I f****d up royally this time. She was finally warming up to me and I messed all of that up. And the most important thing is that I hurt her. Why did I have to be such a s**t head all the time?
Lily ignored me for the rest of the week. I left her alone because I didn't want to make things worse, but I missed her. I have to fix this.
I caught up with Ryan during the lunch period.
"Hey buddy," I said.
Ryan flinched like I was about to punch him, but relaxed once he realized I wasn't doing anything.
"He..hey Jacob," he said.
"Look I'm not gonna do anything to you alright? I want to apologize." I said and looked down.
"Aa...apologize? Ttt...to me?" he looked shocked.
"Yes, I'm sorry for being so mean to you. I didn't mean any of it. It's just that...I'm so f*****g miserable at home so
