Chapter 34 Sean I couldn't sleep well last night, not because I was in a hospital, but because I couldn't stop thinking about Helena's recording of Rose. I am trying to understand what possessed her to have the idea of separating me from Helena. It will never happen because Helena came into my life without any intention whatsoever. She didn't see me as a businessman, a rich widow who could change her life, no. She saw me as a bitter, cold, lifeless, arrogant man, and she came into my life most unexpectedly and sweetly to show me what I was doing and save me from the miserable life I was in. That is the reason why I admire her and want her in my life. That is when my clean and true intention for her came out. I thought my love for Joyce was unconditional, but after Helena, I realized tha