. My chest heaved up and down as my heart beats fast. He looks at me dead in the eyes as he smiled wickedly.

"yeah, insane for you" he murmured before crashing his lips onto mine. I felt an explosion of sweetness and for a moment, I forgot how much I hated him for k********g me only savouring his lips and tasting his tongue. God, his lips were so talented. As his lips pleasured me, his skillful hands worked their way up to the top buttons of my shirt. They didn't stop until they unbuttoned all. Ares moved forward and yanked me up to my knees. He broke the kiss and his lips found their way to my neck, teasing my skin. I let out a soft moan as he pressed me against the headboard and kissed my neck continuously. He zipped down my skirt and peeled it off me and all I could do was moan out of pleasure.

Suddenly, he pulled away. My body trembled for more. I wanted more of him. I wanted to pull him and ask for more. But I wouldn't be his rag doll. I knew what he was doing all along. He was weakening me, torturing me, because he knew the power he had over me. How can someone be so sweet and so dangerous at the same time?

"now be a good little girl and go get showered. Your body feels clammy" he says, l*****g his lips. My chest heaved up and down, my hair dishelved. I pulled my shirt closer to my body as Ares left me on the bed. He moved towards the couch that he abandoned his phone.

"after showering, then you'll come down. Dinner would be ready by that time" he says without even sparing me a glance. I pulled my shirt closer, as if I was looking for dignity. Suddenly, I remembered something.

"Ares, where's Reina?" I sobbed. He glanced at me and smirked.

"she's safe" was all he said. My eyes began to tear up.

"Ares-" I stopped when Ares banged the door and left. Did I mention he can be so rude sometimes?. I sniffed, deciding I would never cry for him again. Even if he tortured me with his kisses or touches, I would never cry or beg. This would be the last time he controls me. I stood up from the bed and went towards the bathroom. I saw my reflection on the mirror and I sighed. I could tell the girl behind that mirror was conflicted. My hair was all over me. My once bright sunset eyes were dulling. My skin didn't have that golden glow anymore. Was I sad? Hurt? Regretting? Or just confused? I don't know what I was feeling anymore. I sighed as I remembered Ares's words.

you're my wife......

My thoughts can be jumbled over at times but I was sure. I wasn't married to him. He wasn't my husband.........he never was. He was just my boyfriend. But why did he say that?

you think too much - a voice in my head says. I sighed and peeled off my remaining clothes before entering the shower cubicle. I pressed the hottest temperature for a nice shower. I wonder how someone can be using so many shampoos and body wash. I grabbed the one body wash that scented nice and started to clean up. I wanted to see my baby. I wanted to see if she was alright. I have no idea why Ares brought me here but I don't want to know either. He can be a psychopath sometimes. I won't do anything to trigger his mind. Sometimes, I used to think, maybe he had a double personality. Because Ares was more than a broken, complicated man. If you see him staring at you and tilting his head to the side, just run. But then again he could be a calm gentleman if he wanted to. He could be a romantic passionate lover if he wanted to. But at the same time, he was dangerous, mysterious and dark. Sometimes, he laughs unnecessarily. But sometimes, he could just throw you the most dazzling smile. God knows I've tried. I've tried so hard to forget about him but whenever I look at Reina, he falls into my mind. I close my eyes, he's there. I open them, he's there. He was like a devil that possessed my mind, claimed my heart, soul and body. He was my everything. And he was right with one thing, I was his.

I switched off the shower head and stepped out of the cubicle. I doubled over and nearly fell down out of fear. Ares was leaning against the faucet with a towel in his hands.

"you seriously need to stop doing that" he says with a bored look. I swallowed and pulled an arm over my chest.

"get out, Ares" I gritted with anger. He rolled his eyes and being the stubborn a*s he was, he did the complete opposite of what I said. He walked over to me and I sank back against the cold glass surface of the cubicle. He stood in front of me with that same bored expression.

"it's not like there's nothing I haven't seen before". I felt my heart fluttered at his statement. He was right though. My throat began to dry up.

i will not cry in front of him - I told myself. Ares proceeded to drying me up with the towel and I allowed him. Because he wouldn't listen to me anyway. His fingers mistakenly brushed my n*****s and he looked at them when they responded to his touch.

"they still darken for me?" he awed, as if he had achieved a goal. I huffed out a breath of surprise.

"Ares I want to see Reina" I said curtly. He gave me the towel and I wrapped it around my body.

"relax beautiful, she's alright" he sighed. I followed him out of the bathroom.

"I want to see my baby" I seethed. Ares shot me a dark glare.

"our baby" he shot. I sighed and looked over the bed, seeing Ares's tee shirt.

"you should wear that. Dinner is ready already" he says, handing me a set of undies and the tee shirt without even looking at me. I collected them and went back into the bathroom. After pulling them on, I fixed my hair into a messy up-do with strands loosely falling off. I walked out of the bathroom and saw Ares on the bed, checking his phone. Reina's cry caught my attention.

"Reina!" I called with excitement evident on my face. I ran over to the couch where she was laid and craddled her in my arms. She was still crying, and the sound made my eyes tear up with happiness. Reina was my life.

"oh my angel. You scared me, queen" I gushed to her.

"you're always scared of unnecessary things" Ares commented, standing up.

"do you ever consider other people's feelings when you talk?" I snapped. His eyes turned stormy.

"that's a question I'm suppose to be asking you" he sneered. I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. Anger, hurt and frustration all poured out in the form of tears.

"what have I ever done, Ares? All I ever did was love you!" I yelled.

"you wanna know what you did? You wanna know, Huh?!" he shot back.

"yes!"

"you left me. You left me and ran away with my baby. It drives me crazy, Leah!" he says. Suddenly, he seized me by my forearm and I yelped "and I got you back. I won't let you leave again. You're under my control now. Under my roof" he murmured dangerously.

"I never wanted to be under your roof, Ares" I gritted.

"what do you want me to do, Leah?! I brought you back, 'cause you were the only thing I had left. You understood me even when nobody did. I took you away and brought you back, because I need you!" he shoved me aside. Reina began to cry so loudly, even the silence that descended us was not enough to calm her down. I looked back at him and he was staring at her.

"I want a separate room" I called when he was about to leave "away from this madness. And away from you" I shot. 

"you've never asked for anything better" he snapped before leaving me  in the room.

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By 11:00pm, I had already tucked Reina inside her crib in our new room. I touched her face and stared at her as she peacefully slept. I sighed and tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear. I walked towards the French windows and pulled them open, walking into the balcony. The surface of the water that ran down the fountain in the lawn rippled the dark skies and shiny stars as I overlooked it from the balcony railings. The fight I had earlier with Ares was disturbing me. I was regretting my words and I couldn't take them back because he never showed up after he left. Maybe he wasn't even in the house. I walked over to the divan-cushion and sat down, sinking back in exhaustion. As I stared at the stars, I soon fell into a deep slumber.