Life Before Him

Chapter 4

I scoured four hundred bucks from four different people. So, I went and bought food we can make wtih what we have, and food i can enjoy eating. Chips, candy, cookies, i even bought burgers. I've been gone for only four hours, but it's around the time all of us would normally wake up so hopefully they aren't still having their fun. 

I walk into the cabin, and into the kitchen instantly scarred for life. They're butted up against the corner of the cabinets, making out, at least i really hope that is the only thing they are doing. 

Normally i would gag or cough, but i'm curious on what they would do if they saw me. So i just stand there, staring at them, and Felix's eyes blinks open and widen when they connect with mine. He pushes on Noah. "G-get off me." 

"What? Why?" He whispers and moves back from him, looking at me. His sadden face shifts into shock and embarrassment? Maybe? "Welcome back. What did you score?" He clears his throat, moving away from Felix who walks towards the small island in the middle of the kitchen. 

"Four hundred bucks." I slam it on his hand. "I used fifty. Food. If you two are finally done."

Felix wipes his lips and nods grabbing one of the burgers. 

"So, how long you two been f*****g?"

"Couples years. Off and on." Noah whispers. 

"Why?"

He inhales, crossing his arm and then sighing. "It's lonely. Sometimes you just need someone to get through it. I can't have a mate. His died. Mine died. I can't find a second chance mate so..."

"Why not?"

"Doesn't work that way for white wolves. You get one mate and one mate only. I've known Felix forever, and it just happened one drunken night, haven't stopped."

"Well Marcus will find out if you keep doing that."

"Marcus is out running. I can hear better and i can see what will happen before it happens, if i'm in it. So, i already saw you coming, just didn't know when and I didn't care."

"Right." i mumble. "Felix can i talk with you?"

He nods, and i set the bag on the counter, moving so Felix can walk past me. I watch Noah look in the bag and then smile. "Oh cookies."

That was weird. I've never seen him smile. It's...creepy actually. 

I walk out quickly, meeting Felix who is by the rocks. He sits down on his and i sit down on mine, moving my stick from my footing. 

"What's up?" He peals off the cheese from his burger with his fingers setting it in his mouth. 

"Promise me you won't tell Noah?"

"We have s*x and s*x only, talking is not apart of our relationship."

I smirk. "Anyways, gross, that's disgusting. But recently, and by recently, I mean like two days ago, I've been having this dream of this g-" I can't tell him about it being a guy, not something i want to talk more about. "About this person." I correct myself. "And this g-person doesn't have a face, but i see it's body. and it's talking but i can't hear h-it talk. And i feel something weird with it."

He frowns some. "Sounds like your mate."

I snort. "No. I don't have a mate."

"Every wolf has a mate. You can't get out of having one."

"What happened to Noah's mate? Why is he so angry when you mention her? When anyone does?"

"He didn't murder her. I did." he whispers, staring at his half eaten burger. 

My mouth drops. "Seriously?"

I did not see that coming. 

"Yes." 

"Why?"

"It was only five months after Lila died. My mate. And i found him again. It was when he was still somewhat sane. I was drunk and when I get drunk i see things, things not there. I thought i saw Lila, and the way Lila died was she didn't listen to me, and instead protected me when i was supposed to protect her. I got angry and i choked her, and i ended up killing his mate." he frowns.

"He didn't try to kill you?"

"Oh no he did. And i begged him too. But...things are very weird with us. We were great friends before that, he told me to get up, got me sober while he buried his own mate."

"Now he's sleeping with you?"

"Two guys, who lost everything, finding comfort. Sometimes you just need someone to touch. Or to touch you. Without hatred. You don't get that out here."

I wish the man in my dreams would touch me. 

Whoa. Where the f**k did that come from?

"Well, can't say i relate."

"Please don't tell Marcus, Noah has this thing about being as emotionless as he can, and i rather not deal with Marcus."

"Believe me i don't want to talk to Marcus. That is the last thing on my list."

"Xavier!" 

I look at Noah who walks out to us, stopping next to Felix. 

"What?" i ask. 

"Come walk with me."

I throw my head back and groan. I look at Felix as Noah walks towards the woods. "He's like the dad you never want."

He chuckles."

I follow to where Noah is, at the edge of the clearing, he looks at me, running his fingers through his hair. "You'll be quiet about this?"

I nod. "I don't care to think of what i keep seeing. If you keep it behind closed doors, i'll keep my mouth shut."

He nods. "Good enough. Anyways in a few weeks we're leaving for Aspen. You and I."

"Why us?"

"I trust you to do the ob. I don't trust Marcus to not kill him. I don't want him dead yet. I want them scared."

I nod. "I can do that."

"Exactly."

"So why you hate your own nephew?"

"Not hate. I don't hate him. I don't particularly like him, but i don't like anyone."

"Except Felix?"

He smirks. "That's a given. But, i need my nephew alive. White wolves are rare, my brother, Nephew and I are the only ones alive. The reason is, we all have power you normal wolves don't. I can see what happens in the future, within reason, and my brother could throw cars if he wanted."

"Okay? So what? The kid have some sort of mind controlling?"

"Mm, sort of. I threw his ass down the stairs so it would be delayed so I can find out what they are. It skips, I don't know like eight generations. And it's his time to have the rare one. My great-grandfather could mind control someone, and eight generations above that, they could snap their fingers and they were instantly dead. My nephew has that. I knew the moment I held him after that b***h had him he was special." He grumbles in displeasure. 

"So, what are his powers? Can you guess?"

"No. But this place will help us find out. I just need to find the building."

I nod. "So, we're killing him?"

"If it turns badly yes. I want him alive though. He's future alpha, and he'll be very strong. I need to corrupt him is all, and before my brother can sink his fingers in him."

I nod. "Alright, i'm down. Got nothing better to do." I turn to leave, before i stop and look at him again. "Are you like, in love with Felix?"

"He's not my mate. I don't get one. I can't."

"That's not what i asked."

"I'm emotionless. I murdered my mate, right?" he whispers and then disappears in the woods. 

"A simple yes or no would've sufficed!" i yell after him, turning on my heel and going back to my rock. 

Asshole.