Rejected and Insecure

Insecure around Fred

CHRIS

My life sucks! Since I came back to school, Brian hadn't spoken to me, he avoids me and hangs my calls. 

I've tried apologizing but nothing seem to make him change his mind. 

I just wish I was still at grandpa's, he is cool, we got along and now he is my favourite adult, he is comprehensive and understanding, my holiday started horribly but the five days remaining were they best ever. Our relationship still remains a secret, I don't want anyone to be aware. 

But right now I'm really running depress, my best friend is screwing my life up. 

I spotted him on his locker, I quickly walk up to him. "Hey." I said softly, he just ignored me and started shoving his stuffs in his locker before slamming it. 

"Wait please! Just two seconds." I stood in front of him blocking his path, he rolled his eyes while sighing

"What?!" 

"About our break together, I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to get in trouble it just came like that, I'm really sorry, I hate it when you ignore me, we-" 

"Oh you do? That was what you did to me, ruin my break and ignored my warning." 

"I said I was sorry." His face soften for a second before turning back to a frown when he saw Elijah. 

Great.

"I've someone else to hang out with, you're just wasting my time!" He said matching away just after shooting Elijah a death glare. 

"WO, he is in a really bad mode! Are you guys cool?" He asked. 

"Yeah no worries, how is your arm?" 

"Fine." He smiled.

"You freak me out." I said nonchalantly. 

"Yeah but at least you got over it on like my parents they're still freaked out, we're leaving town." He stare at his feet with the saddest smile ever.

"Why? we'll miss you!"

"Thanks man, you at least but not your family I know your father don't like me your brothers too, anyway we're moving back to the city of my ancestors Africa!" He tried putting up a cheerful smile but the sadness in his eyes denied his actions. 

"You're wrong my family loves you, they don't just show it." 

"Please, love my a*s! Your brothers were yelling their lungs out back in the restroom, they said I should stay away from you or they'll make me regret." 

Those sentence were enough to make me mad! I was fuming. "What the hell?! Who do they think the f*****g are?!" I yelled.

"Calmos amigo! I'm not them." He grinned. 

"Sorry, but sure thing they're gonna hear me!" 

"That's my CJ! Okay bye." He wave

"Call me if you're feeling lonely I'm all ears." I smiled as soon a Elijah was gone I frown clenching my fist.

Seriously my brothers are the worst ever! The intimidate innocent students just because they're popular and rich. 

The whole school is scared of the Jacksons, that's why I don't have bullies not because of my brothers that's for sure I earn my popularity on my own, I take s**t from not body just like my brothers, but at times they really a***e! 

The last bell rang you could here the commotion of students running in the hall. I put my stuffs in my locker before exiting the school, today soccer practice was cancel. I was more than glad. 

I first drove to my fencing practice then back home, I need to get my stuff for my horse riding. 

I push the door open as I walked in, I saw those bastards seating on the couch watching some movie like they own the universe.

"Hey!" I yelled drawing their attentions. "Who f*****g permit you jerks to interfere in my life business? I mean what the hell is wrong with you all?" 

"If you don't watch it we'll teach you a life lesson." Zack shoot up.

"Shut the f**k up stupid! You had no right to threaten my friend!" 

"Friend? Father ban you from talking to that son of b***h! The last time you had a discussion with him we were all punished, that's why we needed to interfere, and you don't tell us what to do! Get out of here before I beat the hell out you!" Jack threaten. 

"I'll like to see you try motherfucker! The next time any of you interfere in my business you'll wish you were never born! f*****g bastards!" I yelled. 

"Language Christopher!" Fred call from upstairs. 

I rolled my eyes. 

"Get your stuff ready you're moving to a new riding school." He said.

"No f*****g way! I don't wanna leave my present school! You just can't come and change stuff!" I yelled 

"Minster you really need to watch your tongue, or you'll get in trouble! And yes I can come and change stuff! Your now old school is not competitive and they have problems with the law, go to your room right now and change out of your uniform before you're late, I won't repeat myself." With that he left.

"f**k you." I muttered. 

I got ready and he drove me to practice, my so call new school is more bigger than the previous is in a ranch with horses everywhere. 

I was surprise to see Pegasus my white horse with another guy who gladly gave it to me, Fred said he bought it from my other school so I don't have to start over with another horse, is officially mine now, I was happy in the inside, I have no intension of giving myself away so easily. 

I don't trust him, after all he is my brother and all my brothers hate me, I,m sure he does but for the moment he is just trying to fool me, he wants me to think he is not like them then he can break my heart. I'm never letting this happen. 

Practice was rough but funny, I met new people, the one person I didn't take my eyes off was Tina she has brown hair and brown eyes really beautiful and friendly, a good dresser too, her horse is black and beautiful.

Practice came to an end too soon, Fred drove us back home, everything should have ended there but Zack had to spoil it as usual. 

He was seated on my desk, throwing my books down. 

"Get out!" I yelled as I walk in.

"I-" 

"Get the f**k out!" I yelled he stood up, staring at me weirdly or was it someone behind me?

"Stop cursing Christoph this is the last time I'll say it." Fred said, I rolled my eyes ones again before stomping to Zack and kicking him out as I slam my door shut. 

I'm clearly begging for trouble. I took a shower before switching my Xbox on, I played for like five hours. 

There was a soft knock on my door, I just ignored it and leave the person knocking. The annoying sound eventually stopped. 

Five minutes later my door was flipped opened and someone walked in. 

"Christopher turn that off," I heard him say. Damn he can be clingy! I ignored him and kept playing. 

"Christopher turn that off!" He half yelled. 

I was just mad cause next thing I saw was game over. I threw the controller on the wall, "happy?!"

He ignored my tantrum, "how many hours have you being playing?" 

"Dunno don't care." 

"Five and half hours right," I followed his gaze to the Xbox where 5:30 was flickering. I never knew their was a timer on my Xbox. 

"What the hell? Why did you do that?" I yelled. 

"Go to the dinning room dinner is ready, after dinner you come back here we need to have a peep talk." He said.

If I was in my normal self I'll be freaking out but right now, I don't give a damn. 

I followed him to the dinning room, dinner was served it happen to be legumes, I love legumes but with the mode I was in I just want to piss him off. 

"I'm not eating this." I said, everyone rolled their eyes except Fred, he doesn't seem piss though.

"You'll eat your food and stop being childish."

"No I won't, you're not the boss of me! And you can't give me some stupid orders!" I shove my plate hard enough to knock it down. 

"This it is! Go to your room immediately!" He bang his fist on the table, I shot him a death glare. 

"f**k you!" I stomped to my room and slam the door really hard.

The door flew opened revealing Fred with a paddle, I've never been s***k with one before, so I'm totally clueless about how it feels. 

"Mind to explain?" He asked.

"f**k you!" I said not taking my eyes off the nightstand. I know he hates me deep inside, is better I discover the pure truth now than live in a total lie, I want him to beat me up and leave like everyone.

"You leave me no choice Christoph, bend over the bed." He doesn't sound piss off just a little worried, I'm damn sure he is faking. 

I did what he said all my attitude and arrogance gone just like they came. 

He slam the tick wood on my a*s it did hurt, but not as much as the belt or whip. 

"You were really rude with me today, swore, curse, broke as many rules as you can. Just like you were begging to be punish. 

First you almost got in a fight with Zack, then you were been mouthy with me, you played on your Xbox for five hours, broke the controller, then you kept arguing with me and didn't stop swearing, I warned you not only once but four times, you ignored my warning and did whatever you like. 

I won't tolerate this attitude anymore! I'm not your age mate I,m your elder brother and I deserve your respect. You can't! I repeat you can't! do whatever you like whenever you like as long as you're on my watch!" He punctuated his words with a smack from the paddle, I bite my lip so hard, it started hurting, my knees started quaking and my breathing became faster, holding back tears is not the best thing I should be doing. 

"You'll do me a favour, stop swearing and giving anyone attitude, you'll behave yourself and do whatever I tell you, without putting up a fight!" The last five smacks were the hardest but it was finally over. 

I walk to the other side of my bed, turning my back on him, I buried my head in my knees, tears creep down my cheeks. I'm not letting them out till I hear the door slam, I just wanted him out of here! He should be happy, now I'm hurt. 

I felt two warm armed wrap around me pulling me in a comforting embrace, I couldn't hold back my emotions, I just wanted to cry, not from the pain but for all, for Brian, my present situation with my brothers, for Elijah for everything, I just go emotional like that. 

I buried my head in his chest and sobbed, I hugged him tight, I've not feel so much comfort for years, I stopped getting hug after been s***k when I turn six.

"Please don't make me do this again," he whispered. 

My eyelashes started getting heavy, my sobs died down to sniffles, I'm tired so tired, I can barely stay awake, I allowed the comforting darkness to swallow me.