Rejected and Insecure

Grandfather

CHRIST

I grabbed my bag Wheeling it out of my room, my siblings were all waiting out side with their bags and death glares the stood behind the Mercedes Maybach S650 Pullman. 

I know the trip will be long, I couldn't enter the same car as my brothers, but I can't refuse either, I don't have the right to say anything I lost my privileges when I went to that goddamn party my phone my TV, my laptop everything taken away! I'm still regretting my choice. I shouldn't have gone to that party, I was such a fool!

But too late! Not only did Father give me punishments, Brian decided to hung the phone on me, I remember calling him.

Hey Brian? 

Hey! Christopher I waited for you all day but you never came! Why?!

I-i got in trouble, sorry, I'm spending my break with grandfather for the very first time.

Whaaa? You promised you can't do this! He sigh! Fine why are you punish anyway?

I-i did something really bad. 

No way! Don't tell me is what I'm thinking! 

Stop yelling okay? I'm sorry is-

I don't wanna hear it, you just ruin my break I should have gone with my cousin camping when I had the chance, you really disappoint me. 

Brian a.........

Since then he never called back, and I'm running depressed without him, I just feel ashamed for what I did.  

We put our stuffs in butt, my brothers went for a hug from father, I didn't, I curled in a ball staring outside the window, I don't merit that hug, I know Father is way too upset with me, not like he'll refuse the hug but it won't be sincere that will only hurt me more. 

Soon enough my brothers joined me, pulling out there phones, I sigh mentally, if they're busy with their phone I'm safe. 

One hour through the ride Jack phone died, he huffed searching desperately in his backpack.

"f**k f**k s**t!" He yelled throwing his phone on the car window, fortunately for us the car window was proof, it hit it and fell. 

I ignored his tantrum, once they're upset the throw their stuffs, so childish huh?

"Are you happy now?!" He yelled I just ignored him, which was a bad choice. I felt my head slam on the glass window pain jolted through my body, I couldn't help the yelp that force its way out of my lips. 

"When I'm talking to you don't play deaf ears motherfucker! You listen to me! Don't ever ignore me!" He yelled, I sank in my seat trying to get away from his red face. 

"I ask you a question! Are you happy?" He grabbed my hair forcing me to stare straight in his dark gray eyes. 

"N-no." I manage to say. 

"I don't believe you! You cause this I swear you must be happy!" Zack said. That i***t can't he just shut up?

Jack roughly release my hair before kicking my foot, "stupid! I hate you! Not only you ruin it for all of us you also made father upset!" 

"I bet he is sending you away, he just want us to come so you won't feel lonely." Zack said. 

"Father doesn't care about you, I'm sure he wants same thing as us for you to just die!" Jack yelled. 

I was careless of what they were saying this is not the first time I was hearing such horrors, I first heard it when I was five, I almost committed suicide, jumped in the pool almost got drawn but father saved me, I told him I slipped till this day, no one knows the actual truth. 

I was scared to look out the window again, maybe he will just slam my head again, and my forehead is swelling. 

The kept yelling insult at me till the eventually got tired. 

The ride was long and annoying, we finally pulled in front of the giant white house, three floors. 

The driver took our bags out of the butt to the house. 

I'm scared, I don't know grandfather, yeah, but I've heard those dumbass talking about him, I heard he was heartless, strict, cold and wicked, I don't wanna leave with a wicked person, all this is my fault! 

Curse the day I went to that stupid party! 

We stop in front of the Butler, my brothers were all calm like good little children, all their badass attitude gone, just like they were thrown a spell. 

"Mr Jackson is away for a meeting, you can make yourselves at home, please give me all your electronics." He pulled out a bag. 

They were all grunting before giving their precious away, I don't think they can make it without their phones. 

As for me, my electronics were already taken away back at home, "where is my room?" I interrupted their stupid annoying grunting. 

"Room 76 sir" he replied.

"No way in h- I mean that is not possible he is just close to mine!" Zack screamed stomping his foot, I scoff while rolling my eyes. 

"What-" he started but I just walked away, not knowing where I was going I just wanted to get away from them, I climb the long unending stairs, walked in the hall till I found room 76 my name was already on that door, Benjamin J.

I carelessly push my door open, revealing a huge room almost like mine at home, but it was still big, it had a queen size bed, with three shelves and a brown desk and desk chair, the desk had drawers, etc.. 

I unzip my suit case, arranging my stuff properly in the wardrobe and drawers. There were clothes in the wardrobe the right size, woah, that's too good to be a coincidence. 

That means grandfather have been waiting for my arrival only God knows how long, but then I've never really spoke to him, except one of those rare time when I said hi cause I was been polite. 

Never mind! 

I pulled out my homework spreading them on the desk. 

"I need to get this done!" I said to myself. 

An hour through I was already thirsty. There is no water here, I mean drinkable, I can't drink water from the bathroom sink, ew! 

I slowly made my way back to the hall, I was walking so fast, I'm no fan of empty and silent halls, it reminds me of this horror film I watch when I was ten. There was this little boy walking in an empty and silent hall with the lights flickering, then duh! Two little identical girls were standing at the end of the hall, they said "come play with!" The kept repeating and bump! Blood came flowing in the hall. 

I was so scared, the boys made it worse by scaring the s**t out of me when I was heading to father's room in the dark hall. 

The rough impact of me hitting something snap me out of my thoughts. 

"Argh!" Zack screamed in anger he had water everywhere on his white beautiful button down short sleeve. 

I rolled my eyes and was about to walk away when he grabbed my arm. 

"What the hell!" I yank my hand from his grasp. 

"Are you dumb or blind?! You just splash water on my favourite rich shirt!" He yelled. 

"So?!" I yelled back. 

"You are suppose to say sorry stupid!" 

This is it I've had enough of his s**t! "Shut up motherfucker! I don't take s**t from you! What the hell is wrong with you! Why can't you just leave the f**k alone! I'm tired!" 

"You don't swear at me!" He punched me on the face, I stumble a little. He didn't expect my next move it was just a surprise. 

I kick him really hard where the sun doesn't shine, then I punch him on the face, seating on top of him I kept punching and punching, his hands were already protecting his beautiful face but I had the chance to hit his chest. 

I'm just too angry! I'm very angry! I don't know why? Anger issues or mode swings I don't know! 

"Stop it!" I heard someone say but Ignore the person, it must be Nathaniel or jack. 

I feel a strong grip on my arm and I was pulled away from Zack then SLAP I felt a horrible sting on my left cheek. The sound echoed in the hall. 

My hand flew to my tomato red burning check. 

Then I was been pulled away to somewhere, who the hell was pulling me, it happened so fast that I didn't see Zack's savior then I saw him, grandfather! f**k! I'm so screwed! 

The door slam behind us, I guess we were in his office, he bent me over a little desk in the corner, then SMACK! I screamed out! This hurt really bad, what the hell is he hitting me with? Am sure is not the belt! Ow!

I yelp with each hit, at five I was already crying it really does hurt, but I never pleaded for him to stop I know is of no use, it will only satisfy him. 

The only sound echoing in the room was my loud sobs and the smack sound of the nonidentical object. 

I did loose count, I just want him to stop! It hurts like hell I've never been s***k like this in my entire life! 

I heard the door slam, my knees give in and I fell to the floor, letting all my tears out.

He left just like that I'm not surprise like father like son. 

I sobbed and sobbed tears pouring out of my eyes none stop. 

I buried my head in my knees trying to calm my breathing, if I don't I might fall sick. 

The door was flipped opened, he walk to his desk pulling a paper and a pen, he walk back to me dropping it on the little desk. 

"Sit!" He mention for the chair. 

I helped myself up to the chair wincing at the massive pain on my butt, I swear I hate s******g! 

"Why did you get a s******g? I want a sensible explanation." He went back to his desk studying some files, he is exactly like father, now I know where father got his attitude from, but he is like a thousand times worst. 

It was not a hard task for me, I spend most of my time writing my thoughts and anything. 

I wrote what he'll believe, it was my fault, that's all that mattered. No body cares about my emotions. 

I put the sheet on his desk not making eye contact. 

"Go to your room Benjamin." He didn't take his eyes off his file, really rude.

I was quick to exit the room, I walk in the silent hall slowly, my head hurts from the car window, I just want to sleep, I can't make it to my room without collapsing, I sat on the bare floor leaning against the brown wall, I need to think about what just happened, what is gonna happen? About everything! I just need to think. 

The wall moved behind me, wait is a secret door! I slowly slip in shutting the door behind me, it was a sort of cupboard but it was empty, I settled down sighing. Just like in every haunted house, their must be this secret little place. 

I really I'm regretting my disobedience, I shouldn't have gone to that party!

I really want to think but I'm too tired, just a quick nap, no one will even notice. 

I found myself dozing off, in deep sleep, sleeping is the only thing I can do to get the heavy weight off my shoulders.