Mason finally had stopped crying and he was falling asleep in my arms. When I found out Mason was mine I was scared, scared that he wouldn't grow up to know me, that he would grow up without a father. I thought I wasn't ready to be a father I thought I wasn't cut out to be his father. But that's all going to change, I'm going to be with Mason and my Sarah again and nothing will get in the way of that, so I have to break up with Alice. I didn't care about her from the start, I never loved her she was just there for my entertainment, I know that makes me sound like a total d**k but the only person I have ever wanted was Sarah. I didn't know why I rejected her, I know I regret it, I really do and I'm going to make up for it when she wakes up ... I want to be happy have a real family with my m
