Not Today Jimin

All of him

Y/N POV: 

" Y/N !! Have you gone mad? You are not making any sense, you know that right!!" He actually tried to maintain a shocking face but couldn't because of his nervousness and beads of sweat that started collecting on his forehead. 

" Taehyung, either you admit it and tell me why you did that or we will discuss this with jimin." I warned him.

" I am not afraid of him." He gripped his glass tight enough that his knuckles turned white in color.  

"It doesn't matter. He has to know, he's my husband and you, you kissed your best friend's wife, moreover you are my best friend too, no, you were. I would have exposed you last night itself, but I didn't, because I know you, and my friend tae will never do what you did last night. Now tell me why you...... why you did that?" I asked him.

" I... I am sorry okay!! I shouldn't have done that."

"Sorry? Seriously!! I think we were way past than these stupid sorries. I bloody asked you, why did you kissed me? Huh!! you even get it!!? You. Kissed. Me. Taehyung. I just- I just don't understand why would you kiss me. I never thought you do-"

"Yes y/n. I kissed you.  I kissed because- because I- I love you y/n. And why are you acting so surprised by it. You do know something's going on between us right!!? " he shouted at me.

His sudden question caught me off-guard. Yeah!  He's right. I kind of attracted to him. May be it's because of the quality time we spent together,  or his attitude towards me, or his personality that attracts anyone in this world. I don't know.  Dont get me wrong.  I know I am not allowed to feel something like this. He's my freaking husband's best friend and mine too. But somehow I couldn't help it. One thing's for sure, I have feelings for jimin, strong ones, and I am also...  bit attracted to....  Taehyung.

It didn't shocked me hearing him saying he loves me. I kind of aware of it,  his long stares, his actions told me all. But I never expected him to open up like this.

I thought  I could bury my attraction towards him,  after I totally give myself to jimin. But now, I just don't think it's easy to do it anymore. He's not making it easier for me either.

And to my own shame,  I kind of enjoyed his kiss last night, I tried to reason myself that I enjoyed it because I thought it's jimin, but even after I know it's not jimin and it's taehyung, I still couldn't help but feel how good that kiss was, maybe it was one of the reason why I didn't expose him and it's making me feel even more worse.

Guilt is consuming me. Jimin....  I can't do this to jimin. He don't deserve any of this. He's trying his level best, showering me with all his love, but me being a whore... I was enjoying other men's touch.  I am disgusted with myself.  I hate myself,  I don't know whether jimin's going to forgive me for this. I can never forgive myself for what I did and doing to him. No I can't let this happen.

" Tae, come to your senses. There's nothing going on between us both. "

"Stop lying y/n, at least to yourself. " Tae sounded serious yet desperate to convince me that I was attracted to him, but I can't let him know that, if I did, it will make easier for him to make moves against me, upon me. I can't allow him to do that.

"Believe what ever you want. I only see you as my friend. Nothing more. " I stated strictly.

"Oh really!! " he stood up and held my shoulder to make me stand up which he did afterwards. 

And all of a sudden being this near to him, I feel this urgency to kiss him. What!!?

"How about this?" he held both my sides of head and connected his lips with mine. And my first instinct is to push him away and slap him hard across his face. And I did. 

I did try, but couldn't actually push him. He felt like a big rock to move who happens to stay at his place effortlessly not moving by a inch, out of all attempts I tried to shove him away from me.

He held the back of my head and my back with either of his hands to make me stay still. I don't know why but I want to give up on fighting this urge to kiss him back,  admit that I want him as much as he want me.  But.....  I just can't do this to jimin. No,  then again, I feel so weak and vulnerable at this moment to think of any s**t.

My hands slowly crept to his collar as he took my lower lip into his possession and started sucking on it, which made me loose my mind. I loved it,  I loved the way he's holding me and kissing me forcefully. And I hate it that I am loving it.

He deepened the kiss by tilting his head to the other side, which ultimately resulted in me moaning right into in his mouth,  and he had this sexiest smirk that I have ever seen in my life,  on his face which made me go all embarrassed. But I couldn't stop what he is doing., and this time he didn't held me with force, but for support.

And I know what I am going to do right now is probably going to destroy my whole life but at this moment I don't want to think of any kind of situation and I want this. I know that I want this. I am ready to face the consequences for what I am going to do.

I slowly closed my eyes and let the pleasure in,  I kissed him back with all I have got. And it felt insatiably insane that my mind can go nuts if I stopped doing it. I can't believe I am doing this to jimin, but I don't know, Tae hyung always had this effect on me. He shore does have this effect on every woman.

He lifted me up as I instantly wrapped my legs around his waist, with my hands around his neck. He held my both buttocks and made me sit on the dining table. His hands started wandering all over my body,making it really hard for me not to rip off our both clothes and let him have me right there. 

He finally decided to stop sucking my lips but licked them as like asking me permission to open them up for him,  but I am too distracted to respond, which made him impatient, probably anger, so he slapped on my buttock which will definitely leave a mark over there. I gasped with pain, but weirdly it turned me on even more. He took the chance and shove his tongue into my mouth and kept invading all over it. I tried to kiss him back, just like him but couldn't actually because of his strong body holding me still and his tongue and hands continuously doing tricks to me.

He slowly moved from lips to the next dangerous part of mine,  my neck. He started giving pep kisses from my neck to collarbone.

Oh God!!  This feels soooo frustrating, am wet. Like super wet, that I want him f**k the hell out of my brains. Now.

No....  No...  No..!!  What am I even impossibly thinking. God this has to stop.

"tae...  Ugh! " he started sucking on the connecting spot of neck and collarbone, circling his tongue on it from time to time.

"Do you know how f*****g turned on I am by just hearing you moan my name.. Hmm? " he said it in such a deep voice that made my knees go week. He took my hand and slowly directed it to his p***s which stood like a straight line. As soon as I touched his member,  I can feel how hard he is, he is really huge that excited me to the point what it feels to have his d**k in my v****a.

I involuntarily started chewing on my lower lip. The air between us become so intense. I can feel his hot breath on my face as he keep nearing his face to mine.  I closed my eyes not able to handle the tension, giving up to him .

He pulled my lower lip from my teeth as I opened my eyes to see what he is up for.

"If anyone's going to bite you today, that will be me. You got it?" he pecked my lips. I closed my eyes again to let him have his way with my body. I screamed when I felt him biting on my neck.

"I remember asking you a question y/n?" he licked there to sooth the pain. Soon I found myself moaning at his actions.

"OK... " I managed to say those two letters from my mouth in that tough situation of mine.

"Be more specific babe." he lowered his tongue to my chest line as his hand started massaging one of my breast. I gasped once again.

"I understand. You are the only one that got to bite me...  Uhhhh..... " he slowly made his kisses way to down to my breast.

"You are such a good girl y/n. You listen so well. Do you want me to reward you?" he stopped whatever he's doing and folded his hands leaving me all needy and horny. 

Trust me I never knew a person can be this horny that he can do anything at that moment to have a relief of all that s****l tension. Guess what!!  It's exactly happening to me right now.

If I answered that damn question of his, there's no going back. Honestly I don't want him to. I think I will do anything for him to touch me,  make all horrible things to my body right now. I just want to have s*x with him. I feel like I am ready more than I ever was for s*x, with him.

I really didn't know I had this version of me inside until now, risking all you have, just to have some moments of satisfaction. I know I shouldn't, but it feels like I am so addicted to him, in this point that I can't let him leave me.

With all my shame and embarrassment, whatever make out we had till now, it's kind of not enough for me. I want to do more with him. I want to have s*x with him. I want him f**k me in all the possibile ways he can. I couldn't stop thinking of it. But it's wrong. I have my own husband to fantasize all kind of these s**t.

But at this point I want Tae.

I just want him.

All of him.