The last male Alpha

9: Bonding

 *Kaisa*

 I push him hard in the chest. “What the…get off me you oaf”.

 “You are mine… my mate”. His breathing is heavy and his eyes are flashing Amber. There is no doubt the wolf is in the driver's seat right now.

 I let the leash off Solstraale for a moment, using my Alpha voice. “Get off me now Dacian, or I will have to put you in your place”.

 He whimpers and pulls back. Then he shakes his head. “Oh God, I am so sorry Kaisa. I .. I lost it”

 Then he mumbles to himself. “Bad Achak, what the hell are you doing ?”

 “So your wolf is called Achak…spirit ?” I ask softly. It’s an interesting name.

 He nods, his cheeks turning pink. “Yeah.. I am sorry about that. He is.. he gets a bit… I think he likes you”.

 I reach out, placing my hands on his cheeks and open my mind to him. Letting his mind and his wolf in. “Hi Achak, meet Solstraale”.

 ‘Mate’. The essence floods me and almost knocks me back. His wolf is different from any I have ever felt when connecting with my pack. The closest thing is my sister’s wolf Maaneskin, but it’s still somewhat different.

 Solstraale is whimpering softly. But instead of chewing and lowering his head like male wolves normally do, his wolf kinda curls around mine. Like they are two parts of a whole. And she accepts him.

 And then I feel him, not his wolf, but his essence. It is golden and warm, like being kissed by the sun on a midsummer morning. I let it engulf me, and I feel his fears, his pains, I learn of his strength and resilience and I feel my cheeks heat up when I learn of even the most intimate parts of his life. 

 When he softly prods, I let him suck in my memories too, even the painful ones of loss and betrayal. But when he reaches for the ones of Taddeo and our mate bond, I pull back.

 “Wow !” He lets out a small gasp, blinking furiously, as I pull back my mind.

 I smile softly at him. “I am so sorry that you have been treated like that by your Alpha. It is a weak Alpha who feels a need to punish even the lowest ranking members of her pack. An Alpha is supposed to care for and guide her wolves”.

 “She isn’t.. wasn’t my Alpha”. He says definitely. “But you are right, she has never been worthy of her title”.

 “No.. I see that..”. My fingers slowly caressing his heavily stubbled jaw line. “She couldn’t make you bow to her… you are not one to submit to anyone”.

 He grabs my hand and turns his head to kiss the palm with a passion that has me shivering. “I’ll happily submit to you. I am sorry that my wolf is a bit.. too much at times. Usually I have him leashed, but you… He is right though, you must feel it too”.

 “I… I do”. I sigh. “I am… a bit overwhelmed and a bit confused. True mates are not that common anymore and to get it twice..”.

 “Twice ..?” He snarls, then he does that head shake again, mumbling. “Achak stay out of this”. His attention returns to me. “Twice ?”

 I can’t help smiling. “I had a mate. He, apparently he wasn’t ready to commit, at least not to only me..”.

 “He cheated ? He… he.. that was the pain and loss, the part you hid for me”. He looks like he is fighting with himself, or maybe his wolf. “I would like to have a serious talk with him about how you treat a woman, especially your mate”.

 “And what would Achak like to … do to him”. I ask with a small lopsided smile.

 “He would like to rip off his useless d**k for betraying you and his tongue for lying to you and his..”. He clasps his hand over his mouth, and mumbles behind it. “Sorry.. ignore that”.

 I trail my fingers over his skin, skimming over his lips and feeling him shiver. “It’s okay.. I kinda wanted to do the same when it happened”. 

 “And what did you do ?” His fingers trail slowly up my arm as he looks at me through dark lashes.

 “I might have kicked him, hard”. Solstraale hums happily at the memory. “And then I rejected him”.

 He leans forward, slowly rubbing his nose and cheek against my cheek, mewling softly. “It must have hurt you and Solstraale even more. I am so sorry”.

 “It did, mostly Solstraale”. I breathe in his scent. “I think she was closer to his wolf than I was to him”. I pull back slightly, looking into his warm eyes. “You would never betray me like that… would you ?”

 “Never.. neither of us would”. He says softly, his hand slipping around my neck, his eyes slightly nervous. “But… you are not disappointed ? I mean that I am not a beta or at least a decorated warrior. You are okay with me being… a no one ?”

 I let my nose touch his. “You are not a no one, but even if you were, I wouldn’t care, you would still be my mate… our mate”.

 He pulls me in, his lips catching mine in a searing kiss that takes my breath away. Our tongues meeting, our essences flowing together. Our wolves are ecstatic and joyful, playing like cubs.

 My hands are pulling at his hair, feeling like I can’t get him close enough. And I feel how his hand, resting on my hip, is opening and closing, like it is unsure what to do. Or maybe he is once again holding Achak at bay.

 When the kiss breaks, he doesn’t pull away, but rests his forehead on mine, and I can’t make myself open my eyes. I want to stay in the moment, feeling his essence, tasting him, breathing in his scent.

 “Wow !”. He mumbles, his lips finding mine again briefly. “I could...”. Another soft kiss. “…Keep doing this…”. And another one. “…Forever”.

 I just hum in response, this time my lips find his. 

 Suddenly the door burst open and my sister burst in. “Kaisa, we..”. She stops. “Oh Hello there”. She quickly shakes her head. “Kaisa we need you.. Braka has gone crazy, he is attacking everyone”.