UNA
Jaycel's POV
"We're going to begin in 10 minutes. This is our first concert tour here in the Philippines so better be ready and be confident while singing okay? Always remember that I'm proud to all of you" Ate ara told us while smiling. Ara is two years older than us. We are a girl group band and 3 years ago nabuo ang banda namin. I must say that ate ara is a great manager. She's not just a manager she's also our sister, and caring friend towards us.
To tell you honestly, Our band consist of five members. The first One is me the main vocalist, second is hyacinth, the lead guitarist, third is shalanie, the pianist fourth is kianna, the drummer and lastly is zoe, the second voice also our guitarist too. Our band named "Wild flowers" bawat isa sa amin ay may pinagdadaanan sa buhay. Tatlong taon ko din silang kasama at sa tatlong taon na yon, lahat nang sakit andito padin.
"Manager don't be such a crybaby, matagal na nating inaasam na sa pilipinas naman ang sunod na puntahan and guess what? Where here!!" Kianna told us while shouting. She's our maknae. The little angel of our group.
"It's been 3 years since you left this country ate ara diba? Buti naisipan mo pang bumalik" zoe smiled at her because it's the truth. Like what i've said, lahat kami ay may matinding pinagdaanan.
"Ah huh and i must say that we need to go to the back stage since malapit nang mag start. So girls, fire it up!" Ate ara tell us and give us a high five.
Nagsimula na kaming maglakad at nauuna ako sa kanilang lahat. Nandito na kami sa back stage and i'm f*****g nervous. Dinig na dinig ang hiyawan nang bawat tao sa labas. I'm so happy that many people came here to cheer us, to support us and to love us continously. Hindi ganito kadami ang mga taong sumusuporta sa amin pero god knows how much we tried and work hard for this one.
"Are you guys ready?" The host said it in a nice way, and guess what? Everyone cheer and shout our band "wild flower"
"Hindi na natin kelangan patagalin pa to. Let's give around of applause to our strongest female band, wild flower!"
Nagsimula nang mamatay ang ilaw at naupo na kami sa kanya kanyang pwesto. In just a second i snap my finger and on que, we started. Hyacinth started strumming his guitar and everyone follows.
"And as I look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from god above
For me to love
To hold and idolize"
Sa unang salitang binitawan ko, sandamakmak na alala ang naalala ko. Ilang beses ko na bang pinagpilitan ang sarili ko noon? Desperadang mang aagaw? Na kahit hindi naman ako nang agaw, ganun Pa din ang kinalabasan. I'm not a fan of violence that's why masakit isipin na kahit sarili ko hindi ko maipagtanggol.
"And as I hold your body near
I'll see this month through to a year
And then forever on
Til life is gone
I'll keep your loving near"
Antanga ko ba? Hindi lang naman ako yung babaeng kahit nasaktan na nagmamahal Pa din diba? Anong magagawa ko? Sobra Kong minahal kaya siguro ako nakuhang lead vocal nang banda, kada bigkas ko nang kanta, sagad lahat nang emosyon. Ganun ako nasaktan nang nakaraan.
I'm trying hard my best not to cry while I'm continuously singing infront of many people. I looked at the crowd and all I can see is their eyes, their eyes full of emotions.
"And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load"
I finally found my way. And singing is the mostly reason. This is my way of moving on, and moving forward. I clapped my hands and it's our que that everyone in the crowd will sing with me.
"You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose"
Flashbacks started coming in my head while I'm singing the chorus part. Mind you that I closed my eyes. I poured my emotions in every words that I've been pronouncing. I was a princess too, believes in knight in shining armor that will spend the rest of his life with me. Loving me, caring me, and promising to my family that no matter what happens, he will not hurt me. But guess what? I didn't experienced any single of that. It turns out that I'm living in my imaginations only.
"And when I feel like hope is gone
You give me strength to carry on
Each time I look at you
There's something new
To keep our loving strong
I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words I long to hear
Of how you'll always be
Here next to me
To wipe away my tears"
Inilikot ko ang tingin sa buong crowd upang makita ang lahat nang tao. They are the solely reason while I'm here. I stop my eyes on the man who's wearing a cap and a mask sitting in a vip sit here in front. Madilim kaya hindi ko masyadong makita and bulto niya bukod sa nakamask at cap siya. But I don't know why because I feel like I know him.
"And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load"
"Bakit ba andito kapa? Pera ko lang naman ang habol mo diba? Napagamot ko na ang nanay mo. Napaikot mo na ako. Ano pang gusto mo?"
"You don't understand. I love you and I will always do. Hindi mo kasi ako pinapakinggan eh" I'm crying and begging him to listen to me first before he concludes.
Napaupo ako sa damuhan habang nakaluhod na nagmamakaawa na pakinggan niya kahit sandali lang.
"I want you out of my sight, even in my life"
Just looking at the guy gives me a chills on what happened three years ago. Do I know him?
"You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You opened doors I closed
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose"
I stand up and hold my mic and itinapat ko ito sa buong crowd. Sign na sila ang magpatuloy nang huling linya.
"You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose"
You give me strength. And you also give me pain. My rio. My love, my first heartache.