The Moments With You

CONTRACT MARRIAGE

As Sidney woke up from a long sleep, he laid on the 6feet x6 feet, wide bed covered with white linen and a white blanket that covered him all the way to his waist, he realized he has been sleeping for so long and it’s already past noon, and he immediately it was due to the long dream he had of his past with Ezekiel and how they started this merry- go – round that is now his life,

“why was I dreaming of that time”, Sidney raised up from the bed and now came to a sudden realization that he was not at his apartment, “this looks too flashy to be my home as” he mumbled,  “maybe its an hotel, it looks like one”, he thought as he moved his head round to properly scan the room he was currently in and he was right, this room’s walls were painted in white and had different kind of expensive portraits on it and the room, the celling was also painted white but it had beautiful artistic carvings  onto it , and what more mind blowing was that the ceiling had a really expensive looking silver chandelier hanging from it,  he asked himself who would be so rich to get their self a room like this ,

The he noticed he felt a little too free at his lower half  and then his top half, he then used his hands to impulsively touch his bare skinny chest and then opened the wide white blanket that covered him for his waist and realized he was completely naked, that was when he realized he was with Ezekiel the previous at that beach and somehow they ended up there and for the fact that he was naked, it meant they s*x the other night,

Then he heard a familiar calm voice, coming from the direction of the bathe room say “babe, are you already awake now”, hearing that voice confirmed everything, he immediately knew it was Ezekiel, who would  spend that much money on an hotel room that would be used for just one night and also the only person he would let f**k him dry to the extent he faints from it, he was just that good,

Then Ezekiel came out of the bathe room after he was done washing himself, with a small piece of towel wrapped around his waist with a considerable amount of his thighs and also his legs exposed, Sidney saw this and sigh as he said, “zekel, wasn’t there any bigger towel there for you to use, the one you are on is too reveling”

“hmm, what’s that, are you checking me out”  he said as he turned around in front of Sidney, “don’t worry babe, its just me and you and you can feed my body to your eyes, but you know babe, that was quite bold coming from you, seeing as you are still naked, only cover by a piece of clothing, hmm?” Ezekiel added as he walked leaned closer to Sidney,

“hey, it’s not just some piece of clothing, it’s a really expensive, thick fabric blanket!” Sidney was flustered,

“hmm, yeah that can easily be removed like this” Ezekiel said as he effortlessly removed the blanket from him like nothing that it is, Sidney felt aroused from the way he removed the blanket from him and now exposed him completely, including his private part,  Ezekiel saw his erected stuff and smiled, fixating his eyes on Sidney’s rod, although, he knew his size was just half of his , so he let out a chuckle

Then, out of embarrassment, he pulled Ezekiel’s towel off as he said “hey! How can you-‘’ but  he didn’t complete his statement, because when he looked up and locked eye contact with Ezekiel who was dubiously looking at him, he knew s**t was about to go down;

Normally, he usually let’s Ezekiel get away with whatever he does an doesn’t say object or refuse him whenever he came at him, but then, he remembered the dream he had, which was the memory of how he entered this circle with Ezekiel, then remember how things got so messed up between them and mostly him especially, he gave a sarcastic laugh as he removed his gaze from Ezekiel’s eye, he told him

“Ezekiel, this has to stop now, I won’t be the one to get in-between a happy marriage”, Ezekiel who was just had a boner, and normal when he does, he doesn’t rest down easily, immediately  died down as he hear what Sidney had just said, Ezekiel frowned, ‘’and who said the marriage was a happy one? Are you there living with me to know how the marriage is…? babe, it’s a contractual marriage, I did it for the company, my dad made me do it”

“I know… I know that you don’t love her, I know that its just a marriage your company need s to benefit from her family’s company, but why, tell me why I feel so agitated and so small whenever I think of you being with her, I feel so ashamed when you are married to her and its okay, but if you are married to me, it becomes a taboo, now you don’t love her, but you live together, and she’s female and she’s young, she has everything I don’t, one day you could leave me for her, and would do I do then, I would never be able to get up from that….so tell me, tell me why can’t I leave  first while I’m still sane, why do you always keep coming back to me, why won’t you ,let me be, I have no shoulder to cry on” 

Sidney felt very sad, like as if all the pain he’d been bottling up right from the time he heard of Ezekiel’s marriage since 3 years ago had just been poured out all at once, but he’s heart still felt very heavy, he still felt the vacuum in his heart, he needs Ezekiel to belong to him and him alone, but he didn’t know how or what to do, and he was always being protected by Ezekiel, he was so addicted to him to the point that it was toxic for him, that was just how much he loved him, Sidney was trembling so much as he was crying bitterly.

As Ezekiel witnessed all this, he felt an aching pain in his chest, like as if a big hole has been borrowed into his heart, in a split second he fell into dismay, he was watching the one thing he loved and valued more than his own life cry and tremble as he holds on to his chest, gasping for air… he tries to recall, “how did we fall this low Sidney… babe how did it come to this”

******

It was on a Christmas Eve, 3 years ago, Sidney was preparing a romantic dinner for himself and Ezekiel, he was so into it, he was happy as he was making the dinner, he danced and sang as he cooked, nobody was more happier than he was, every Christmas he and him, would spend the Eve night together, it became like a tradition for them,

That was because, ever since Sidney’s parents found out he was a homosexual, his father felt so mad about it that he threw him out, but his mother wasn’t so against it, at first she was filled with confusion but she talked to him and tried to understand him, to know how he really felt about it, maybe it was because she was a woman or because she was the mother who carried him in her womb for night months and was also the mother who took care of him ever since he was little, maybe because she is his mother, she felt she need to be there for him always,

She paid eve more attention to him, after she found out he has been dating Ezekiel, and finally came to understand how much he loved him.

Due to the rejection from his dad, he could no longer go home to see he’s parent and he couldn’t be with his family on holidays like thanks giving and Christmas eve and all that,

But his mom meets up with him every once in a while,

So, that how Sidney got an apartment where he lives on his own, and that’s where the little romantic dinners happen.

On Christmas Eve four years ago, Sidney had already made the dinner ages ago and Ezekiel hadn’t shown up, he was supposed to be there at 9 pm, that has been their time for the past seven years, and not once of those 7 times has Ezekiel ever unless today was gonna be the day.

Sidney raised his head as he stared at the clock, trying to shake his head of the disappointment that was starting to surge up in his heart when he as it was now 12am and he was still waiting at the table,

Sidney was deep in thoughts, when the loud sound of his phone ringing from a corner in his silent living room that was just beside his diner which was where he was sited, borough him back in shock, so he with his pounding heart, he  rushed to the corner of the room, where he found his phone placed on the his favorites one sitter chair,

He picked it up from the chair, he checked who was calling him and he found it was his mom, so he answered it

“my beautiful baby, how are you?” she asks almost as immediately he answered, Sidney could sense the anxiety she was exhibiting from the way she spoke to him

“I’m okay ma, happy eve… why do you sound so anxious’’ Sidney was a little a little curious so he asked but Stella Whales, just continued with the conversation like as if the question wasn’t even asked, even ignoring the season greetings he said her,

“baby, is your TV on? are you watching the TV? Stella whales asked, to some extent, she knew the child she gave birth to, and she he wasn’t a fan of the TV but she still wanted to be sure, she wanted to protect he baby boy from whatever harm that could come to him,

Sidney was puzzled at the question she asked him, he wondered why his mom would call him on Christmas eve only to ask him if he’s watching when she knows he doesn’t swing that way… but he still answered anyway,

“no ma, I’m not you know I don’t do that… but why did y-‘’ wanted to ask why she would call him only for that but was cut short with an immediate reply from his mother,

“baby boy, whatever you do, don’t put on the TV okay, do it for me baby” she was getting even anxious with each word and Sidney was getting uneasy he wanted to know why he shouldn’t watch the  TV, but he couldn’t ask his mom because he knew she would never tell his, its just the same as watching it indirectly.

“okay ma, if you say so… I don’t even like TV anyways”

“baby boy, I’m serious, do it for me okay… and happy eve honey, you couldn’t even wish me”

“but ma, I just-“ didn’t complete his statement, that when he knew there was something serious going on, on TV that he wasn’t supposed to know, that could hurt him, because his mother was always like that when things go south in his case, he always tries to protect him from his problems and whatever would cause him pain… she tried to protect him from the pain of his father not accepting him, but it didn’t turn out so good, because Sidney is also so curious and like they say, “curiosity killed the cat” and it did.

“happy eve ma, enjoy’’ he ended the call with a fake smile on his face, even though his mom couldn’t see it. He was curious as he was doubtful.

Sidney was more curious than ever, and his blood just wouldn’t rest until he got to the bottom of it, so he drew the wild card and decided to watch whatever was on TV that his mom wanted to desperately hid from him.

As he walked towards the wide flat screen, black TV that was hung on the wall, he turned it on, but he reaches below to the small table on the floor, just below the TV to get the remote controller to the TV, but he couldn’t find it,

“I wish I had the money, I would have gotten one of those TVs you just had to speak to, to control it” he grumbles underneath his breath as he looks round his square shaped living room in a complete 360 degrees and finally found the remote controller on the center table, then he walks toward it in relief and bends to pick it up, but just as he did so, the controller fell from the table and he was surprised, because he knew he wasn’t a clumsy person,

“this should be the part where people start thinking it’s the universe trying to tell them do not do it” he chuckled, “ well I’m just gonna watch TV, there’s no bigge in that” he muttered to himself while wearing a sarcastic expression on his face, then heads back to the front of the TV,

Then he began Changing through the TV stations, as he gasps and staggers a little because was thrown into instant shock again by the sound of his phone ringing from his left hand, but this time, it was because he was anxious as he was doing something his mother told him not to do, seeing as it might cause him pain, so he was curious, anxious as well as scared to see what it was.

So, he diverted his attention to his phone and in less that a second, he was thrown into complete excitement and all the uneasy feelings from before disappeared like as if he never even felt them from the start, when he saw who the call was from, and he answered immediately

“zekel!  He answered as his excitement was clearly noticeable from the tone of his voice “where are you, its so late, its eve remember?” he asked immediately without even a breath space between each question.

“babe, I’m sorry I wouldn’t be able to make it today, I have so business dinners to attend to this night, I promise…., “

Sidney heard this and he felt disappointed, just as Ezekiel was speaking to him through the he phone, he came across a TV news station, in that station, he saw Ezekiel holding hands with another girl and they were smiling at eachother, tat first he couldn’t understand what it meant so he thought it was a normal businessmen courtesy, but then he realized the way they were holding hands was too affectionate to be called professional, so he’s eyes directed to the lower edge of the tv screen, where the headlines were written, and it read;

‘’THE MARRIAGE BETWEEN THE DOMINANT M&E ENTERPRISE AND THE FAMOUS HYUGO COOPERATION. JOURNEY TO MORE SUCCESS AND RECORD BREAKINGS,,

Then in that station, Ezekiel personally announced he’s engagement to Kelly Hyugo, and says “I have always been in love with her, she is and will always be the love of my life, I’m not getting locked with her for the sake of our companies, I’m doing it for our sake, for my love… her love… our love’s sake” then ends it with a perfect smile that highlights his face.

While Sidney was listening to Ezekiel on the phone, he was also watching him on the TV’s screen, he felt a stabbing pain to his chest as he stood in dismay, he was shattered into a million pieces while he was still standing in front of the TV, his mind went blank, he just FROZE like that.

“hello… hello… babe… Sidney… you still there, are you sad… don’t worry I’ll take you to dinner I-” he was abruptly cut short by Sidney as he replied after a few seconds from blanking out

“LIER” then he ended the call, leaving Ezekiel in complete confusion.

******

Sidney recalls as he stomps out of the Hotel room in anger, he’s face covered in salty tears, after wearing his clothing without even bathing, leaving Ezekiel all alone in the luxurious hotel room.

Ezekiel was speechless, he wasn’t able to say anything to him, he didn’t even know what words to use to console him, he just sat on the wide bed alone, as Ezekiel watched Sidney’s back as he left the room, he wanted to call out to him, to stop to tie him down but he couldn’t bring himself to do all that as he remembered he’s tear covered face,

He realized just how much harm he had caused, he knew within he’s heart, his love for Sidney was so deep rooted, he could kill for him, he doesn’t care who, how, or the stakes attached, all as long as Sidney is happy, but is his love causing him happiness or is it doing more harm than good? Ezekiel questioned himself,

Ezekiel felt angry, confused, depressed and as Sidney shut the door, enclosing him in, he felt alone once again. “but I did all for you babe, Sidney, everything I ever did, I did all for you” and just like that tears started to roll down he’s eyes.

As Sidney stomped out of the room, out of the hotel, and into the street, as he walked down the street in search of a cab to take home, that’s when he realized he was no longer at that town the met at the previous day, they were now back in the city,

He recalled how they went back to the city that night from the beach, and how the ended up at the hotel, and as he remembered all those memories, he also recalled his moments with Ezekiel through out that night, he remembered how he told himself he would stick to him this time, knowing what the stakes were, he said all that, but as soon as he recalled those painful memories, he ran away,

“I’m such a coward” he thought, as the tears he had stopped from streaming down his face all surged up and started rushing down while he staggers through the street, he want even sane enough to notice that the sun has already gone down.

As he stagers than the street covered in tears, without him knowing, he got to the back of a café, it was dark, it was empty, it was cold and Sidney noticed this, “its just like the piece of s**t that’s called my life”, he decided to stay there and sob to his heart’s content until he was ready to find he’s was home.

an hours later and he was still there crying, until he heard a soft thin voice, that sounded like as if the owner of the voice is right in front of him say “excuse me sir… ar… are you okay”, the voice sounded so familiar so he decide to look at who was speaking to him,

he was dumbfounded and heavily embarrassed when he saw who caught him in that state, he smiled sheepishly laughed at himself as he let his head drop while he used both his hands to cover his face.

“ah… Alec… its you”, he let out a deep and heavy sigh.